We sat on your bed and wrote each other letters
letters we said we'd never throw away
like our friendship
not saying a word because your parents
were sleeping in the next room
shhhhh, you said
and smiled at me
when we were high.
We snuck out of your house at 4am
and did lines of crystal on your back porch
and smoked cigarettes
and told each other our deepest secrets
sitting side by side
huddled together for warmth
under a blanket
when we were high.
We got high together
then we came down together
and sketched together
and got so thin together
and let them rape us to get more drugs
we lost hope together
we lost self-respect together
but it was all ok
and we were still beautiful
when we were high.
You held my hand when I thought
I was going to die
you told me I was your best friend
you would never do anything to hurt me again
I want to believe you cared at least a little
but I guess it wasn't enough
and where there are drugs
love turns into hatred
and now all I want to do is
forget
when we were high.
Why do the ones you give the most to
always end up betraying you
I just wish we could go back
to the childish e-kisses
that started it all
and I can't ever truly hate you
but I have to stop loving you now
and I have to start living now
and stop trying to save you now
not everyone should be saved
I think you died a long time ago
and all our "I love you"'s
were only
when we were high.
~*~For Nikki~*~
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ps. FYI this is the same girl I wrote "I see you" for: http://www.bluelight.ru/ubb/Forum11/HTML/001501.html
and who was involved in me getting robbed: http://www.bluelight.ru/ubb/Forum18/HTML/004563.html
Sorry to have to show you the darker side of drugs...but it's there too...
~kimmy.
letters we said we'd never throw away
like our friendship
not saying a word because your parents
were sleeping in the next room
shhhhh, you said
and smiled at me
when we were high.
We snuck out of your house at 4am
and did lines of crystal on your back porch
and smoked cigarettes
and told each other our deepest secrets
sitting side by side
huddled together for warmth
under a blanket
when we were high.
We got high together
then we came down together
and sketched together
and got so thin together
and let them rape us to get more drugs
we lost hope together
we lost self-respect together
but it was all ok
and we were still beautiful
when we were high.
You held my hand when I thought
I was going to die
you told me I was your best friend
you would never do anything to hurt me again
I want to believe you cared at least a little
but I guess it wasn't enough
and where there are drugs
love turns into hatred
and now all I want to do is
forget
when we were high.
Why do the ones you give the most to
always end up betraying you
I just wish we could go back
to the childish e-kisses
that started it all
and I can't ever truly hate you
but I have to stop loving you now
and I have to start living now
and stop trying to save you now
not everyone should be saved
I think you died a long time ago
and all our "I love you"'s
were only
when we were high.
~*~For Nikki~*~
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ps. FYI this is the same girl I wrote "I see you" for: http://www.bluelight.ru/ubb/Forum11/HTML/001501.html
and who was involved in me getting robbed: http://www.bluelight.ru/ubb/Forum18/HTML/004563.html
Sorry to have to show you the darker side of drugs...but it's there too...
~kimmy.