I lurked bluelight as early as 2006 for sure, but didn't join until some time in 2010.
Basically, what ended up happening was that I had been sent away to a long term treatment center at the age of 20 for my addiction to benzo's, heroin and cocaine. After finishing the program I relapsed at a half-way house, then moved back to Brooklyn and stayed completely clean from all drugs (not counting nicotine and coffee) for around 8-9 months before relapsing on some hydrocodone (which turned into an all out speedball binge). I was put on suboxone for the second time, but I was not ready to quit, and suboxone did not satisfy my craving. My first thought was 'wouldn't it be great if I could have subutex instead of suboxone...", as at the time I didn't know you could I.V suboxone and thought IV subutex would somehow be different and change all my problems.
So I started researching IV buprenorphine, and eventually started to read about people who where using their suboxone intravenously. At first the idea frightened me, but I was at the end of my rope. I had already started selling my belongings to shoot coke and take xanax, and everyday was the same old bullshit: run around, somehow make money, try to cop, get high, or get depressed. Eventually after reading enough about why you could shoot suboxone when it contained Naloxone, I gave it a try, and sure enough, I didn't go screaming into the bathroom, foot prints made of shit trailing behind. Now, I can't say that I think shooting suboxone is a great thing (and it really shouldn't be done unless it's filtered properly with a micron, though even then, for some the whole act would be counterproductive.) But at the time, it worked out for me and kept me away (for the most part) from IV coke and dope.
So initially the only threads that I paid too much attention to were the ones on Buprenorphine in Other Drugs, but over time my interest broadened and I found ways that I could help others through sharing my past experiences/mistakes. I also realized the Bluelight was really the only online forum that I could find where I felt as though people treated each other with respect (I remember how kind and patient the moderators at the time-Captain.Heroin & Cain2theLeft were to me), and that the posts, for the most part, were/are intelligent and articulate. I never have been one to want to 'join' anything, but in Bluelight I found a true community (as well as a girlfriend a quite a few close friends). I was so glad when I was given the opportunity to moderate this forum as well as Other Drugs.
Well, enough of being corny, I'll shut up now.
(though it's the only one I've used for a long time)
