When is suicide the best option

[brimz]

Suicide is the best option .

THose 4 words are just wrong n trust me i have contemplated suicide nuff times even acted out a few about 4 i think .

When i say acted out i mean it as well like 100amyltriptiline n 28 Lormetazepam n a dig , Survived that

about 112 blue valium from the docs when i was young n didn't have atolerance then did a .8 dig the next morning .

Strangest effort was 280ml of temazepam 10mg/5ml n half 16th of gear but i saved a .1 of the gear incase i didn't die WTF !!! i woke up 28 hours later unable to move cos i had been in the same position . Still had me .1 vof gear left maybe if i had taken it all i might of died ,


Come to teh conclusion suicvide is over rated

 

[foolsgold]

read what ive said it is its a problem that i am not going in to but it makes things impossible for me to have any kind of relationship ive be alone nearly my whole life suffered sexual physical and mental abuse from a very young age got raped more than once which has done something to me now meaning i can't be with someone ok and thats all i am saying after this

now i know some cunts out there are going to laugh and shit but i dont give a fuck really i don't my life has been a living hell for years and the one thing i have in it is the say as to when i go out told you i am at ease with it its coming and so be it

really no need to try talking me out of it or anything like that or being sad be happy for me im in pain im lonely as fuck it aches like you cant understand knowing i get up alone that il spend the day alone then go to bed alone the only escape ive got are drugs and charlie jack and christ do i get fucked up and enjoy my drugs lol its all cool people really i guess im just trying to say get ready and good bye earlie

 

[Inflorescence]

You can call and self refer to your local community mental health centre or go to A and E they will direct you to a professional that may be able to help.

My answer has always been to get so pissed and/drugged up/down that you eventually pass out for a few days -THIS I don't recommend.

Do you have any friends you can call or family you can speak to? The people on here are on the whole very lovely=so let it all out and stay with us

I have been in your position many a time and have always a week, a month or so later, wondered how I could have let someone make me feel so bad about myself.....Life is still beautiful and is worth battling.

 

[brimz]

read what ive said it is its a problem that i am not going in to but it makes things impossible for me to have any kind of relationship ive be alone nearly my whole life suffered sexual physical and mental abuse from a very young age got raped more than once which has done something to me now meaning i can't be with someone ok and thats all i am saying after this

now i know some cunts out there are going to laugh and shit but i dont give a fuck really i don't my life has been a living hell for years and the one thing i have in it is the say as to when i go out told you i am at ease with it its coming and so be it

really no need to try talking me out of it or anything like that or being sad be happy for me im in pain im lonely as fuck it aches like you cant understand knowing i get up alone that il spend the day alone then go to bed alone the only escape ive got are drugs and charlie jack and christ do i get fucked up and enjoy my drugs lol its all cool people really i guess im just trying to say get ready and good bye earlie

i wasn't taking the piss with my POst mate just telling y'all some of my experiences with suicide

 

[foolsgold]

this is the only place ive got as an outlet no family friends no not now adays really its fine sorry i brought it up your all to kind and caring and know what you're trying to do but hey its cool
im not masking things with drugs like that im medicating just like a doctor would just doing it myself lol .

real its something that cnt be fixed so once charlie goes so do i just these last few months have been sickeningly hard to cope with no one person in particular is living the hgh live at my expense be publicly lying about me trying to push me over the edge .

plus im tied i really am i just dnt want to be here no more really doctors and counseling aint going to work unless the give me a script for stims which wont happen .
anyway im going for now this is getting to my head but thank you and like i said its all cool ok

 

[knock]

fg, the fact that you feel the need to tell us about this is in itself proof that you know that suicide is not the answer.

When you know suicide is the answer, you put your affairs in order and you end it. You don't tell people you're going to do it. Why would you tell anyone? If you were decided then, there would be nothing to say. Communication serves a purpose. If you were simply saying "goodbye" then you'd post:

Hi folks, just posting to say I've given up drugs and I'm not going to be hanging about the forum. So goodbye, and l wish you all the best in life

foolsgold

THAT is a suicide note. You would then disappear.

But in fact you're telling us about your problems. That's because you are looking for a way forward. You are searching. You are active. You can see the light. You just don't know yet how you're going to get there.

But it's there, and you're looking.

You aren't going anywhere*, fg. You say you have no friends, it's not true, we're you're friends. Maybe we can't touch, but we have a meeting of minds.


Hello foolsgold I am knock We meet here %)

Stay with us. Hold on!


