firstly......
drug_wench and Sweet P are now......TOGETHER
we thought this out so dont think....ahh typical impulsive methheads - weve bn getting to know each other for awhile over txt/PM mainly but also MSN and even the phone
we eventually realised we were falling for each other - oneday i kinda hinted to her she was the best friend i had in NZ tbh (wat i really meant was....unlike all my other friends, i not only found her interesting and easy to talk to - something i see as perfect in a relationship - but i also....wasnt able to tell her this but.....was falling for her)
it turned out, she was feeling the same!
wen we finally met up, i went with her overnight to stay in her (fairly close....1.5hrs or less by car) city
we had so much fun together - wen i met her at the door i was almost shocked by how gorgeous she was IRL (had only seen pics!)
we talked and talked and talked all day the first day (i even missed my dose of benzos cos i was too busy talking so.....had to double-dose and fight some mega anxiety - she helped me thru it by taking me for a walk round her neighbourhood/smoking a bowl of weed)
next day we had equaly as much fun - never an awkward moment - lots of cuddles (i wanted to b close to her and vice versa...only i didnt know that part!)
u get the picture - i was dying to tell my best friend i was in luv with her (id kinda hinted - she knew im bisexual and prefer women.....i even nearly fondled her breast while hugging......i was like 'whoops' but left it on long enough to kinda show i 'didnt mind' ...etc)
then i was telling her by text daily how i missed her and we had so much in common, etc, etc - i said i loved her many times (but that cud b 'platonic'....i think my body language esp towards the end showed as subtly as i cud, that i wanted to b close, and she was the same......we both kinda saw the signs in each other but we both dismissed them as were both lacking in self-esteem and full of self-doubt)
on oneday i was at a friends and id had a fight with her (shes pissing me off atm tbh but anyway....) and wen i was sitting outside with a ciggie trying to keep my distance so i didnt kill the woman, keira ( sweet P) texted and said she wanted to tel me something that might ruin our friendship
fuck at first i freaked out - i was like 'oh shit, she doesnt like something about me.....'
i hadnt had the confidence shed had - but she had it (thanks baby)
then she let me know she had feelings for me - and that if i didnt it was fine we cud stil b 'friends'
i was like 'no way r we still being just friends!!!!'
well we r friends - basically thats how the best relationships start IMO
the best relationships i see working r those that hav bn built on friendships and didnt even necessarily hav a sexual basis at start
we r currently staying in my house - its day 2 together as a couple, and we feel as if weve not only known each other forever but.....bn together forever
ive never had as special and as wonderful a partner as my sweet P
and she says the same about me (but she hates to call me a wench! lol)
drug_wench and Sweet P are now......TOGETHER
we thought this out so dont think....ahh typical impulsive methheads - weve bn getting to know each other for awhile over txt/PM mainly but also MSN and even the phone
we eventually realised we were falling for each other - oneday i kinda hinted to her she was the best friend i had in NZ tbh (wat i really meant was....unlike all my other friends, i not only found her interesting and easy to talk to - something i see as perfect in a relationship - but i also....wasnt able to tell her this but.....was falling for her)
it turned out, she was feeling the same!
wen we finally met up, i went with her overnight to stay in her (fairly close....1.5hrs or less by car) city
we had so much fun together - wen i met her at the door i was almost shocked by how gorgeous she was IRL (had only seen pics!)
we talked and talked and talked all day the first day (i even missed my dose of benzos cos i was too busy talking so.....had to double-dose and fight some mega anxiety - she helped me thru it by taking me for a walk round her neighbourhood/smoking a bowl of weed)
next day we had equaly as much fun - never an awkward moment - lots of cuddles (i wanted to b close to her and vice versa...only i didnt know that part!)
u get the picture - i was dying to tell my best friend i was in luv with her (id kinda hinted - she knew im bisexual and prefer women.....i even nearly fondled her breast while hugging......i was like 'whoops' but left it on long enough to kinda show i 'didnt mind' ...etc)
then i was telling her by text daily how i missed her and we had so much in common, etc, etc - i said i loved her many times (but that cud b 'platonic'....i think my body language esp towards the end showed as subtly as i cud, that i wanted to b close, and she was the same......we both kinda saw the signs in each other but we both dismissed them as were both lacking in self-esteem and full of self-doubt)
on oneday i was at a friends and id had a fight with her (shes pissing me off atm tbh but anyway....) and wen i was sitting outside with a ciggie trying to keep my distance so i didnt kill the woman, keira ( sweet P) texted and said she wanted to tel me something that might ruin our friendship
fuck at first i freaked out - i was like 'oh shit, she doesnt like something about me.....'
i hadnt had the confidence shed had - but she had it (thanks baby)
then she let me know she had feelings for me - and that if i didnt it was fine we cud stil b 'friends'
i was like 'no way r we still being just friends!!!!'
well we r friends - basically thats how the best relationships start IMO
the best relationships i see working r those that hav bn built on friendships and didnt even necessarily hav a sexual basis at start
we r currently staying in my house - its day 2 together as a couple, and we feel as if weve not only known each other forever but.....bn together forever
ive never had as special and as wonderful a partner as my sweet P
and she says the same about me (but she hates to call me a wench! lol)
