Seattle_Stranger
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Mar 5, 2009
- Messages
- 1,903
I am in no way justifying my lifestyle. I don't think I should continue living like this, but in the meantime, I have some questions for those possibly more experienced than I.
I am a generally healthy person, no health issues to speak of, no difficulties or problems with my body/mind outside of what seems like normal adult/human stuff. I have a very good diet, cook almost exclusively organic food at home, very little meat (my lady is a vegetarian), lots of vegetables, etc.. I take a good stack of vitamins and supplements every day, as well as varying nootropics. I have also severely reduced my sugar intake, caffeine intake, carb intake and fat intake, and my dentist tells me my teeth and gums, which used to be a disaster area, has improved 10 fold, which is a sign of good general health. I am very regular when it comes to bowel movement, I urinate frequently but not concerningly frequent, and it's always a nice light, clear yellow, not a dark dehydrated yellow. I am active, I NEVER "veg out", I don't even really watch TV or play video games at all. I'm always creatively challenging my mind and body, I do yoga daily, I jog/exercise somewhat regularly (~1-2x a week), I'm an avid musician in a band that I founded and lead, needless to say, I'm not a couch potato. Also, one last very important detail, I drink water like it's going out of style. I drink well over a liter during the work day, and then just as much at night.
Now for the questionable habits:
I drink alcohol daily. Usually just white wine (switched from red), and can be just a couple glasses in the evening to as much as an entire 1.5L bottle (over many, many hours, of course). I drink whiskey every weekend, and will finish the majority of a 750ml bottle over the course of those 3 days, with some help from my lady or friends. I don't drink much beer anymore, because of all things, THAT is what gives me shitty alcohol side effects and hangovers. However, with my current consumption habits, I never get hangovers, ever. There have been work nights where I drink wine all night, can't sleep for some reason, and I'll get up several times throughout the night and drink more wine, polishing off the whole bottle, and then get up for work the next day without issue, no headache, no stomach ache, no groggyness (not for long anyway), I'm just fine! Same for weekends, I'll drink copious amounts of whiskey and wine, and I'll wake up the next day bright eyed and bushy tailed.
I use kratom daily. Usually ~8g in the morning, followed by ~5g in the afternoon. I alternate strains as to not use the same one constantly, but my tolerance is pretty damn high. If I "feel" the kratom at all, it's usually a welcomed surprise. I have the intent to taper down simply for tolerance reasons, but again, this is something I seem to get no issues from. I have even stopped cold turkey in the past after an extended daily habit, and barely had some insomnia the next 2 days. I never experienced the "yellowing skin" myth, no typical opioid addict mental or physical stuff, my entire life is in order, my relationships are solid, my career is flourishing, my bank account is fatter than ever, etc.. Not bragging, seriously, I'm just really confused as to why I seem to be getting away with this.
I smoke weed daily. This, I know is no big deal, but it's still a factor. I smoke very little, usually just a bowl before bed, and I still get plenty high. Unless it's the weekend and we're hangin' out, then I'll smoke a bit more, but still not a ton. I never smoke before work as I used to, and I don't feel like weed has negatively impacted my life at all. My lungs feel mostly fine (unless I smoke a lot, then I feel it) and I don't have the typical "stoner stupor" where I can't think of words, bad short term memory, etc.. I used to suffer from those things when I smoked a lot, but in recent years I've been pretty sharp.
I use phenibut (1.3g) every 2-3 days, and drink alcohol. I was very cautious with this, but after a few times of testing the waters, I realized I wasn't getting any negative effects. It didn't bother my stomach, I don't black out, I don't feel like I get drunker/dizzier any worse than normal, I still don't get hangovers, if anything when phenibut is in my system I wake up the next day ready to run for president! This combo is one of the things thathonestly worries me a little, and I really try to be reasonable, but a habit is a habit. I rarely ever will have phenibut and then drink soon thereafter, it's usually phenibut in the morning, and then drinks in the evening, but still, phenibut has a very long half life. I will, however, admit that I noticed a bit of a pattern. Sometimes, day after phenibut, I was get some runny diarrhea. It's not consistent, doesn't come with any pains or cramps, doesn't burn, and doesn't last all day, but it was enough of a pattern to make me do a Google search, and whaddaya know, there's threads about it. This is something I will almost certainly stop doing.
