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Why do I crave to use and how can I help suppress the crave

Just to throw this out there, unless this is a battle you've been struggling with (and losing) for some time, or unless it has begun to really rip apart your life, might I suggest avoiding methadone and buprenorphine. Going from the beginning stages of an addiction to oxycodone to methadone dependency, or even buprenorphine maintenance, may be counter productive. You still have a good chance of putting opioids begin you sooner than later. Methadone, even buprenorphine, will bring your more in for the long haul.

Also, why not switch drugs? When I was in the early stages of addiction to opioids I would smoke pot instead of take pills, and it really helped the cravings. It wasn't until I got into illicit opioids and prioritized using them over most all other areas of my life did the buprenorphine and methadone routes make more sense.
 
Wow I can not speak into words the support u guys give thx u so much but the only brick road I have hit and I should have mentioned this earlier is that I refuse professional help because I don't want ppl to know because and think of me different like my family and friends I'm 16 and u can see how that could possible effect me and how ppl think of me.
 
OP I wish I put the needle down at sixteen. I'm 33 now and I have a year and some change clean. Think of all the bullshit I would not have had to do if I had just reached out for help...I thought I was strong, thought I could fight. I thought there was a virtue in figuring it all out for myself. In reality if I had reached out I could have saved myself from getting kicked out of schools, criminal record, Hep C, and other health problems. Right now you gotta make a choice! You need help or you are going to walk a real shitty road that is opiate addiction. Being afraid of what people will think of you? That's garbage. Imagine if you don't reach out and you hit thirty and have lost everything....would you be so worried what they thought then?

Either do nothing, or get help...those are your choices.
 
Alien47 said:
Wow I can not speak into words the support u guys give thx u so much but the only brick road I have hit and I should have mentioned this earlier is that I refuse professional help because I don't want ppl to know because and think of me different like my family and friends I'm 16 and u can see how that could possible effect me and how ppl think of me.
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I totally sympathize with this. Do you have insurance through your family or state? If so, find a therapist to talk to. It's not hard to come up with a reason to see one - you could even call ahead and ask one or two how to explain your need to talk to someone to your family without getting into it.

Talking with a therapist is totally confidential when it comes to your drug use, and they couldn't tell you parents or anyone else about it without your explicit consent. It will do you a huge amount of good to talk with someone about this. Your struggle is only going to become more of a burden and harder to address the longer you put off focusing on it.

That first step to getting help is HUGE, especially if you've kept your use a secret from everyone. But once open that first door you can accomplish anything you set your mind t . Your so young, you still have most of your life's opportunities open to you, yet to come. Please try and make the most of them, for all of us who weren't so wise or able to at your age.
 
toothpastedog said:
I totally sympathize with this. Do you have insurance through your family or state? If so, find a therapist to talk to. It's not hard to come up with a reason to see one - you could even call ahead and ask one or two how to explain your need to talk to someone to your family without getting into it.

Talking with a therapist is totally confidential when it comes to your drug use, and they couldn't tell you parents or anyone else about it without your explicit consent. It will do you a huge amount of good to talk with someone about this. Your struggle is only going to become more of a burden and harder to address the longer you put off focusing on it.

That first step to getting help is HUGE, especially if you've kept your use a secret from everyone. But once open that first door you can accomplish anything you set your mind t . Your so young, you still have most of your life's opportunities open to you, yet to come. Please try and make the most of them, for all of us who weren't so wise or able to at your age.
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qft!!!!
 
I could write forever on this but ill keep it short. Youre young and you have a wonderful chance to put this shit behind you and live your life. I started drinking and using when i was 12 and im now 40 and im just getting it together. All those years wasted. Please seek help. I totally get at your age why you wanna keep it secret but you can get discreet help. I know its out there cause my stepsister was strung out on meth at 16 and she started seeing a addiction counsler who was also a former addict which i think is important and she got her clean and shes 22 now and still clean and STILL goes to this counsler and shevworks andvtravels and is living her life. Anything that feels good will give you cravings. Massages will give you cravings fir more. Pills and opiates are a cobweb of cravings. I know cause im going thru it now myself. I had a bad habit for just 3 weeks a month and half ago and actually got on this site for help with certain things i wont mention but just those days i abused i crave that dam rush everyday all day. Try anything you can to stop. Even if you just smoke weed thats cool. My heart breaks cause your age. But use your age to your advantage and nip it in the bud and live!!! God bless you on your journey!!
 
Wtf? I'm a bit confused now... so what exactly are your advocating here justtakethat?

It would be lovely to be able to use opioids until late into old age, so basically the rest of one's life. But the OP clearly has some issues controlling the drug use. Frankly at that age one really shouldn't be using anything, but I'm not naive enough to expect that or even advise it really. But yea, I'm not sure suggesting he control his use is very good advice. Assuming I understand what you were saying.
 
that is every junkies dream...controlled sustainable use. We all know its just a dream though when we go on a binge and wake up on a piss soaked mattress under an overpass....and all you can do as you sit there is hope that the piss is yours. It just is not possible for me to use mood altering substances in a self controlled way. I mean I have to have someone control my benzo supply so I don't just say fuck it and go overboard one day.
 
