It's not so much that you are attracted to this as it is that you are afraid to walk away (and thus be alone again) when you are treated poorly. The girl has to be aware that you will and that you are not a pushover who can be sweettalked back. And yes, the discipline to do this is very hard to have when dating does not come easy for you. In a way, it is like stopping a drug when it's doing more harm than good (yet sobriety sounds depressing). But women will only respect you and treat you well when they see that you respect yourself and treat yourself well, including not taking bullshit from people. A lot of women especially attractive and social ones, feel like they are entitled to attention and dating, but we're all just flesh and bone underneath and we all equally deserve the same things. Forget your past failures, don't think about your skeletons, and just try and see dating as two people coming together for mutual benefit and not "guys chasing girls in hopes of a chance."
