Why do I want to be loved again?

[Captain.Heroin]

I made an acquaintance recently. I am sure soon we will be friends. They have said they are very thankful to have met me. We don't just hug but embrace. We stare in each other's eyes. Have spent hours together. I start to feel close to someone else again. I am sure we feel very similarly about each other and we seem to be on the same wavelength. We've both "opened up" and seem to not be repulsed by each other. I don't know why I try. I don't know what I get out of life either but in the years' past I have wished to shut my "heart" off to not love anymore. I do not like the grief and loss. I do not like missing someone you used to love forever. It is an incredibly uncomfortable feeling.

Question, why do I want this? What am I getting out of it?

There's probably no easy answers here. None of my questions will likely be answered without an absurd answer, but any input, even loosely connected, is appreciated. If I had to guess this is a placeholder or a charade to let me ignore how lonely I am. I don't know why my mind tries to deceive itself.

 

[Wubb]

Question, why do I want this? What am I getting out of it?

1 Why : Because there's no better feeling then knowing that someone feels the same way about you, as you do them.
2 Why: your not a member of the borg and are entitled to feelings and happiness

also

blowjobs

 

[PriestTheyCalledHim]

Because you are human, and we all need love, unless you have those major psychological/personality disorders spare ribs wrote about.

 

[ChemicallyEnhanced]

Because all humans need to be loved.

 

[Captain.Heroin]

you're not a member of the borg

No but perhaps I've been rescued from the borg and want to go back.

I see a lot of "Human" answers. Not sure what to make of it but thank you for all responses everyone.

 

[Jabberwocky]

Tomorrow could be the best day of your life, or the worst say of your life.

The only thing you can control is what you do in the moment, so just make baby steps in the direction you feel like you should go. It doesn't really need to have an answer as to why you suddenly want to turn your heart back on again. I know that you must want to control your heart valve, but you can't! It opens when it's ready, and you are ready!

GO GET 'EM, TIGER!

Really. Do it man, not aggressively though just keep taking the baby steps you have been taking.

Just BE YOU!

 

[Captain.Heroin]

That was probably very valuable advice and I should take note of your words.

 

[mal3volent]

You're a good guy, Cap. Intelligent. And you're packing heat as well. You've got all you need.

I can't wait to see what life has in store for you

 

[hyroller]

life is a matter of making the time pass in accordance with one's desire to interact with certain classes of peeps. some ought to fuck off (not to say this to the OP).

all in all, I attract lazy folk who can't fathom doing the investigative nitty gritty into the necessities that plague their plight.