bighooter
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Mar 31, 2008
- Messages
- 1,660
I have never been addicted to any drug (and ive done everything) and I also have never been addicted to alcohol.
However I have taken numerous anti depressants all of which havent helped and I have finally figured out that all I need to do to be happy is run every morning, meditate and eat healthy.
However because I am a sociopath I find it very difficult to fulfill my sexual desires, I do not masturbate so I still suffer depression when it comes to the weekend (because the weekend is when everyone usually gets drunk/high/ have sex etc).... and theres me sober feeling very alienated and bored
so to sociallise with my friends i feel the need to indulge in either methadone (which i get from a opiate addict for very cheap price) or alcohol.
I allow myself to get high or drunk just 1 day a week (friday or saturday). Whenever i take methadone the next day i feel better about myself because i have had a good day previously.
Whenever i have drunk alcohol though i usually feel worse the next day even if i had a great time the previous day.
Now i want to know which substance you think is worse overall for your body (brain, liver, skin, etc).... methadone or alcohol?
As for people trying to notify me on addiction potential this is not a problem what so ever and one which i do not want to discuss as the question isnt about addiction potential, just damage/harm to the body/mind.
many regards, Bighooter.
However I have taken numerous anti depressants all of which havent helped and I have finally figured out that all I need to do to be happy is run every morning, meditate and eat healthy.
However because I am a sociopath I find it very difficult to fulfill my sexual desires, I do not masturbate so I still suffer depression when it comes to the weekend (because the weekend is when everyone usually gets drunk/high/ have sex etc).... and theres me sober feeling very alienated and bored
so to sociallise with my friends i feel the need to indulge in either methadone (which i get from a opiate addict for very cheap price) or alcohol.
I allow myself to get high or drunk just 1 day a week (friday or saturday). Whenever i take methadone the next day i feel better about myself because i have had a good day previously.
Whenever i have drunk alcohol though i usually feel worse the next day even if i had a great time the previous day.
Now i want to know which substance you think is worse overall for your body (brain, liver, skin, etc).... methadone or alcohol?
As for people trying to notify me on addiction potential this is not a problem what so ever and one which i do not want to discuss as the question isnt about addiction potential, just damage/harm to the body/mind.
many regards, Bighooter.