(* you are not departing)

 

[Pagey]

read what ive said it is its a problem that i am not going in to but it makes things impossible for me to have any kind of relationship ive be alone nearly my whole life suffered sexual physical and mental abuse from a very young age got raped more than once which has done something to me now meaning i can't be with someone ok and thats all i am saying after this

now i know some cunts out there are going to laugh and shit but i dont give a fuck really i don't my life has been a living hell for years and the one thing i have in it is the say as to when i go out told you i am at ease with it its coming and so be it

really no need to try talking me out of it or anything like that or being sad be happy for me im in pain im lonely as fuck it aches like you cant understand knowing i get up alone that il spend the day alone then go to bed alone the only escape ive got are drugs and charlie jack and christ do i get fucked up and enjoy my drugs lol its all cool people really i guess im just trying to say get ready and good bye earlie

foolsgold; this isn't something I ever really talk about but your post really struck a chord with me and I needed to say something. I was raped about a year and a half ago, kept locked in a room and basically tortured for three days. I've also been beaten to the point of broken bones by my father. I know what kind of trauma that creates. Trust me, I really do. The rape has changed absolutely everything about me and my life, it's the reason I started taking heroin, it's the reason I've tried to kill myself multiple times since and it's the reason I want to punch any mirror I see myself reflected in. Having that happen to you really fucks you up, and I know that, and there's nothing anyone can say to fix it because it's not something that can be fixed. It does fuck you up, that's a fact.
But that doesn't mean you can't overcome it. I'm sure there are many other specifics in your life that make you feel like this currently but this is something I do have some experience with and feel somewhat qualified to address. It doesn't have to define you. Yes, it changes your life, there's nothing you can do about that and saying it doesn't would be lying; but that doesn't mean it has to end it. You can survive. This summer, over a year after it happened, I spent a whole ten days locked in my bedroom unable to go out or speak to a single person because I had flashbacks and thoughts that every single person out there wanted to hurt me. My father is currently dying and told me he'd rather I be in his place. Life is fucked up. But it's also what you make of it. And you're better than these negative thoughts, we're all better than these kinds of negative thoughts, trust me. Life really is what you make of it, and if you want to make it good, you can, no matter how fucked up the shit that happens to you. And that's something I really do fucking believe and it's something worth standing by.

 

[foolsgold]

fg, the fact that you feel the need to tell us about this is in itself proof that you know that suicide is not the answer.

When you know suicide is the answer, you put your affairs in order and you end it. You don't tell people you're going to do it. Why would you tell anyone? If you were decided then, there would be nothing to say. Communication serves a purpose. If you were simply saying "goodbye" then you'd post:



THAT is a suicide note. You would then disappear.

But in fact you're telling us about your problems. That's because you are looking for a way forward. You are searching. You are active. You can see the light. You just don't know yet how you're going to get there.

But it's there, and you're looking.

You aren't going anywhere*, fg. You say you have no friends, it's not true, we're you're friends. Maybe we can't touch, but we have a meeting of minds.


Hello foolsgold I am knock We meet here %)

Stay with us. Hold on!


(* you are not departing)

thats the thing thats sort of what i am doing im saying my goodbyes this way im just trying to get shit together look thank you

foolsgold; this isn't something I ever really talk about but your post really struck a chord with me and I needed to say something. I was raped about a year and a half ago, kept locked in a room and basically tortured for three days. I've also been beaten to the point of broken bones by my father. I know what kind of trauma that creates. Trust me, I really do. The rape has changed absolutely everything about me and my life, it's the reason I started taking heroin, it's the reason I've tried to kill myself multiple times since and it's the reason I want to punch any mirror I see myself reflected in. Having that happen to you really fucks you up, and I know that, and there's nothing anyone can say to fix it because it's not something that can be fixed. It does fuck you up, that's a fact.
But that doesn't mean you can't overcome it. I'm sure there are many other specifics in your life that make you feel like this currently but this is something I do have some experience with and feel somewhat qualified to address. It doesn't have to define you. Yes, it changes your life, there's nothing you can do about that and saying it doesn't would be lying; but that doesn't mean it has to end it. You can survive. This summer, over a year after it happened, I spent a whole ten days locked in my bedroom unable to go out or speak to a single person because I had flashbacks and thoughts that every single person out there wanted to hurt me. My father is currently dying and told me he'd rather I be in his place. Life is fucked up. But it's also what you make of it. And you're better than these negative thoughts, we're all better than these kinds of negative thoughts, trust me. Life really is what you make of it, and if you want to make it good, you can, no matter how fucked up the shit that happens to you. And that's something I really do fucking believe and it's something worth standing by.

as for this i really do not know what to say this was very brave of you to come out with hun and ive pm'ed you

think its best we just leave this for now and sorry for bring this up but thanks makes things harder in away but at least it also gives me some solace that the whole world is arseholes

like ive said ive 2 g coming this week hopefully 5 or 10 next and as long as im high i can sort of cope but that for now

 

[Gaz_hmmmm]

Just after you've shouted "Allahu Akbar!" and you're gonna get shot anyway.

But in your situation don't, it will get better. I feel the same and have been here before, been worse and attempted it. Don't, the pain it causes is awful and you'll regret it (If you survive!).

