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Bluelighter
Anxiety. Codeine was the first little helper.
Why did you start using drugs?
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sweetsweetcyanide
Greenlighter
Remember when we were kids and we swore we would never do druGs? xD
Jakeperson
Bluelighter
Nope.
HighonLife
Bluelighter
me n all my buddies made a pact in 8th grade not to do drugs
they all started smokin during the summer b/w 8th n 9th grade
i held out til christmas time 9th grade cuz i thought they were gonna fuck up their lives
they have all since graduated college n gotten 8-5s
i got addicted to heroin, am still in college after 7 years n work in a kitchen
![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
funny how things work out liek that
Folley
Bluelighter
Uh, I think this poll is missing a major candidate...
I use drugs because it feelsgoodman, I'm pretty damn sure we all do too lmao
I use drugs because it feelsgoodman, I'm pretty damn sure we all do too lmao
xstayfadedx
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In abnormal psychology last week my professor actually talked about how dare does actually do the opposite for some areas of our population.... she said because of how one sided it can be, it actually tends to have kids go out and actually try the drugs for themselves. Oh how I love her... finally a teacher who admits that dare is a bunch of bullshit.
Seyer
Bluelight Crew
That applies to curiosity. You wanted to know how good the drugs felt, right? 8)
First use for me was obvy herb...by the time I was 15 I had been going to raves, not some whack 18+ shit, I'm talking 3333grand, rainbo, rt.66, cavalinis, the funeral home....so x (pressed & mol) k an yay...well one time after a party on the southside, my friends ride stopped at the Stateway gardens...snorted a bag, puked for almost two days. Next thing you know (within a year) I'm boosting razor blades and Prilosec etc etc & bangin a jab of Ickes dope in less then a day. Had my fav spots for ever, No specific locations please. ...projects always had the best diesel for sure. Shit I even caught the last wrath end of the "Austin 7"...bitch ass police Rollin around with jabs on them, guns, crack, etc etc... It finally took a 36 day coma due to fentynal laced bags (back in the mid 00's) when that scare first happened, remember they found 7 bodies in a garage off No specific locations please.... Yup, after that, just stopped. Sadly I ended up using again, and acquired a bogus habit again...copped a drug court case, gateway LAME villa, way back inn [relapse] back into custody, then serenity house...sober for two years, relapse...ended up living in a 'bando by my last spot [14th ridgeway, best dope I've ever done] heh, white kid in the holy city, funny now....so I got smart, pulled the easiest card for a detox, threatened suicide and went to tinley park...nastiest detox ever, and surrounded by legit cases lol got out and said fuck the bs, an moved to Denver....2 years clean, cept herb of course. Pretty proud of myself considering the tar problem out here...I look at the 290 on my arm, still scarred with a cooker mark...life goes on, now I'm down to making 500$ cash a week goin on a year now, got my own condo, an still mixin that legit deep house music. Interesting group here tho, for sure.
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Mr.Scagnattie
Bluelighter
Because I was young, stupid, glamorized it, and.... was young and stupid.. Hah.
TheLostBoys
Bluelighter
I was never curious of drugs, ive always known they could harm people & a lot of my friends smoked weed when I was in junior high but I still hung out with them & was pressured a couple times to smoke but never gave in.
I never did anything until I got to college. Freshman year & after breaking up with a gf, was down & decided I wanted to toke some weed & did. Actually weed made me feel worse so I was never a weed toker much, off & on but quit 10 years ago.
Opiates are the best if youre feeling down & out but be careful, they can lead to your demise as well..............
I never did anything until I got to college. Freshman year & after breaking up with a gf, was down & decided I wanted to toke some weed & did. Actually weed made me feel worse so I was never a weed toker much, off & on but quit 10 years ago.
Opiates are the best if youre feeling down & out but be careful, they can lead to your demise as well..............
Dirty genes.
My first opiate was Mommom's Percodan when I was 8. Everyone was always fighting over her pills and my mom would make me stand guard outside of the bedroom so she could steal some. I figured they had to be wonderful pills if everyone wanted them. Fast forward six years, mommy dearest is bribing me with her Vicodin to watch my brother instead of going to school. Needless to say, I'm a full-blown addict at 24 with no way out.