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It's possible to edit posts on the mobile site. I regularly edit my posts like 10 or 15 times before I'm happy with them (but I'm really really quick about it so no one notices ;)).

I'd frankly say 16 is young, but "these days young means like fucking 8 years old" (I heard a guy who teaches a class about drugs and behavior say that, if anyone can relate to the silliness of such a ststement).

But 16 isn't like super unreasonably young. Fifty years ago kids used to start smoking at that age, so it's kinda relative. Still, I would say anyone who starts using opioids before the age of 17-23 is starts "young." Folks who find themselves in the early stages of addiction before that age are just more or less in the extreme, and sadly will probably encounter more challenges in life and recovery.
 
started banging morphine at age fifteen....you are absolutely right about experiences some pretty tough challenges in recovery. I had to completely reboot my life and I am still learning who I am.
 
god, I can't imagine the challenges you guys have had to face with starting so young. I'm really grateful fate put off introducing me to hardcore opioids until I was in my late teen and early 20's. Those five years make a big difference from what I hear, in terms of one having a bit more self control and one's brain having "naturally" developed on it's "own" (hah well not really with all the psychedelic drugs I was eating)... :\
 
The best advice I can give you OP is to start counseling now. It doesn't matter why you tell them you need it. Make something up, say you are having anxiety and social phobia. Take this opportunity to learn your strengths and weaknesses, and put a few coping skills in your toolbox.

Don't end up like me at 33 with a million started projects, and never knowing which end is which. Honestly, if it wasn't for my boy TPD I wouldn't have gotten back into meditating everyday. You should try it. It is incredibly helpful with my cravings.
 
I agree with both you guys. Like i said in my post, the earlier the better or youll end up like me. Im 40 and i started early but back in my day it was 40's and joints so i can imagine having an opiate habit in my teens. When i was in rehab last year there were 2 dudes. One was 17 and one was 18. They both just got out of jail and were doing their mandatory rehab then back to jail. I felt terrible for them. Both were banging opiates. I took a liking to one of them. The other was a punk and prob gonna stay in jail his whole life but one was really scared and i shared my experience with him and my advice was same as now to OP. Pray, meditate, get a counceler or go to meetings or whatever it takes to get and stay clean. Once you wait to my age its tough bc drinking or using has been my coping mechanisim my whole life so it makes it really tough to succeed. I have many unfinished projects too. Ive been in 2 bands and got kicked out of both for being messed up now im trying to write my own stuff and play my guitar but its hard to pick up where i left off. I think having a hobby is important. Good distraction. I had a horribly vivid using dream last night and it was so bad its gonna take all my resources to stay clean today. My "cravings" are thru the roof. Im physically shaking and trembling cause i want it so bad. If i had gotten straight in my teens i would be a totally different 40 yr old. Goid advice on this thread. Yall please wish me luck today cause its gonna be tough. I wish you luck!!
 
Some really good suggestions and advice in that post closeau. Especially how if you wait until your age to deal with these problems it is so much more difficult. Exponentially so. I've heard many say the same thing.
 
Thanks. I hate to see people so young fall into the pit. On the other hand i love to see young people get and stay clean. Shit brings tears to my eyes. All the misery and suffering that is avoided. One of my friends in the program is 18 and came in when he was 15. He started in Ala-teen cause his dad was an abusive drunk and he started drinking and went right into AA. He just says he doesnt wanna be his dad. I wasnt in recovery till i was 31 and fucked around and relapsed then started the ping pong life. Im 40 now and i struggle with my alcoholism and a wicked opiate habit. Im doing really well. Havent drank in almost a year and my little opiate thing is over and i take them as prescibed but days like this i struggle bc of that nasty dream i had. Ive been jonsin all day but have kept busy and talked to others. Im goibg to bed tonight clean and sober and for that, im grateful!! These young people break my heart but there are a lot of teens who get clean and sober and i think thats fantastic. Even in AA big book it has a page that talks about younger people coming in and how great that is cause it saves them from the carnage most of us have created. Some really good advice in this thread.
 
Just remember while u read all these posts^^that theres the other option to use but not get addictrd like how people drink once in a while without being addicted. And whenver i try tk edit on mobile i tap the edit box and it acts like its a link to delete it for some reason
 
justtakethat said:
Just remember while u read all these posts^^that theres the other option to use but not get addictrd like how people drink once in a while without being addicted. And whenver i try tk edit on mobile i tap the edit box and it acts like its a link to delete it for some reason
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yeah we are giving you advice from a veteran of the drug worlds perspective. You may be in that 80% of the population that can control their use of drugs, or just have one or two drinks and stop...but jebus help you if you are in that 20%.
 
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