Atomic_Decay
Bluelighter
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I know what you mean. When I remember past lovers I rarely remember the sex. Even when it is someone I basically only ever saw in sexual encounters. I can’t draw on any sexual memories when I pleasure myself cause they are not really there or not vivid.I can be a sexual bastard but the strongest and most meaningful memories I have of human contact aren't sexual at all.
What I do remember much more clearly are their expressions as they looked straight at me, particularly their eyes. And also just lying next to each other - annoying sometimes fully clothed in my memories.
Recently on a very heavy acid trip I had whatever the emotional equivalent of cardiac arrest is when a memory of one lady looking deep into my eyes (and me hers) floated up out of somewhere it was lost inside me.