where do I go from here???

[D-Bills]

Hey guys! Thanks.fpr.taking the.time to.read this. Im going to say that now just incase I carry on a little much lol

My life is kinda like a train that was hauling 50 carts filled witg puppies that were just recently diganosed with cancel, that jumped the rails and fell 1000 ft off a bridge and landed on a school bus filled with preschool kids lol it could be worse and i know alot of people have it worse but i just dont know.anymore.

I.was just recently layed off from a job 3 days after starting it, they say its because the " hired too many people and I was just 1 name they pulled.from a hat but i know ita really.because I havr a para. Charge on my.record ( ftom. 5 years ago) i tolf them about it and showed the papers from rehab.after i.completed.and ppers fron a. Out paitent programs but they still insist its cus they ovet staffed. So now with now job and november statting so that means more.rent due ( im already still $260 behind.from october) my land lord.already posted.eviction notice last week. My son, who is 3 and.my babies momma ( who.is. pretty much.str8 edge besides a drink once every other blue.moon) are on the verge of being homeless.with me. She says her parents wont let her back but i know they will let.her and my son move back in ( just w/o me.

Weve been fighting alot reciently and that has lead me to relappse back on heroin. I dont have a bad habbit at this point and.i.dont wake up sick yet, but give it time. All i ever wanted.in life was my son and it looks like.im going to.do the 1 thing i never wanted....to be.my father n be missing. Ive never had serious siicide thoughts befofe but at this point i know she will be bettter w/o me.and i really think.so.will he. Im just so low its not.funny.. i just dont know..............

 

[Maya]

Hi D-bills welcome to the TDS section of Bluelight. That is very sad to hear about the job situation. If that was the case then and you believe that they laid you off because of your record it's definitely unfair to not give a person a second chance. But unfortunately, that is how most of the companies are IMO.

Is there a chance that you can move in with a family member at the moment while you are looking for another job? Slipping back into Heroin is definitely not helping and not a good idea. What you should do right now is get a job whatever job you can get so you can provide for yourself and for your family. What I know is that there are "under the table" jobs where they don't require too much paperwork etc so if you are willing to work any type of right now please get yourself together and do it. I hope for the best for you and your family

 

[D-Bills]

Thanks! It means alot to me and its doubful i could move in w family...did alot of messed uo stuff in the past to ruin that. I mean maybe able to stay at one members house for a couple days but thats not given. Got approved.for unemployment but its not much at all...but better then nothing. I really apreaciate u saying that. I dont wanna slip bacj into how i was but at times i honestly dont see another way. But im alright i guess for now

 

[Maya]

Thanks! It means alot to me and its doubful i could move in w family...did alot of messed uo stuff in the past to ruin that. I mean maybe able to stay at one members house for a couple days but thats not given. Got approved.for unemployment but its not much at all...but better then nothing. I really apreaciate u saying that. I dont wanna slip bacj into how i was but at times i honestly dont see another way. But im alright i guess for now

I did a lot of messed up stuff too and what really hurts me is to see my parents get upset with what I have done. It hurts to see how hurt they are specially letting my father down who has supported me a great deal with what I went through. All we can do is try to move on and be better just get our lives together and keep fighting. We can't always rely in addiction to numb the pain because it will only cause more pain in the long run. I really hope you feel better soon we are here to support you.

 

[Eveleivibe]

D-Bills, what Maya says makes senses - look for jobs that require less paperwork. And see if a family / friend may be able to temporarily take you both in.
I am terribly sorry you are going through this. Please keep posting so that we can support you.
All the best,
Evey xxx

 

[Jabberwocky]

A train full of cancer puppies hitting a bus full of school kids is not good. What is good is that it sounds like you have genuine love and concern for your son, and his mother. Use them for motivation. Try not to dwell on the employer that lost out on a good worker, try to keep moving forward. Hope the best for you, and keep us updated.

 

[T. Calderone]

Hi Dbills, sorry you're going through this now just whatever you do don't go back on dope. You have to be strong for your girlfriend and baby boy. At least you will have a little bit of unemployment benefits to help. While you're searching for a job you could inquire about getting temporary cash assistance and food stamps. It's worth checking into so you guys won't become homeless. Or see if there are places hiring for seasonal work, I know it's hard when you have an arrest record. I'm in the same boat, had interviews but nobody calls me back. :/ Hang in there buddy!

 

[D-Bills]

Thank everyone! Havent.had mins on my phone so.couldnt get on....but ya got a whopping $230 every other week coming in ( so thats rent basicaly) and.tryin.to.find.any little side job i can.for now for smokes and gas ect...we get food stamps already.so.going hungry isnt a worry but they declined us for cash asst. Cus they said when the father and mother n child all live together we will get denied 99.9% of the time....wtf is up with that? Lol but still on the hunt for a job...thinks r a little less depressing on my end for now but ya if anyone lives in pennsylvania and needs thier sidewalks shoveled this winter keep me in mind lol...like honestly tho u guys helped mealot! Thanks!

 

[T. Calderone]

That's the fucked up part, they give single mothers priority for cash assistance. Sorry that sucks man. I've seen loads of jobs on craigslist for snow clearing here in Michigan. What's good about those is lots are 1099 jobs where it wouldn't mess up your foodstamps. Hope something comes through for you!