My first opiate was Mommom's Percodan when I was 8. Everyone was always fighting over her pills and my mom would make me stand guard outside of the bedroom so she could steal some. I figured they had to be wonderful pills if everyone wanted them. Fast forward six years, mommy dearest is bribing me with her Vicodin to watch my brother instead of going to school. Needless to say, I'm a full-blown addict at 24 with no way out.
crazycatman
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If alcohol counts than it's just a part of teen culture in out country - you get wasted on Friday.
If not, I was watching this tv show how some girl got raped using ghb, wondered how it felt, found out that gbl was still legal and easy to convert to ghb, bought 125ml online, converted it, liked it and that was that.
If not, I was watching this tv show how some girl got raped using ghb, wondered how it felt, found out that gbl was still legal and easy to convert to ghb, bought 125ml online, converted it, liked it and that was that.
Mr.Scagnattie
Bluelighter
Fucked up, ha.
Drugs had never occurred to me, until a friend casually mentioned them before a boy scout camping trip. I tried them (weed) on said trip, feel in love. It's been bitter sweet since then.
fakeplastictrees4
Bluelighter
curiosity and then soon after to get away from an emotionally abusive mother.
majorigpa
Bluelighter
I had always been curious and interested in drugs, and once I tried them at 15 I fell in love, mostly because they were the easiest and most effective way for me to escape the burden of years of physical and emotional abuse at the hands of my father. Of course at the time I wouldn't admit that to myself, or perhaps wasn't fully capable of understanding that function drugs were playing in my life.
At first, as far as I told myself, I just liked to party. I mostly smoked pot, drank and did coke. I liked the camaraderie drugs provided and i liked the way my peers treated me knowing that I was the particularly "drug-savvy" one. As that novelty wore off with me as well as my peers and more drugs became available to me I drifted into the "experimentation" phase. I told myself that I was mostly interested in exploring different states of being and that I could only grow as an individual as I experienced more and more. This is when i discovered psychedelics and "club drugs", and made it a bit of a mission to find and use every one under the sun.
In the "experimentation" phase i also discovered benzos and opiates, the latter of which would become my problem child and lead to my ultimate recognition of the fact that all along I had indeed been using drugs to cope with low self-esteem and feelings of neglect caused by the abuse in my life. I tried heroin at 18, and over the last 7 years it has been all at once a comfort blanket, a constant struggle, and in my attempts at recovery ultimately led me to recognize exactly WHY it is I have always desired to alter my consciousness.
I've had patches of sobriety but i still struggle with drugs constantly, namely heroin. There is no doubt that I have lost money, health, and a few relationships to my problem. But at the same time I've also been forced to confront a lot of issues stemming from my childhood abuse that i might have allowed to control my life in much larger ways. I'm not saying that I'm proud to have a drug problem or in any way trying to justify addiction, but I honestly believe that were it not for drugs I may have very seriously hurt myself or others in the past. Do i have problems? Fuck yeah, but at least I've become constantly aware of them, if not altogether free of them.
At first, as far as I told myself, I just liked to party. I mostly smoked pot, drank and did coke. I liked the camaraderie drugs provided and i liked the way my peers treated me knowing that I was the particularly "drug-savvy" one. As that novelty wore off with me as well as my peers and more drugs became available to me I drifted into the "experimentation" phase. I told myself that I was mostly interested in exploring different states of being and that I could only grow as an individual as I experienced more and more. This is when i discovered psychedelics and "club drugs", and made it a bit of a mission to find and use every one under the sun.
In the "experimentation" phase i also discovered benzos and opiates, the latter of which would become my problem child and lead to my ultimate recognition of the fact that all along I had indeed been using drugs to cope with low self-esteem and feelings of neglect caused by the abuse in my life. I tried heroin at 18, and over the last 7 years it has been all at once a comfort blanket, a constant struggle, and in my attempts at recovery ultimately led me to recognize exactly WHY it is I have always desired to alter my consciousness.
I've had patches of sobriety but i still struggle with drugs constantly, namely heroin. There is no doubt that I have lost money, health, and a few relationships to my problem. But at the same time I've also been forced to confront a lot of issues stemming from my childhood abuse that i might have allowed to control my life in much larger ways. I'm not saying that I'm proud to have a drug problem or in any way trying to justify addiction, but I honestly believe that were it not for drugs I may have very seriously hurt myself or others in the past. Do i have problems? Fuck yeah, but at least I've become constantly aware of them, if not altogether free of them.
SarahU
Ex-Bluelighter
Pain, anxiety, insomnia.