SpeedLimit55
Bluelighter
Me now elongated fingernails meet gently with the corners of my eyes.
Searing through my skin like the anger through my soul, they dig deeper...perhaps searching for the answers too.
Not afraid to speak, only refusing, I instead turn to screaming.
Belting out the battle cry of birth pains and of children lost, I gnash my teeth, the demons of what should've been mocking my futile ritual.
My blood shot eyes dart to and fro, frantically searching for the answer my heart was unable to find.
Doubt and fear, now back again, circling overhead, bellowing their vulturous cries.
A lifetime of rungs below the sorrow I should now accompany, I look upward, this ladder now billowing higher like the labyrinth of disgust it has become.
The point of no return has now become my comrade, my best friend and only mirror with to reflect my feelings of animosity.
So far gone now is the life that I once had.
So far gone that I question it's reality, much like one questions the validity of a dream.
Even as I climb higher, I feel myself falling deeper into this hole.
I remember their words...I do love her...I will let her go...
If not God, than may the demons below bring her back to me.
Take now my thirty pieces of silver, take my birth right, give me my lentil stew...give me back the love I've lost...I've tainted...I've broken...I've once again returned to the bordello of terror...
Return to me the strength of my legs so I may bow, and beg forgiveness.
If nothing else, if nothing more, return to her the peace of mind she once had, the comfort of solitude and consistency...
May the current of consistency take her to the place she deserves.
Close your eyes now dear, close your eyes now child, rest, for your soul is weak.
I will watch over you now, as the caretaker I was meant to be...
Fear not my failing again, for it is long gone.
Rest assured only that your suffering is finally over...ne'er to be wakened again.
My love for you is great, and my heartbreak is many, I only pray that you may find peace, rest, and comfort anywhere you look.
Turning my back on the Devil, I'll watch over you. I'll wrap my arms around you in the darkest of colds and the most terror ridden of nights.
This time, we'll let the Devil apologize to us.
Searing through my skin like the anger through my soul, they dig deeper...perhaps searching for the answers too.
Not afraid to speak, only refusing, I instead turn to screaming.
Belting out the battle cry of birth pains and of children lost, I gnash my teeth, the demons of what should've been mocking my futile ritual.
My blood shot eyes dart to and fro, frantically searching for the answer my heart was unable to find.
Doubt and fear, now back again, circling overhead, bellowing their vulturous cries.
A lifetime of rungs below the sorrow I should now accompany, I look upward, this ladder now billowing higher like the labyrinth of disgust it has become.
The point of no return has now become my comrade, my best friend and only mirror with to reflect my feelings of animosity.
So far gone now is the life that I once had.
So far gone that I question it's reality, much like one questions the validity of a dream.
Even as I climb higher, I feel myself falling deeper into this hole.
I remember their words...I do love her...I will let her go...
If not God, than may the demons below bring her back to me.
Take now my thirty pieces of silver, take my birth right, give me my lentil stew...give me back the love I've lost...I've tainted...I've broken...I've once again returned to the bordello of terror...
Return to me the strength of my legs so I may bow, and beg forgiveness.
If nothing else, if nothing more, return to her the peace of mind she once had, the comfort of solitude and consistency...
May the current of consistency take her to the place she deserves.
Close your eyes now dear, close your eyes now child, rest, for your soul is weak.
I will watch over you now, as the caretaker I was meant to be...
Fear not my failing again, for it is long gone.
Rest assured only that your suffering is finally over...ne'er to be wakened again.
My love for you is great, and my heartbreak is many, I only pray that you may find peace, rest, and comfort anywhere you look.
Turning my back on the Devil, I'll watch over you. I'll wrap my arms around you in the darkest of colds and the most terror ridden of nights.
This time, we'll let the Devil apologize to us.