I am able to mix things like kratom, phenibut, whiskey, weed and MDMA, have a fantastic time, stay perfectly coherent, alert and collected, sleep like a baby, and wake up feeling fantastic, and not really have any bad after effects in the following days. Why!?!? Why do I get away with this?? Again, I drink COPIOUS amounts of water every day, especially when "enhancing", I'm this helps tremendously. I also don't use MDMA often AT ALL, seriously maybe once or twice a year, it's tested, pure and coming right from the source, and I don't exceed ~130mg and I NEVER re-dose.
I don't really do anything else habitually, but I do have my fun. I like my psychedelics, but 90% of the time it's mushrooms, and rarely more than 2.5g, every couple of months. I don't really mess with psych/empath RC's, I don't trust them. Though I have tried some, but only the more popular ones like 2C-E and mephedrone, but this was years ago. I experiment with various nootropics almost daily, again only the popular, more researched ones. I understand noot's can have some neuro-protective and regeneration attributes, plus the expected focus/memory enhancement. I don't notice profound effects from them, but I definitely think they've played a role in my increasing mental sharpness over the past few years, and might be masking (or eliminating?) the negative mental effects from my lifestyle.
Again, I'm not justifying my lifestyle, nor am I bragging or trying to seem like a veteran or anything even close. I'm honestly concerned about the choices I've made, and I want to know what you guys might think about this. When I step back and think about everything I do and how often I do it, it seems like I should be in a world of hurt, but I'm not. If anything, I'm better off these days, and I feel like the substances I use are aides to my life, not crutches, if that makes sense. The enhance my life, as opposed to hold it up. If you were to ask me if I could just stop, the answer would be no. It's way too much of a habit for way too long, so it would be difficult for me to just quit everything, however, I do feel the need to reduce my intake of everything. When i do put effort into tapering down and using less of anything, I'm very disciplined about it, and I produce results very quickly, but I always end up coming back because I'm just not convinced enough to stop. If I was getting more bad side effects or negative impacts on my life, I'd feel more of a need to stop, but as you can see from above, I'm simply not, so it would be purely 100% a conscious decision to just stop for the sake of stopping.
Anyway, I've built enough of a wall of text. Looking forward to some of the opinions, if anyone has the energy to read through this swamp of sentences.
Thanks in advance!!
I am a generally healthy person, no health issues to speak of, no difficulties or problems with my body/mind outside of what seems like normal adult/human stuff. I have a very good diet, cook almost exclusively organic food at home, very little meat (my lady is a vegetarian), lots of vegetables, etc.. I take a good stack of vitamins and supplements every day, as well as varying nootropics. I have also severely reduced my sugar intake, caffeine intake, carb intake and fat intake, and my dentist tells me my teeth and gums, which used to be a disaster area, has improved 10 fold, which is a sign of good general health. I am very regular when it comes to bowel movement, I urinate frequently but not concerningly frequent, and it's always a nice light, clear yellow, not a dark dehydrated yellow. I am active, I NEVER "veg out", I don't even really watch TV or play video games at all. I'm always creatively challenging my mind and body, I do yoga daily, I jog/exercise somewhat regularly (~1-2x a week), I'm an avid musician in a band that I founded and lead, needless to say, I'm not a couch potato. Also, one last very important detail, I drink water like it's going out of style. I drink well over a liter during the work day, and then just as much at night.
Now for the questionable habits:
I drink alcohol daily. Usually just white wine (switched from red), and can be just a couple glasses in the evening to as much as an entire 1.5L bottle (over many, many hours, of course). I drink whiskey every weekend, and will finish the majority of a 750ml bottle over the course of those 3 days, with some help from my lady or friends. I don't drink much beer anymore, because of all things, THAT is what gives me shitty alcohol side effects and hangovers. However, with my current consumption habits, I never get hangovers, ever. There have been work nights where I drink wine all night, can't sleep for some reason, and I'll get up several times throughout the night and drink more wine, polishing off the whole bottle, and then get up for work the next day without issue, no headache, no stomach ache, no groggyness (not for long anyway), I'm just fine! Same for weekends, I'll drink copious amounts of whiskey and wine, and I'll wake up the next day bright eyed and bushy tailed.
