Hey, thedawn! What's up? Haven't heard from you in a while....I'm over here waving a flashlight.

Shoot me a PM and let me know what's going on.
@OP and everyone else: when the human world (the one outside and the one in your head) get you this far down find places where you can be in nature, find animals that need your companionship as much as you need theirs. Turn away from the human mess for a while. Take care of yourselves. It is a mess. But there are ways to find little alternate paths away from the main highway.