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when will i feel better, been 2 weeks (also craving question)

bignbrown

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Im a former benzo addict, took me about 7 months to taper off valium, had a few months of no benzos but i was heavily drinking so my gaba receptors were still messed up, about 3 weeks ago i got hold of 50 temazepams and 50 nitrazepams and did them all over a week, so 2 weeks ago i ran out of them, i withdrew heavily for about 3 days and ive been feeling 'off' since then, now 2 weeks and dont feel better, i wake up every morning with the same nasty anxiety, vision is still a bit messed up, i still get weird shakes and jerks every now and again.

I dont feel bad like when i was in the middle of cold turkey, i can go out and function now, but its the little things getting to me, and its really awful, and im wondering when i might start to feel a bit like my old normal self :(

Tonight after speaking with friends still using stims and things i started getting HUGE cravings for alcohol, meph and benzos, i tried blocking the chat i was speaking to my friends on, but i still couldnt get my mind off it, i really dont know how to deal with that.

thanks
 
Yep, I wish there was an easier way but the above posts are correct. Just take life by the minute and youll be out of the woods before you know it. Don't think ahead, it becomes overwhelming.
 
dude if you have legitimate anxiety and think you can use low-dose benzos responsibly I would recommend getting on them.
Or you could try gabapentin or pregabalin which are scheduled one lower than benzos (at least in the US)
other than that it's just going to take time...
 
^ good advice... small, insignificant note- while pregabalin IS schedule V, gabapentin is unscheduled.
 
muvolution said:
dude if you have legitimate anxiety and think you can use low-dose benzos responsibly I would recommend getting on them.
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while this is a good idea.......

(hopefully) benzos would not be a long term fix....doctors generally dont like to keep people on benzos, unless they have to.....

ill agree with everyone, time man......try meetings, or find a counselor.......start making the steps...

if you dont make some effort, nothings going to change........the cravings will stop.....just get er done.......
 
^right, benzos often create more problems when they are used beyond a very time-limited acute period.

SkagKush said:
if you dont make some effort, nothings going to change
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^this. this. this.

You are used to numbing your anxiety so of course its going to be there when you remove the 'numbing' agent. You need to look into ways to mitigate yours PAWS symptoms and treat your anxiety or things won't change.

Time will probably help, but if you used benzos because you had anxiety in the first place, that won't just disappear if you do nothing. There are a lot of ways to treat anxiety besides benzos, personally I am a big proponent of CBT but the point is you need to be trying things and finding what works for you.

This strikes me as being better suited for TDS so we'll try that over there.

---> TDS
 
^more good points.....

benzos are generally bad....

but sometimes, they are a godsend.....
 
^I been clean of benzos for 4 days now! wow

And really i do need them from time to time or do I ?

But i been takin lunesta to sleep they say that it works on the same receptors in the brain as the benzos.

Meph and Benzos .. is sure not a good cocktail of drugs..ur fighting 2 wars at once. Best of luck to you.
 
One quick question what are these ?

, about 3 weeks ago i got hold of 50 temazepams and 50 nitrazepams
 
bignbrown said:
Tonight after speaking with friends still using stims and things i started getting HUGE cravings for alcohol, meph and benzos, i tried blocking the chat i was speaking to my friends on, but i still couldnt get my mind off it, i really dont know how to deal with that.

thanks
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Now you know why I've only been on that chat 4-5 times in the past 6 months, lol. ;) I know it sounds harsh and I fuckin' love those guys, but I can't go on there without fiending meph/drugs, so I stick to individual conversations with the sensible folk (such as yourself). 10 days from now = 6 months off meph! (and I ain't going back)

But you're making good progress mate and I hope you keep it up even though tonight was a set-back...Benzos are hard as hell to quit, but at least you haven't gone back to them! Alcohol is nasty but will only set you back a day or two if you leave it at tonight.

I haven't had a benzo in 5 or 6 weeks now, that's amazing for me. I've never been as dependent as you but I have gone through many bouts with them now and I can say after the last bout (going through ~100mg Xanax + smaller amounts of various other benzos in a little over two months) it took about 3 weeks to feel something I hadn't felt in ages - a complete normalization of my anxiety. I still got anxious, I have anxiety issues after all, but it was the anxiety I had dealt with my whole life and it felt familiar and normal, not this over the top, tense, shakiness I have come to know as 'off benzos'. It may take you 2-3 more weeks, but keep it up bro, it IS worth it!!! :)

(Having said that, I'm about a week away from breaking this benzo-less streak and will be hitting up the chat blacked-out and PVed, so you better get on, yeoo! :p [yes, I plan relapses weeks in advance, lol])
 
vortex30 said:
Now you know why I've only been on that chat 4-5 times in the past 6 months, lol. ;) I know it sounds harsh and I fuckin' love those guys, but I can't go on there without fiending meph/drugs, so I stick to individual conversations with the sensible folk (such as yourself). 10 days from now = 6 months off meph! (and I ain't going back)

But you're making good progress mate and I hope you keep it up even though tonight was a set-back...Benzos are hard as hell to quit, but at least you haven't gone back to them! Alcohol is nasty but will only set you back a day or two if you leave it at tonight.

I haven't had a benzo in 5 or 6 weeks now, that's amazing for me. I've never been as dependent as you but I have gone through many bouts with them now and I can say after the last bout (going through ~100mg Xanax + smaller amounts of various other benzos in a little over two months) it took about 3 weeks to feel something I hadn't felt in ages - a complete normalization of my anxiety. I still got anxious, I have anxiety issues after all, but it was the anxiety I had dealt with my whole life and it felt familiar and normal, not this over the top, tense, shakiness I have come to know as 'off benzos'. It may take you 2-3 more weeks, but keep it up bro, it IS worth it!!! :)

(Having said that, I'm about a week away from breaking this benzo-less streak and will be hitting up the chat blacked-out and PVed, so you better get on, yeoo! :p [yes, I plan relapses weeks in advance, lol])
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hehe cheers matt, good advice there man :)

and thanks everyone was the advice, appriciated.
 
The benzos that you've used have a particularly long half-life, which will make your period of withdrawal longer than say with Xanax. I wouldn't be surprised that you would have a positive urine screen for benzos--the metabolites of these drugs are long-lasting.
 
bignbrown said:
Im a former benzo addict, took me about 7 months to taper off valium, had a few months of no benzos but i was heavily drinking so my gaba receptors were still messed up, about 3 weeks ago i got hold of 50 temazepams and 50 nitrazepams and did them all over a week, so 2 weeks ago i ran out of them, i withdrew heavily for about 3 days and ive been feeling 'off' since then, now 2 weeks and dont feel better, i wake up every morning with the same nasty anxiety, vision is still a bit messed up, i still get weird shakes and jerks every now and again.

I dont feel bad like when i was in the middle of cold turkey, i can go out and function now, but its the little things getting to me, and its really awful, and im wondering when i might start to feel a bit like my old normal self :(

Tonight after speaking with friends still using stims and things i started getting HUGE cravings for alcohol, meph and benzos, i tried blocking the chat i was speaking to my friends on, but i still couldnt get my mind off it, i really dont know how to deal with that.

thanks
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I think that for me it was a big turning point when I realised that I no longer had any desire to join my friends in getting wasted. There came a time when it just no longer seemed at all appealing, not because of potential negative consequences but because it just wasn't fun anymore. These days, listening to them plan their next binge or recount their last one is just boring as shit - I know I used to think that way too but I can't relate to it anymore.
 
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