where do i go from here (opiate WD over)

[x_fizzler]

Warning this may get lengthy.

So for six years i was clean (ex fent/oxy addict). I lived a good life good friends good GF good job. Over the couse of a few months i everything was gone... i still have no real answers. so one day i started using again just made the choice. Well fast forward two years later ive some how detoxed in about 58 hours or so. I was taking about 16 norco and banging 60mgs of oxy/roxi twice a day along with 20 mg of methadone a few times a week and slaming morphine 30s here and there. Its only been this bad a few months maybe 4.

So well im good i dont hurt i can walk kicked with xanax only. Even hinking about working tommrow. When will the emotional pain end? I feel unmotivated as fuck i feel offing mysef. What the hell do i do when will this shit all end. How do you keep from relapse when you feel like this and u have the stress off from all the shit uve done on your sholders. i dont feel like doing shit but staring and i dont even wanna do that...

 

[sid3]

Not to be a jackass, but how did you do it last time. 6 years is a good run of clean time. Unlike a lot of opiate addicts that are trying to get clean wondering if they can do it, you have the advantage of having done it, and know you can.Focus on that.

Your still in the middle of the initial detox at 50+ hours. Your emotions are going to be all over the place now that your not numbed out by the drugs. I'd say you should start feeling even better in another day or two. The emotional rollercoaster doesn't last that long. After quitting I had a hard time sleeping like most do. Exercising, staying active helped the most. Get as much support as you can.

 

[Lolie]

I don't have any specific advice for you because opiates aren't my thing and I know shit all about dealing with the mental aspect of kicking them, but I just wanted you to know that someone has read what you wrote and can relate to the "now what" feeling.

I'm sure the people who have opiate specific advice to offer will be along soon. Hang in there.

 

[Help me please]

The obvious is to make new friends who are sober. When you are with happy people you will become happy. I know making friends in the real world is harder than online! I really don't have any friends left since most moved or divorced or some other shit. Most of the time I don't care but I do get lonely. I am married and have grown children who go on with their own lives. I babysit my grandson 5 or 6 days and/or nights a week which is my saving grace! He's only 4 though so not much into heavy conversation unless it's about trains and fire trucks

 

[lowlow345]

the emotional pain will never end. the oxys and shit numbed out your emotions, so now your feeling what is real emotions. what everyone feels, and its overwhelming. but it wont ever go away, but eventually it wont feel like pain anymore, it will be life. and you will learn to appreciate what is life, without drugs. just my opinion.

 

[sid3]

I don't agree, the emotional pain will end. Don't buy into that, its bullshit.How long emotional pain is carried is largely up to the person carrying it.
I found that statement somewhat surprising, to be part of what is an otherwise excellent post/perspective.

 

[MONSTA!!]

detoxed in about 58 hours or so.

When will the emotional pain end? I feel unmotivated as fuck i feel offing mysef.

Your WD isn't over yet bud. The acute stage is finished with, but effects such as these will persist.

I doubt it will take long before you see an improvement in your emotional well being. You've done the hard bit and should be proud of yourself Keep yourself busy and active and in a few days you will feel much better.

 

[Mr. Squiggle!]

Dude, once ANYBODY is addicted to something, whether it be benzos/nicotine/alcohol/sex or opiates, there isn't a replacement that is available for that 'feeling', if you know what I mean. Dude, so what, you relapsed? Big deal! As long as you don't continue to use, well my friend, we can count this as a minor glitch in your recovery.

Now, it's all about the psychological components of addiction, not the physical side. Psychological side = the help of a psychologist (NOT A FUCKING PSYCHIATRIST!, there doctors of medicine!!), physical side = the help of a physician.

Now, the next step in progressing forward and not looking back in those years of abuse, is to seek psychological help, okay bro?

Seek fun things that help you get over your addictions! What's interesting to you? What do you find fun in life (apart from drugs)? Exercise is always helpful, I mean the full-on strenuous shit like running non-stop for 1 hour, or lifting weights! Exercise releases endorphins, the bodies own high!

Stop this talk about offing yourself! You have potential dude, you just gotta apply yourself!

 

[unsettled]

I know what you are feeling, however I don't have the advantage of six years clean time. I think you may have a better answer than me, I've always relied on something, I'd suggest a doctor but I ended up with a klonopin habit when I went to see the doctor. Time is the great healer, at least that's what everyone says.

I think if you are determined enough and stick it out you will get through it, stay busy and think positive and don't isolate yourself. Don't hang out with people who will just cause you to relapse.

I'm sure someone else will chime in with better advice. The emotional part of quitting opiates is the hardest part for me. Sometimes anti depressants help, let us know what works for you.

I agree with Hemp about surrounding yourself with happy sober people to an extent, there have been times when being around happy people only made me more depressed, make sure they are people who can empathize with your situation. Personally certain kinds of happy people really drive me nuts.

I definitely would suggest hanging out with 4 or 5yr olds, I teach music to kids and there is nothing that will snap you out of your bad mood faster than having a conversation with a 5yr old about firetrucks and toy cars. To see the world through a child's eyes even if only for a moment can be very humbling and uplifting not to mention hilarious!
I once had a student who was five and we would have serious discussions about toy cars and trucks and which ones were the best and there was no way I could be in a bad mood after such a discussion.

 

[x_fizzler]

so i went to a meeting today... then went to work didnt feel up to it so much just still week so i popped 5 tram. then at the end of the night i swallowed 45mgs of oxy which for some reason has only made me more depressed i sure fuckin hope i dont feel any worse today than i did when i woke up this morning, i mean physically. fuckin idiot. but now i know the drugs rent really the to my deprssion answer nemore so maybe thats good

 

[Mr. Squiggle!]

Depression is one of the most common causes of drug-abuse! Seek help from a physician and get prescribed some Wellbutrin! I mean, that shit can turn an upside frown in to a smile within a day or two! It stimulates the activity of dopamine and noradrenaline in one's brain, dopamine is the "pleasure" chemical, and plus considering it's not an SSRI, it won't fuck with your serotonin levels which can be maintained by healthy lifestyles, i.e. exercising/eating a banana a day/taking OTC supplements such as Tyrosine and/or 5-HTP, non-pharmaceutical prerequisites to serotonin!

Dude, may I suggest seeking the help of a psychologist who specialises in drug addiction AND a physician with whom you feel comfortable with.