You are still quite young. I have always had troubles meeting people and forming relationships but I always found it happened when I wasn't expecting it or looking for it.
Hyper focusing on it, focusing on how you are alone can have the effect of self sabotage. It can become a self fullfilling prophecy if you dwell on it and allow it to be your reality which is extremely common for those affected with depression. Your perception of yourself and the world around you can have a massive impact on how you interact with others and therefore how they interact with you. If the depression is causing you problems, maybe look into getting therapy for it.
Learning to let go and live in the moment, not overanalyzing things and not constantly second guessing yourself can be healing and it can also help you attract different people. It's also sort of dangerous to think that being with someone can solve all of your problems, it's just setting yourself up for codependency and if you can't be emotionally fulfilled and secure on your own, when relationship ends eventually, it will be very difficult to cope. It's much easier said than done. That could also come in time though, as you gain experience and learn more about yourself and how you function in a relationship.
If you are desperate, maybe try taking some chances on people and see what happens. The more experiences (or failures) you have, the more you learn about yourself and what you enjoy in others and how to better find someone suitable for yourself.
People can be extremely shallow and ignorant, it may just be my paranoia but I sense that people are still passive aggressively posting messages here for me. Just in case that is the case, I like men and woman. Ive had a cock in my ass and I am not ashamed of that. I have told everyone the truth and they have been caught lying and kept lying and spread that deception absolutely everywhere in my life and everyone has shown their true colours. They will keep lying regardless of how horribly it affects me mentally. I have been suffering and freaking out for 7 momths just wanting people to tell me the truth because all these lies have made it so I have completely lost the plot. I have OCD and absolutely can't think of anything else. Being lied to hurts but being lied to and deceived by absolutely everyone in my life and no one admitting it, its destroyed me and I literally have wanted to kil myself to make yhe pain stop. So I can actually have inner peace. Knowing the truth and being able to show people the truth of how horribly this is affecting me will make it stop. I haven't lied and everyone is wrong. Just plain wrong. I have been tortured and ridiculed and have had my whole life turned into gossip by extremely wrong and sadistic assholes. It is just total and complete violation of everything in my life. Contacting everyone I have slept with, getting everyone I know to make remarks to me and deny that they even know each other. Having my doctors lying to me and they knew all the shit you guys were doing and I quite literally just asked them for the truth so I can understand what is happening and regain control. My voice has been stolen from me and I have been taunted and toetured and lied to by everyone in my life and its all just so you can feel justified in letting me down when I was suicidal, lying to me and getting caught lying and continuing to lie. I have not lied once. I dont deseve this and its like people wanted me to fail and kill myself. Stop being cowards and just end this torment.
It's just fully and completely destroyed my mind at a time where I had absolutely nothing and was trying to pick myself up. Every single person has been caught in a lie and when they keep lying it hurts me even more. Even my doctors are lying to me to cover their own asses. Not a single person cares how horribly its been affecting me and that I deserve the truth and to be able to show I am telling the truth. I am not gay and in denial, I have had sex with men and woman and I am fine with both and not ashamed of myself. Cowardice and lying has just absolutely destroyed me at a time when I was faced with suicidal depression and I started hearing voices. You people literally left me with no refuge or anywhere I could feel safe and secure and its just plain wrong and cruel. I have horrible anxiety and self.image issues and you people have been shouting out thay I have lost weight and am doing drugs and all this shit and I literally could not decern from what is real and what was a hallucination. You destroyed my life and contacted everyone I know to have them make condescending remarks to me. You have humiliated me in front of so many people. Everywhere, everyone threw me away and let me down and lied to me at a time when I was literally losing my mind. Hearing voices and constantly feeling like I am being watched is terrifying and you guys just made it worse. All you had to do is tell the truth. That's all. Not doing so and going to the lengths that you went to to torture me, I sincerely wanted to kill myself to make it stop. I had ammunition for it, but I've been strong and I got rid of it.
No one deserves this.
