Zephyn
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Whether i'm in withdrawal from psy meds is still up in the air to be determined. But yesterday I took 2mg xanax, 60mg adderall (insuffulated), and 900mg pregabalin. All modest doses for my tolerance. My day (and day after) was splended. Being able to function so well i cleaned up my flat, finished a work project that I was behind on, socialized a bit (when in my normal, sober state, i am like totally antisocial and have even lost recent friends due to flakiness, and when i go to social functions i dont really talk as much, i used to solve this with psychedelics but im in no place for those right now). Even as an occassional treat that would be good. I've been (ab)using stimulants since i was like 15, (im 28), but i used to have control over them, until i tried meth like 20 times in a few years. Last time i got a full script for adderall i blew thru it in 24 hours and went into a psychosis. i wouldnt have even considered the 60mg the other day except it was all that was available. it didnt set off any major relapse flags, and i havent sought more out even though i have a doctor i could readily fill a prescription with. should i consider vyvanse? or just get back on nootropics? perhaps tell my doctor i want 10 total instead of 30 or 60 adderall?