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fevio

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Does anyone sometimes think that they'll continue using/abusing until the day they die? I can imagine a lot of opiate addicts (or any other drug that one can become physically dependent on) probably feel this way at times; but, do you really think you could live 'the life' another 40-50-60 years?
 
I don't ever think that I'll be completely free of drug use. I don't think I'll be snorting adderall or slamming dope or going on drug binges or anything like that when I'm like 60 though. Just maybe some weed and poppy pods and things like that every so often.
 
Same here. I accepted a long time ago that I'm probably a lifer. But, I also have severe chronic pain that I'll have the rest of my life.. so i don't know.. not much choice in it. Well, of course there is a choice but without opiates i also have severe depression and Opiates also help my ADD. There are just to many positives with Opiate use to me.. more positive than negatives. But, i do know it can spin out of control at anytime so i keep that under check!

I accepted it a long time ago. I'm a lifer. To what degree i will be in the future i don't know.. but I'm sure I'll always have opiates in my life.

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LIke you mentioned, opiates are what did me in. Not even heroin either, just these damn prescription painkillers. Heavy abuse over the course of two years has seemed to change my brain chemistry, as some threads have mentioned before. I'm not physically addicted anymore, but the mental addiction is still making my life a living hell.

The depression and anxiety are not allowing me to have a normal life. I just don't feel "normal" or "comforable" around strangers especially, if I don't have painkillers running through my blood stream. So, I guess I could be considered a lifer. I wonder how long it would take completely obstaining from opiates it would take to feel normal again? I've yet to go over a month. Even though I know it's just going to set me back in the whole process, that feeling of being contempt for a few hours brings me back
 
I hope to start a family someday and I wouldn't be able to do that and continue to take psychedelics or speed. But opiates, weed and cocaine are all possibilities as I get older. I also hope to be on a benzo or zolpidem script someday because they are the shit. I've accepted that I will never be able to stop drinking.
 
im definitely gonna drink the rest of my life

probably still smoke weed for the rest of my life (though not daily....)


and who does enjoy a little acid every now and then
 
Yes. I don't ever see myself not being a fairly frequent pot smoker, and though my use of psychedelics and dissociatives may become infrequent on the order of many months between uses, I can't ever see myself saying for certain, 'This will be my last trip'.

Speed and alcohol are different. With them I'll probably hit a point in middle age where the health-damaging effects outweigh any benefit.
 
Shit i hope im not... been clean for 14 days of the Skag, but i could def see my self smoking bud in the future. Never been much of a drinker tho, cant stand the shit, but i def dont want to be addicted to opiates my whole life. Hell on earth.
 
i dont want to do drugs for the rest of my life but right now i believe that im going to. i think i will probably be doing opiates from the doctor when i get older like 30 or 40 or maybe i will still be shooting h. i am pretty sure i will keep smoking weed for the rest of my life. i dont know what connections i will have though, or if there will be some reason i have to quit.

i have thought a lot of times though that i would never be able to stop drinking heavily, or that i would never be able to quit weed even for a month to pass a drug test but i have done that. i have only been doing drugs daily for like 4 years and that isnt even a decade. i might be alive like another 50 years so whos to say what im going to be doing then. i might like join AA and become a huge anti drug person.
 
I'll definitely be on opiates the rest of my life. I had social issues and related chemical deficiencies my entire life, and tried everything else before I went to hard drugs. So there's not even a 'normal' I could get back to, because I hated how I felt before going on any drug. There's some downsides to it; I can see myself as one of those people shooting into my neck and groin as all my other veins are destroyed, and who knows the untold financial hardships that my habit will continue to cause... but the good outweighs the bad, opiates increase my social and academic functioning and make me a happier person than I was in the days before drugs.
Fortunately that's enough for me. I stopped with alcohol and pot as soon as I found coke and opiates, and don't feel particularly drawn to any other drugs besides opiates beyond the occasional party mode.
 
If I get seriously strung out again I bet I'm gonna at least be on Suboxone for the duration. Feels like I function better that way TBH. As for other drugs, the tend to fall by the wayside when faced with dope and opiates, The One True High ... psychedelics I'll probably do occasionally, weed I'm bored to tears with already, and everything else is just sort of meh to me ... so yeah ... who knows what the future holds. Maybe a script and the appearance of normality?
 
Nah I'm getting pretty bored with drug use now I have been using it less and less now...

I think I will have a break for 10 or more years then maybe start to use every now and then... I see myself sitting around and smoking weed with my sister and brother and maybe our kids occasionally.
 
yea, i honestly think i won't ever be drug free. if i get to be 60, i might smoke a little weed sometimes. or take a benzo from time to time. or even pods too, if they're not illegal by then.
and yea, i might go on breaks sometimes. but always come back to it. it's been like that for about 12 years so far.
i just can't handle the pressure of life. i mean the responsibilities. and my work is very stressful. i really need relaxation time.
 
fevio said:
Does anyone sometimes think that they'll continue using/abusing until the day they die? I can imagine a lot of opiate addicts (or any other drug that one can become physically dependent on) probably feel this way at times; but, do you really think you could live 'the life' another 40-50-60 years?
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I don't plan to stop reading books or masturbating or enjoying music. I don't see why this would be any different. Do you?
 
pot and valium i'm on for life baby. opiates i just can't deal with, the fiending and withdrawal and scoring and never having enough and never getting the high you want it's just torture for me, it was wonderful for about 2 years then became a nightmare.
 
snakjaw said:
I don't plan to stop reading books or masturbating or enjoying music. I don't see why this would be any different. Do you?
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So wait, you're comparing, reading, masturbating, and listenin to music to consuming drugs? Haha I think there's a little bit of a difference there. Unless the music is extrememly loud, or you tug it 7 times a day, I don't think any of your foementioned hobbies are detrimental to your health. I don't see the similarity, please explain jaw
 
Hard question. Sometimes it's hard to imagine myself clean and sober, living a normal life. But I'm not sure that I don't want kids someday, and I don't know if I'd be too proud of myself sneaking around doing drugs behind their backs...

I guess I'd like any future use to be purely recreational and occasional, none of that fiending and obsessing over getting high tonight or this afternoon stuff... Will it ever be truly recreational for me? I don't know. I haven't given up on the hope that it will, though.
 
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