I use kratom daily. Usually ~8g in the morning, followed by ~5g in the afternoon. I alternate strains as to not use the same one constantly, but my tolerance is pretty damn high. If I "feel" the kratom at all, it's usually a welcomed surprise. I have the intent to taper down simply for tolerance reasons, but again, this is something I seem to get no issues from. I have even stopped cold turkey in the past after an extended daily habit, and barely had some insomnia the next 2 days. I never experienced the "yellowing skin" myth, no typical opioid addict mental or physical stuff, my entire life is in order, my relationships are solid, my career is flourishing, my bank account is fatter than ever, etc.. Not bragging, seriously, I'm just really confused as to why I seem to be getting away with this.
I smoke weed daily. This, I know is no big deal, but it's still a factor. I smoke very little, usually just a bowl before bed, and I still get plenty high. Unless it's the weekend and we're hangin' out, then I'll smoke a bit more, but still not a ton. I never smoke before work as I used to, and I don't feel like weed has negatively impacted my life at all. My lungs feel mostly fine (unless I smoke a lot, then I feel it) and I don't have the typical "stoner stupor" where I can't think of words, bad short term memory, etc.. I used to suffer from those things when I smoked a lot, but in recent years I've been pretty sharp.
I use phenibut (1.3g) every 2-3 days, and drink alcohol. I was very cautious with this, but after a few times of testing the waters, I realized I wasn't getting any negative effects. It didn't bother my stomach, I don't black out, I don't feel like I get drunker/dizzier any worse than normal, I still don't get hangovers, if anything when phenibut is in my system I wake up the next day ready to run for president! This combo is one of the things thathonestly worries me a little, and I really try to be reasonable, but a habit is a habit. I rarely ever will have phenibut and then drink soon thereafter, it's usually phenibut in the morning, and then drinks in the evening, but still, phenibut has a very long half life. I will, however, admit that I noticed a bit of a pattern. Sometimes, day after phenibut, I was get some runny diarrhea. It's not consistent, doesn't come with any pains or cramps, doesn't burn, and doesn't last all day, but it was enough of a pattern to make me do a Google search, and whaddaya know, there's threads about it. This is something I will almost certainly stop doing.
I am able to mix things like kratom, phenibut, whiskey, weed and MDMA, have a fantastic time, stay perfectly coherent, alert and collected, sleep like a baby, and wake up feeling fantastic, and not really have any bad after effects in the following days. Why!?!? Why do I get away with this?? Again, I drink COPIOUS amounts of water every day, especially when "enhancing", I'm this helps tremendously. I also don't use MDMA often AT ALL, seriously maybe once or twice a year, it's tested, pure and coming right from the source, and I don't exceed ~130mg and I NEVER re-dose.
I don't really do anything else habitually, but I do have my fun. I like my psychedelics, but 90% of the time it's mushrooms, and rarely more than 2.5g, every couple of months. I don't really mess with psych/empath RC's, I don't trust them. Though I have tried some, but only the more popular ones like 2C-E and mephedrone, but this was years ago. I experiment with various nootropics almost daily, again only the popular, more researched ones. I understand noot's can have some neuro-protective and regeneration attributes, plus the expected focus/memory enhancement. I don't notice profound effects from them, but I definitely think they've played a role in my increasing mental sharpness over the past few years, and might be masking (or eliminating?) the negative mental effects from my lifestyle.
Again, I'm not justifying my lifestyle, nor am I bragging or trying to seem like a veteran or anything even close. I'm honestly concerned about the choices I've made, and I want to know what you guys might think about this. When I step back and think about everything I do and how often I do it, it seems like I should be in a world of hurt, but I'm not. If anything, I'm better off these days, and I feel like the substances I use are aides to my life, not crutches, if that makes sense. The enhance my life, as opposed to hold it up. If you were to ask me if I could just stop, the answer would be no. It's way too much of a habit for way too long, so it would be difficult for me to just quit everything, however, I do feel the need to reduce my intake of everything. When i do put effort into tapering down and using less of anything, I'm very disciplined about it, and I produce results very quickly, but I always end up coming back because I'm just not convinced enough to stop. If I was getting more bad side effects or negative impacts on my life, I'd feel more of a need to stop, but as you can see from above, I'm simply not, so it would be purely 100% a conscious decision to just stop for the sake of stopping.
Anyway, I've built enough of a wall of text. Looking forward to some of the opinions, if anyone has the energy to read through this swamp of sentences.
Thanks in advance!!
Last edited: