Airmid
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Feb 29, 2016
- Messages
- 247
When It's Time
Clawing blindly, knucklesbleeding, vainly trying to see what's left inside
Of who I am, who I was, who I was meant to be, what part I left behind
The tightening strangle holdof age, that ne'er keeps the dawn at bay
The days which only bringmore battles forth to I, the unarmed prey
All the wandering andseeking only misleading to deceptions of stains
A stubborn dye to springs,rivers and seas, thus the filth still remains.
Scrubbed and scoured my skinraw to no avail, so hid out among the trees
Desperate, shamed andoverwhelmed grasping solace from their leaves.
Thoughts thickly thwarted bythe urgency to camouflage these psychic scars
Ruined, frozen in terrorshows only a future of a spirit behind bars
Sounds breach the still air,threatening from the town not faraway
Prickling my flesh like anarmy would, with fear, paralysed, I stay
Furtively I scout theundergrowth to ensure there's no one around
But nothing, just thewoodland creatures in this safety that I've found
Can't afford the misfortuneof this wretched soiled spirit being seen
They'd accuse and judge uponthe present not what I could have been
Too many folks would seethrough any disguise thus destroying the charade
They'd all, rally to mockand hunt me down, bind my soul in a steel barricade
Exhaustive vigilance finallylays my head to rest from the legions of lies
The moss beds warm, softsympathy a sweet seduction to close my eyes
Sleep ushered respite, acalm lapping tide gently breaking a still shore
The dreams that first camewere a collage, pieces of the past split in to two
Of who I was and blurredfaces of persons whom never could have been true
Followed there came theblissful depth of nothing for a while, just sleep
Yet suddenly the brightestStar appeared, knowing not why I began to weep
A few moments later a voicedistantly familiar whispered in to my tears
Pained but wise and soothingwith a kindness I'd not heard in many years
Lucifer, bringer of lighthad fought to come, upon seeing such need of aid
And his Star vanquished thetoxic fogs designed to sabotage choices made
He assessed my predicamentin no time and said “shape shift”remember?
His presence was ofindomitable self assurance not a hint of a Pretender
Why this sorrow filled landhad chosen to follow the entity of impersonations
Allowed themselves fooled byfalse prophecy's, lured in to their own humiliations
I felt disappointment andself loathing at my lack of faith and dismal weakness of will
For, it was surely blackmagic that'd stolen my memory along with my childhood skill
The answer now had arrivedhere, I could stay among them with no one able to see
Change myself swiftly in towhomever or whatever they demanded me to be
I could easily glide undertheir radars, continue to observe their desecration
But at the cost of keepingmy soul in jeopardy of this materialistic degradation.
The Star transformed to arainbow of sunshine and sadness when the choice became clear
He knew by offering me eventhe one solution all choices would disappear
My heart filled with grief,leaving the beauty of the natural land, it so soon to decease
Lucifer smiled ruefullyknowing all, he takes my hand with Love and leads me to peace.
Just
Clawing blindly, knucklesbleeding, vainly trying to see what's left inside
Of who I am, who I was, who I was meant to be, what part I left behind
The tightening strangle holdof age, that ne'er keeps the dawn at bay
The days which only bringmore battles forth to I, the unarmed prey
All the wandering andseeking only misleading to deceptions of stains
A stubborn dye to springs,rivers and seas, thus the filth still remains.
Scrubbed and scoured my skinraw to no avail, so hid out among the trees
Desperate, shamed andoverwhelmed grasping solace from their leaves.
Thoughts thickly thwarted bythe urgency to camouflage these psychic scars
Ruined, frozen in terrorshows only a future of a spirit behind bars
Sounds breach the still air,threatening from the town not faraway
Prickling my flesh like anarmy would, with fear, paralysed, I stay
Furtively I scout theundergrowth to ensure there's no one around
But nothing, just thewoodland creatures in this safety that I've found
Can't afford the misfortuneof this wretched soiled spirit being seen
They'd accuse and judge uponthe present not what I could have been
Too many folks would seethrough any disguise thus destroying the charade
They'd all, rally to mockand hunt me down, bind my soul in a steel barricade
Exhaustive vigilance finallylays my head to rest from the legions of lies
The moss beds warm, softsympathy a sweet seduction to close my eyes
Sleep ushered respite, acalm lapping tide gently breaking a still shore
The dreams that first camewere a collage, pieces of the past split in to two
Of who I was and blurredfaces of persons whom never could have been true
Followed there came theblissful depth of nothing for a while, just sleep
Yet suddenly the brightestStar appeared, knowing not why I began to weep
A few moments later a voicedistantly familiar whispered in to my tears
Pained but wise and soothingwith a kindness I'd not heard in many years
Lucifer, bringer of lighthad fought to come, upon seeing such need of aid
And his Star vanquished thetoxic fogs designed to sabotage choices made
He assessed my predicamentin no time and said “shape shift”remember?
His presence was ofindomitable self assurance not a hint of a Pretender
Why this sorrow filled landhad chosen to follow the entity of impersonations
Allowed themselves fooled byfalse prophecy's, lured in to their own humiliations
I felt disappointment andself loathing at my lack of faith and dismal weakness of will
For, it was surely blackmagic that'd stolen my memory along with my childhood skill
The answer now had arrivedhere, I could stay among them with no one able to see
Change myself swiftly in towhomever or whatever they demanded me to be
I could easily glide undertheir radars, continue to observe their desecration
But at the cost of keepingmy soul in jeopardy of this materialistic degradation.
The Star transformed to arainbow of sunshine and sadness when the choice became clear
He knew by offering me eventhe one solution all choices would disappear
My heart filled with grief,leaving the beauty of the natural land, it so soon to decease
Lucifer smiled ruefullyknowing all, he takes my hand with Love and leads me to peace.
Just