takinabreak
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Oct 25, 2005
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- 154
This is my second year living away at college. My last year of high school i had so many friends and was always busy, always going out and partying and had something to do, someone to hang out with. My first year in college, I lived in the dorms and made a lot of friends. All my high school friends disappeared and do their own thing now and i dont keep in contact with any of them...and they have NO interest in keeping contact with me. So be it. I
I come back to college my second year and all the friends i made my first year left school. They dropped out. They went back home- all far away. My school sucks by the way, almost a third of all freshman drop out. Im one of the one that stayed. I now live in a three bedroom apartment and find it SO FUCKIN hard to make friends and get to know people. I find myself being comforted in the confines of my own apartment and now wanting to go out, just because im so depressed i have no one to go out with anymore.
The Campus sports and activities suck around here, I have no interest in joining a sorority, and the Drexel people just all around suck anyway...theyre just not like me. My roomates have come to see that i stay at the apartment a lot, except when i visit my boyfriend on the weekends, go to class, or go to work. I pretty much dont go anywhere else. They see me as a loser. Theyre always like..."oh, youll be here for a while, wont you?" or "youre here all the time, youre so conservative, youre so boring, you never throw any parties here, etc"
That hurts my feelings and makes my sucky situation even worse. I want to slap them and tell them to fuck off. I get angry at the fact they think im a loser of some sort, because thats not what i was in the past years, AT ALL.
What can i do to change this? What do i say to them? Do i ignore it? How can i connect with people at a place where its virtually impossible and the people are mostly cold? I want my life back!!!!!!!!!!!
I come back to college my second year and all the friends i made my first year left school. They dropped out. They went back home- all far away. My school sucks by the way, almost a third of all freshman drop out. Im one of the one that stayed. I now live in a three bedroom apartment and find it SO FUCKIN hard to make friends and get to know people. I find myself being comforted in the confines of my own apartment and now wanting to go out, just because im so depressed i have no one to go out with anymore.
The Campus sports and activities suck around here, I have no interest in joining a sorority, and the Drexel people just all around suck anyway...theyre just not like me. My roomates have come to see that i stay at the apartment a lot, except when i visit my boyfriend on the weekends, go to class, or go to work. I pretty much dont go anywhere else. They see me as a loser. Theyre always like..."oh, youll be here for a while, wont you?" or "youre here all the time, youre so conservative, youre so boring, you never throw any parties here, etc"
That hurts my feelings and makes my sucky situation even worse. I want to slap them and tell them to fuck off. I get angry at the fact they think im a loser of some sort, because thats not what i was in the past years, AT ALL.
What can i do to change this? What do i say to them? Do i ignore it? How can i connect with people at a place where its virtually impossible and the people are mostly cold? I want my life back!!!!!!!!!!!