Last night i didnt take anything for the night and it seems my sleep is stabilised to 4hr.Thats good enough for now.
Everyday starts bit different,still slight cold sweat and chills now companied with really angry hangover that lasted 2hrs,kind of after vodka binge.
So i forced some breakfast down and went for a walk with Laika.When i got back i had quite normal feeling and time is starting to fly.I have never come this far on Subu wd and to think of i was one of those assholes who bashed anyone who said that they are too sick to move cos Subu wd..man do i feel stupid now.
I had to change Everything in my life to get this point.Move to other city,break all ties to basicly all friends,changed my diet completely.All i eat now is salads,vegetables,fruits,fish and chicken.Dropped sugar to minimum,drink only water,coffee or gatorade.Register here,probably The Best thing and help to these wd and now i know so much more about LAO?s and addiction and what it means.
Now that the pains and insomnia are fading im starting to face the things i did other ppl,what a trainwreck i made out off everything..Everything going on in the family now..
Those things above give me quite cravings,one big hit and i would be numb and forgot/didnt care anyone...its so tempting you know.
Funny thing,ALL my chronic pains from rheuma,fibro,nerve damage are gone :D i cant feel them no matter how hard i push myself..Its like i dont have those diseases anymore.
Everyday starts bit different,still slight cold sweat and chills now companied with really angry hangover that lasted 2hrs,kind of after vodka binge.
So i forced some breakfast down and went for a walk with Laika.When i got back i had quite normal feeling and time is starting to fly.I have never come this far on Subu wd and to think of i was one of those assholes who bashed anyone who said that they are too sick to move cos Subu wd..man do i feel stupid now.
I had to change Everything in my life to get this point.Move to other city,break all ties to basicly all friends,changed my diet completely.All i eat now is salads,vegetables,fruits,fish and chicken.Dropped sugar to minimum,drink only water,coffee or gatorade.Register here,probably The Best thing and help to these wd and now i know so much more about LAO?s and addiction and what it means.
Now that the pains and insomnia are fading im starting to face the things i did other ppl,what a trainwreck i made out off everything..Everything going on in the family now..
Those things above give me quite cravings,one big hit and i would be numb and forgot/didnt care anyone...its so tempting you know.
Funny thing,ALL my chronic pains from rheuma,fibro,nerve damage are gone :D i cant feel them no matter how hard i push myself..Its like i dont have those diseases anymore.