 

[Pagey]

as for this i really do not know what to say this was very brave of you to come out with hun and ive pm'ed you

think its best we just leave this for now and sorry for bring this up but thanks makes things harder in away but at least it also gives me some solace that the whole world is arseholes

like ive said ive 2 g coming this week hopefully 5 or 10 next and as long as im high i can sort of cope but that for now

Don't apologise, never apologise for needing to talk about this stuff, we're here for you, seriously. Yeah the world is full of assholes but it really is also full of some pretty damn good people and the few that are out there are worth looking for and sticking around for. Stay strong okay?

 

[foolsgold]

Just after you've shouted "Allahu Akbar!" and you're gonna get shot a

But in your situation don't, it will get better. I feel the same and have been here before, been worse and attempted it. Don't, the pain it causes is awful and you'll regret it (If you survive!).

ive tried many times my arms are like road maps tied it while sectioned once 7 acid tabs and slit my wrist the had to resuscitate me that time try that one for fucked up worst trip possible was the most beautiful thing till blacking out then hell on earth after that

ive no one close other than the cat so thats not a problem

 

[foolsgold]

Don't apologise, never apologise for needing to talk about this stuff, we're here for you, seriously. Yeah the world is full of assholes but it really is also full of some pretty damn good people and the few that are out there are worth looking for and sticking around for. Stay strong okay?

yer and you one of the good ones hun but i wish to leave this now its not helping at them minute thank you knock and everybody else as well for this i should be pissed for making it harder but im not anyway think its time to call it a night maybe a good horror movie will take my mind off things till my drugs arrive

 

[Raasyvibe]

i have enough booze and etiz to do the ttrck but i'm scared

I think WML was clearly high/drunk when she posted this and the posts may not represent her true feelings. But to get into that state and apparently have the means to commit suicide is worrying.

WML please keep us updated when you're a bit more sober so we don't have to worry

 

[Inflorescence]

I think WML was clearly high/drunk when she posted this and the posts may not represent her true feelings. But to get into that state and apparently have the means to commit suicide is worrying.

WML please keep us updated when you're a bit more sober so we don't have to worry

I think it's a positive she is scared, I am assuming she meant scared of actually doing the deed hopefully this was a fleeting thought made in to a post? Hope she is OK. I was in a state a few weeks ago and posted something about how I was feeling. I had some lovely supportive posts and a long chat with someone here on skype and it helped. I have probably amongst other stuff about 600 etz here (panic bought a while ago when someone said they didn't think they would be legal for that much longer??!!

It's just not good for some of us too have to much shit in the cupboard. WML-are you there....speak to us?

 

[BlindHelperMonkey]

about 112 blue valium from the docs when i was young n didn't have atolerance then did a .8 dig the next morning

jesus christ

When you know suicide is the answer, you put your affairs in order and you end it. You don't tell people you're going to do it. Why would you tell anyone? If you were decided then, there would be nothing to say

correct. brimz's iron constitution aside, 99 times out 100, if you truly intend to kill yourself, you will do so - in complete secrecy and with no hope of messing up. you dont get chance to be found/saved if you jump headfirst off the 13th floor balconyof your council flat


got to be careful with drugs, you could fuck up and wake a vegetable, with a life immeasurably worse and no provision to end it. fuck that, its either/or, choose life or choose death - indecisiveness can lead to a fate worse

 

[NightsEpiphany]

Well yeah and Old Nick could get you if you top yourself man. To put it bluntly.

 

[Allein]

No ramble from me this morning, I've been so close to doing this several times, even had the doings of it in place.

Just hang on for tomorrow, it may bring a better day ( and repeat ) someone may need you....although shagging Brimz's may be stretching the point a bit.

 

[foolsgold]

Well yeah and Old Nick could get you if you top yourself man. To put it bluntly.

thats one thing that does not bother me in the least i am at war with god anyway after this so you lol

 

[foolsgold]

you mean like this guy did thing is am scared of hights

NSFW:

http://i.muchosucko.com/production/asset/url/118/411/studentjumpstohisdeathinmanila.mp4

 

[brimz]

jesus christ





correct. brimz's iron constitution aside, 99 times out 100, if you truly intend to kill yourself, you will do so - in complete secrecy and with no hope of messing up. you dont get chance to be found/saved if you jump headfirst off the 13th floor balconyof your council flat


got to be careful with drugs, you could fuck up and wake a vegetable, with a life immeasurably worse and no provision to end it. fuck that, its either/or, choose life or choose death - indecisiveness can lead to a fate worse

That was a proper suicide attempt i was only 19 n i managed to get a fortnights script of the DOctor , i took the 112 blues n had the pin with the .8 init ready but i fell asleep b4 i could slam it so as soon as i woke up i did . As you know the diaz would have still been in my system .
I was living in a hostel at the time n it was one of the staff that saved me , he knew that i had been depressed n stuff n came to check on me n when he got no answer he opened the door n called the ambulance . I had been out for a while they didn't even give me naloxone cos i my breathing was still ok they just monitored me .