Ganj
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Its now been a week since this happened http://www.bluelight.org/vb/threads...mg-Experianced-A-Psychedelic-in-its-own-right
I smoked a bong of crystals and experienced serious de-personalization, like nothing was real, like reality was simply some frail concept that could snap at any moment and was then stupid enough to take a dose of 5-meo-dalt and lsd (It was only 150ug... barely anything...) the next day. I have done this kind of idiocy multiple times before, tripping for 48+ hours straight and always sobered up the next day. But since that trip I have seriously not felt normal. Im not asking for sympathy, and I hate to waste knowledgeable BL's time responding to yet another fools post, but it really does feel like this will never end.
My veteran tripper friend described it as what I'm feeling is a heightened sense of reality, which as accurate as it sounds I hate it. Real life feels foreign and obscure. Mentally I don't feel different, but my perception of reality feels damaged. The thought that this could be permanent terrifies me. I look at how I felt before this event and I just feel absolutely miles from that sober state of mind and miss it like hell.
I really am at the weakest and most desperate point I have ever been in. I have been getting exercise, eating as healthily as I can and taking lots of vitamin C and am trying my best to get into a regular sleep pattern. Since this happened I have avoided weed and uppers like poison and stopped smoking as it makes it worse but have unfortunately found comfort in benzo's and have been drinking frankly to escape my altered consciousness as much as it kills me to admit that.
I do not expect to go back to normal, but if this does not subside down to a manageable level I have no idea what I will do.
My question is it it worth going to a doctor? I don't really feel manic or anything, but definitely fried in the head and slightly odd thought patterns.
It feels like I'm not really here, and tends to get worse throughout the day as I get tired. I also have fairly bad anxiety which makes this whole thing a nightmare. Is there anything else I can do at least slightly come back from this?
Id wish this on no-one. I pray I will start to feel slightly better over a long period of time but I cant even tell if its getting better or worse, I dont understand how dosages seriously lower than I have taken before have done so much damage...
I smoked a bong of crystals and experienced serious de-personalization, like nothing was real, like reality was simply some frail concept that could snap at any moment and was then stupid enough to take a dose of 5-meo-dalt and lsd (It was only 150ug... barely anything...) the next day. I have done this kind of idiocy multiple times before, tripping for 48+ hours straight and always sobered up the next day. But since that trip I have seriously not felt normal. Im not asking for sympathy, and I hate to waste knowledgeable BL's time responding to yet another fools post, but it really does feel like this will never end.
My veteran tripper friend described it as what I'm feeling is a heightened sense of reality, which as accurate as it sounds I hate it. Real life feels foreign and obscure. Mentally I don't feel different, but my perception of reality feels damaged. The thought that this could be permanent terrifies me. I look at how I felt before this event and I just feel absolutely miles from that sober state of mind and miss it like hell.
I really am at the weakest and most desperate point I have ever been in. I have been getting exercise, eating as healthily as I can and taking lots of vitamin C and am trying my best to get into a regular sleep pattern. Since this happened I have avoided weed and uppers like poison and stopped smoking as it makes it worse but have unfortunately found comfort in benzo's and have been drinking frankly to escape my altered consciousness as much as it kills me to admit that.
I do not expect to go back to normal, but if this does not subside down to a manageable level I have no idea what I will do.
My question is it it worth going to a doctor? I don't really feel manic or anything, but definitely fried in the head and slightly odd thought patterns.
It feels like I'm not really here, and tends to get worse throughout the day as I get tired. I also have fairly bad anxiety which makes this whole thing a nightmare. Is there anything else I can do at least slightly come back from this?
Id wish this on no-one. I pray I will start to feel slightly better over a long period of time but I cant even tell if its getting better or worse, I dont understand how dosages seriously lower than I have taken before have done so much damage...