Mellabopper
Bluelighter
if you were to look for me
where would you look?
where do you think i would be?
am i lost and you must come find me?
look at the playground
with many childhood memories
filled with joy, yet also ignorance
the entire world was my sandbox
and i could be anything i wanted to be.
look for me at my grade school.
always a good kid
shy and reserved
will you find me there?
no, i was out on the playground
making friends with the boys
and turning myself into a tomboy
hangin out
i left my pink dresses at home
how about in junior high?
will you find me there?
being the athletic type
school dances
we didn't dance very close back then
will you find me in my high school?
surrounded by girls
and making my own little world
our bubble, as we called it
forming friendships
and learning about life
going through heartache after heartbreak
and crossing over to the cautious side of love
trying this and that
trying to find out who i was
look for me in college
do you think i will be there, too?
forming friendships worldwide
and having guys notice me
where i let loose and found myseld
and learned more than any book could ever teach me
i learned how to live
how to let go
how to stay strong
how to accept things as they are
and see them as they really are
still not letting myself love,
but coming closer to it every day
but each day i live on,
i learn more
about life
and myself
and my strength
doubts
fears
hopes
and long lost dreams
somewhere along the way i became a realist
and i left my dreaming to fade away
but sometimes
only sometimes,
you will find me in a different dimension
dreaming of what could be
hoping
and taking a risk with that hoping
i told myself i wouldn't ever hope
or dream
or expect anything
because if you expect the worst
you can never be let down.
sometimes i try not to believe that.
so where will you find me?
the funny thing,
is that even though i am one mere person
in this vast universe
i am in more places than one
i am in that playground
and at those schools
i am at the places i hang out
and you can find me in anyone that is close to me
i am in all of those places
leaving my mark
and my memory
you can find me in all the lives i've touched
just as you can find so many more in me
that have touched my life
and those that have a place in my heart for them.
i'd like to say you can't find me anywhere
but sometimes you have to let yourself live a little
and realize
that you aren't nobody
you're you
and after time
hopefully you will find yourself
in all of the places
and all of the things that made you
who you are today.
when i think of you
you are here with me
not physically
but in my mind and in my heart
and i have to smile
and i have to dance
because my memories
and my dreams
are mine and mine alone
and no one can take those from me
not even myself.
7-6-02 (12:13 am)
[ 06 July 2002: Message edited by: Mellabopper ]
where would you look?
where do you think i would be?
am i lost and you must come find me?
look at the playground
with many childhood memories
filled with joy, yet also ignorance
the entire world was my sandbox
and i could be anything i wanted to be.
look for me at my grade school.
always a good kid
shy and reserved
will you find me there?
no, i was out on the playground
making friends with the boys
and turning myself into a tomboy
hangin out
i left my pink dresses at home
how about in junior high?
will you find me there?
being the athletic type
school dances
we didn't dance very close back then
will you find me in my high school?
surrounded by girls
and making my own little world
our bubble, as we called it
forming friendships
and learning about life
going through heartache after heartbreak
and crossing over to the cautious side of love
trying this and that
trying to find out who i was
look for me in college
do you think i will be there, too?
forming friendships worldwide
and having guys notice me
where i let loose and found myseld
and learned more than any book could ever teach me
i learned how to live
how to let go
how to stay strong
how to accept things as they are
and see them as they really are
still not letting myself love,
but coming closer to it every day
but each day i live on,
i learn more
about life
and myself
and my strength
doubts
fears
hopes
and long lost dreams
somewhere along the way i became a realist
and i left my dreaming to fade away
but sometimes
only sometimes,
you will find me in a different dimension
dreaming of what could be
hoping
and taking a risk with that hoping
i told myself i wouldn't ever hope
or dream
or expect anything
because if you expect the worst
you can never be let down.
sometimes i try not to believe that.
so where will you find me?
the funny thing,
is that even though i am one mere person
in this vast universe
i am in more places than one
i am in that playground
and at those schools
i am at the places i hang out
and you can find me in anyone that is close to me
i am in all of those places
leaving my mark
and my memory
you can find me in all the lives i've touched
just as you can find so many more in me
that have touched my life
and those that have a place in my heart for them.
i'd like to say you can't find me anywhere
but sometimes you have to let yourself live a little
and realize
that you aren't nobody
you're you
and after time
hopefully you will find yourself
in all of the places
and all of the things that made you
who you are today.
when i think of you
you are here with me
not physically
but in my mind and in my heart
and i have to smile
and i have to dance
because my memories
and my dreams
are mine and mine alone
and no one can take those from me
not even myself.
7-6-02 (12:13 am)
[ 06 July 2002: Message edited by: Mellabopper ]
