Why do I cause myself pain?

[harraser]

Why do I put myself through this emotional torture?
Why do I sit here and listen to all the songs I know you love?
Why do I remenisce over all the things we ever said to each other?
Why do I cause myself pain?
I know youre going through hard times
After all we still share freinds
So I hear about you every day
And I wish I could do something to help
But Im afraid Id just make things worse
Why do I pick up the phone and hit all of your numbers but one?
Why do I curse myself for being too scared to hear you talk as if nothing happened?
Why do I read over all your old letters, trying to find where I went wrong?
Why do I cause myself pain?
Youve moved away, Youve moved on
But I still sit here on the road
Hopeing youll stop and pick me up
And say you love me,and take me home
And never ever ever let me leave
Why dont things ever turn out the way you plan?
Why does life always have to be so fucked up?
Why cant things go my way just once so I can be happy?
Why do I cause myself pain?
Why....?
[ 11 December 2001: Message edited by: harraser ]

 

[cherub]

I think that poem was very much riping soul truth, we do so many things to ourselves but yet we can't help it. good luck!

 

[skarazira]

aww /me hugs you.
I like this, way to express your feelings.
It will get better. :D
sara

 

[E-girl]

why?... because hurting is just as much a part of life as loving is. i dont think you can have one without at least a little bit of the other. life is about learning lessons, and those lessons aren't always easy.
but it will get easier, if you let it.

 

[FutureAeons]

I've been where you are before so I know how painful that state of mind is. What I learned is to just let it go, as hard as it may sound, and if it is meant to be then it will happen. Sometimes the solution is right around the corner and you just don't know it.... yet.