When Words Don't Cut It

[Squirt]

I lie on my bed, tightly wrapped in my covers with my head buried between my pillow and my stuffed bunny, and I close my eyes. Thoughts waver back and forth between my eyes and ears, and the first thought that stays in one place is.... well.... you know what it is. I think about it for a long time, and come to the conclusion that nobody can ever understand. It makes sense only to me, and there is no way I could possibly articulate it to anyone else. Was it supposed to be that way? Who knows. Clearly not me. At least that was certain...
I open my eyes. It makes sense to me only, and even if I tried to reconcile and explain and even justify it to myself, I couldn't do it. So what does one do when words don't cut it? Do we try to explain it with actions, or sounds, or pictures, or written words? What should we do? How should we express that which is only crystal clear in our own minds?
I stop myself before my brain carries itself away, and close my eyes again, and let my dreams articulate it for me...
[This message has been edited by Squirt (edited 10 May 2001).]

 

[Counterfit19]

i'll respond with a piece of writing. my interpretation of what you've written, which is very good by the way. i apologize if i read into this the wrong way. again, nice work.
to surrender now is to throw it all away
its a sacrafice but you can't repay.
in a world that don't owe you shit,
you've got to look out for yourself
and fight for everything.
and that peace of mind that keeps you goin on
gets you out of bed and out the door...
step back take a look around
until you find there's something more
to this world, with a little patience
it'll all work out for you in the end
this is my note to a friend that never
needed anyone until now.
sometimes you get too close to see
a different side of what life could be,
and if you stare too hard it all becomes a blur
its easy to forget just who we are.
just stare too hard, just take a look around
and you'll find everything you need.
j.c
[This message has been edited by Counterfit19 (edited 10 May 2001).]

 

[ice-9]

sometimes things are expressed best when not expressed at all.