Still Thursday, July 8th, 2010 and it is now 958 AM here in Makati, Luzon, Philippines.
Recap: Simply recalling how I began to develop feelings for Jackie, after it became clear that Rizza was shacked up with goiterman (I know, terrible of me).
OK...So...I have spoken quite a bit in other entired about trips I took home and how I have only returned here now, for good, because of Jackie having run away from home so that explains that sordid tale I reckon.
Why this title then? OK, well about 3 days ago, my last time on BL, I initiated 2 threads in CE and P forum. 1 was about a Viet Namese Acupuncturist slash Herbalist who claims to have found a tell tale sign of proof to ascertain male virginity. She claims that all males who have never had heterosexual intercourse have a tiny red dot behind their ear and that after sex it disappears. Homosexual relations and masturbation do nothing to it and she has used this form of "proof" to free 3 men convicted of gang rape.
The 2nd thread was about a 20 year Guaynese man who dug up his 75 year old neighbour 1 day after she had been interred, fucked her corpse in every orifice and stole the money and jewels she had been buried with according to Hindu custom.
Nice, yes? Both absolutely true, both absolutely recent, but as with every I post I purposely did not set a hyperlink.
It has always been my deeply held opinion that people retain that which they work for. Think about it, when you are given 50 Dollars, or when you earn 50 Dollars, do you value them the same way? You value that which you earn, of course.
I have been through this with Mods literally dozens of times over the years, and because some agree with me, but mostly because there was no rule saying I could not, they have always left me alone about providing a hyperlink.
Silly me, sometime over the years some sharp tool added a rule that a hyper link must be at the top or at the bottom of the initial post in a new thread.
Now that is OK, I respect the need for rules, even though with which I don't agree though in this case I do see the utility in demanding a link simply because other less honest people can start pulling shit out their ass and claim it is a genuine news event.
When I signed on today I had 2 PMs (I always have several but these 2 in particular) from Mods whom I will not name out of Spork's abhorrence of talking about posters and Mods behind their backs (sorry I am chuckling with that one for some reason, just seems like such juvenile bullshit, talking behind backs and all) .
1 of the Mods took the time to show me a but and psted copy of the rule, which is cool cause I actually didn't know some anal retentive clown had added it, but when I went back to the forum, I was a bit suprised. A 3rd Mod who has a problem with me (apparently) had closed both (assuming it was for that afore mentioned "rule").
I said to myself, why do I even bother with this bullshit? I came to BL when I was 31, I am now 43. I came out of my deeply held support for Harm Reduction but it has been years since I posted more than 5 posts in any drug related forum in any 12 month period.
I guess one gets acustomed to a website, like anything else but the women in my life find th site repu,sive, or else think it a total waste of time (given the women in my life that is probablly in BL's favout).
There are indeed very nice people but I am trying to sort out what exactly drives me to continue posting here?
I think I dig the Blog, it is kind of cool to look back and remember a time more vividly but even that, why?
One thing I have noticed in the time I have been here, most people don't stay long, and most people approach this as some sort of pissing contest.
Maybe time for a change? Then again, over the years I have had this feeling before. I remember when Phreex (I should say RIP or something) voiced his emotions as he voluntarily gave up Moderating the forum he was instrumental in creating, "Other Drugs," saying that when you feel like garroting a poster for asking a question the 10th time in 6 months its time to hang it up. Me feeling fed up over a Mod having a hard on for me? That's not me hahahaaha but maybe if I don't throughly enoy an effort, best not to put forth an effort?
Oh, let me explain why the unnamed Mod has that proverbial "hard on." There is a poster, nameless of course, from Australia. The poster has ridden me for a good year and as always I have been extra-civil.
After the 9 terrorists, I mean "Activists" were killed by the IDF as that ship tried to contravene the Israeli Blockade, he posted that I (meaning me personally) was a "baby killing scum" with the requisite 4 letter words. OK, my response? I told him that I hoped life on the sheep station had gotten a bit more exciting since he had gotten the "Crocodile Dundee" boxset and a box of frozen shrimp for the "barbie" (or some such vaccuous shit).
I received my first ever "BL Warning" for that hhahahah. So I PMd the Mod, and I said, "You and I both know you are full of shit. A poster rides me for a year, calls me a "baby killin scummy motherfucker" and I reply by telling him he eats shrimp, watches DVDs and farms shrimp...and I get a "Warning?" I closed by saying "Whatever" and laughing.
Since then, "hard on" hahahahahaha.
So juvenile.Anyway, why DO I bother? For the life of me I cannot figure it out and that is eating away at me. IF I didn't engage this site I could spend a maybe 10 or 12 hours a week doing something truly productive, like sitting with my thumb in my ass as I listen to Jackie talk about how "honesty is important," or at synagouge listening to my cousins complain about Filipinos...I don't know, maybe I will think of some redeeming reason.
Recap: Simply recalling how I began to develop feelings for Jackie, after it became clear that Rizza was shacked up with goiterman (I know, terrible of me).
OK...So...I have spoken quite a bit in other entired about trips I took home and how I have only returned here now, for good, because of Jackie having run away from home so that explains that sordid tale I reckon.
Why this title then? OK, well about 3 days ago, my last time on BL, I initiated 2 threads in CE and P forum. 1 was about a Viet Namese Acupuncturist slash Herbalist who claims to have found a tell tale sign of proof to ascertain male virginity. She claims that all males who have never had heterosexual intercourse have a tiny red dot behind their ear and that after sex it disappears. Homosexual relations and masturbation do nothing to it and she has used this form of "proof" to free 3 men convicted of gang rape.
The 2nd thread was about a 20 year Guaynese man who dug up his 75 year old neighbour 1 day after she had been interred, fucked her corpse in every orifice and stole the money and jewels she had been buried with according to Hindu custom.
Nice, yes? Both absolutely true, both absolutely recent, but as with every I post I purposely did not set a hyperlink.
It has always been my deeply held opinion that people retain that which they work for. Think about it, when you are given 50 Dollars, or when you earn 50 Dollars, do you value them the same way? You value that which you earn, of course.
I have been through this with Mods literally dozens of times over the years, and because some agree with me, but mostly because there was no rule saying I could not, they have always left me alone about providing a hyperlink.
Silly me, sometime over the years some sharp tool added a rule that a hyper link must be at the top or at the bottom of the initial post in a new thread.
Now that is OK, I respect the need for rules, even though with which I don't agree though in this case I do see the utility in demanding a link simply because other less honest people can start pulling shit out their ass and claim it is a genuine news event.
When I signed on today I had 2 PMs (I always have several but these 2 in particular) from Mods whom I will not name out of Spork's abhorrence of talking about posters and Mods behind their backs (sorry I am chuckling with that one for some reason, just seems like such juvenile bullshit, talking behind backs and all) .
1 of the Mods took the time to show me a but and psted copy of the rule, which is cool cause I actually didn't know some anal retentive clown had added it, but when I went back to the forum, I was a bit suprised. A 3rd Mod who has a problem with me (apparently) had closed both (assuming it was for that afore mentioned "rule").
I said to myself, why do I even bother with this bullshit? I came to BL when I was 31, I am now 43. I came out of my deeply held support for Harm Reduction but it has been years since I posted more than 5 posts in any drug related forum in any 12 month period.
I guess one gets acustomed to a website, like anything else but the women in my life find th site repu,sive, or else think it a total waste of time (given the women in my life that is probablly in BL's favout).
There are indeed very nice people but I am trying to sort out what exactly drives me to continue posting here?
I think I dig the Blog, it is kind of cool to look back and remember a time more vividly but even that, why?
One thing I have noticed in the time I have been here, most people don't stay long, and most people approach this as some sort of pissing contest.
Maybe time for a change? Then again, over the years I have had this feeling before. I remember when Phreex (I should say RIP or something) voiced his emotions as he voluntarily gave up Moderating the forum he was instrumental in creating, "Other Drugs," saying that when you feel like garroting a poster for asking a question the 10th time in 6 months its time to hang it up. Me feeling fed up over a Mod having a hard on for me? That's not me hahahaaha but maybe if I don't throughly enoy an effort, best not to put forth an effort?
Oh, let me explain why the unnamed Mod has that proverbial "hard on." There is a poster, nameless of course, from Australia. The poster has ridden me for a good year and as always I have been extra-civil.
After the 9 terrorists, I mean "Activists" were killed by the IDF as that ship tried to contravene the Israeli Blockade, he posted that I (meaning me personally) was a "baby killing scum" with the requisite 4 letter words. OK, my response? I told him that I hoped life on the sheep station had gotten a bit more exciting since he had gotten the "Crocodile Dundee" boxset and a box of frozen shrimp for the "barbie" (or some such vaccuous shit).
I received my first ever "BL Warning" for that hhahahah. So I PMd the Mod, and I said, "You and I both know you are full of shit. A poster rides me for a year, calls me a "baby killin scummy motherfucker" and I reply by telling him he eats shrimp, watches DVDs and farms shrimp...and I get a "Warning?" I closed by saying "Whatever" and laughing.
Since then, "hard on" hahahahahaha.
So juvenile.Anyway, why DO I bother? For the life of me I cannot figure it out and that is eating away at me. IF I didn't engage this site I could spend a maybe 10 or 12 hours a week doing something truly productive, like sitting with my thumb in my ass as I listen to Jackie talk about how "honesty is important," or at synagouge listening to my cousins complain about Filipinos...I don't know, maybe I will think of some redeeming reason.