when. . .

[beanpoophead]

When will I be happy
smiles without frowns behind
laugh lines - not too long ago
tears flood and saints fall
she’s happy because she smiles

when will I not obsess
counted calories, made me thin
still its not good enough
until I fade away into myself
just not what I wanted to be

when will chemical lies fade
and my dreams not be dotted
with all things that are high
wasted on being wasted
and still I go on

when will I not be just like him
everything I hate - everything I’ve become
tips the bottle back, just one more time
with that gleam in my eyes
so inhibition free

when will I be content alone
stealing my kisses - got my love
always need someone else to see my smile
damn you made me feel high
And you know see it my in the twinkle of my eye

and im going to be all right
not a death vows lullaby
just a girl who cannot smile
until I say goodnight

when. . .

 

[RareForm]

Those are hard questions to ask and hard questions to answer....I feel where you are coming from....

Thank you for this piece...I needed it right now...

Good work.

 

[cherub]

I loved reading this, it makes you so real to the life around and in you. Serious piece with a great flow