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When is suicide the best option

Baldwin was 28 and married with a three-year-old daughter when he decided to take a last walk across the Golden Gate. Two years previously, he had tried and failed to kill himself with an overdose of painkillers and a six pack of beer.
“I needed to do something definitive,” he said. “I did not want to use a gun or hanging because of the fallout that my survivors would have to deal with. That’s why I decided on the bridge. The statistics were pretty good that I would die and never be found.”
Baldwin counted to 10, froze, and counted to 10 again, then vaulted the barrier. Luckily, he was pulled from the water by a Coast Guard.
“I still see my hands coming off the railing,” he told the New Yorker magazine. “I instantly realised that everything in my life that I’d thought was unfixable was totally fixable – except for having jumped.”
 
that golden gate film of people jumping is nothing more that a legal snuff movie i know snuff means a bit more as in
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rape torture murder
but thats all it is and damn sick in my mind that they let them film it .

says the guy whos a member of muchosucho.com :)

i can't really tell you not to do it not with the state of mind ive been in but for you its sound like teenage problems that will get better in the morning not life altering problems and past nightmares that have left you with not much choice but to pick a day and say good bye
 
even life altering problems and past nightmares leave you with a choice. I dont know if the 'look at people worse off than you' thing works, ie blind people, people dying of starvation, or some horrible agonising disease. It doesnt make your own pain any less real but it can provide some usefull context and perspective. There is allways a choice, for many its simply finding the right medication, as their brain chemistry might be fucked up, for others it involves a complete change of lifestyle. Look at Ronnie O' Sullivan hes emerged from a drug addict depressed shell of a disturbed man to a much more content and balanced person. Running has been the answer for him. There is an answer for everyone. And that answer isnt suicide, unless in Knocks Euthanasia scenario.
 
OP, please come back to us.

i doubt theres a soul here on this (apparently god forsaken) forum that wouldnt do everything in their power to help you through things or at least listen.

mdb, i didnt know that about ronnie osullivan. i mean i knew about his past, just always thought snooker was his ticket back.
 
There's a lot of incredibly good words in here already so I'll just quote them for posterity. Things will get better, there's always hope and there are lots of people around here that care about you and want to help. Am always on the end of a PM if you need to chat. (And that goes for anyone, btw.)

Pagey said:
The best thing about life is that it's ever-changing. I can only imagine how you must be feeling right now but please, just keep telling yourself this isn't how things have to be until the end - just keep telling yourself until you believe it.
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Sammy G said:
I can only reiterate what's been said here already - there's always some way out of your problems, no matter how dark a place you may find yourself in. Which might not provide you with much comfort right now, but honestly there's always hope.
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Marmalade said:
Sleeping on stuff really can help. It's usually my answer for feeling depressed anyways. It gives you a break from the misery and chances are you wake up feeling slightly better than you did the day before.
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thats the thing i told you as much as i am willing to let out but there's one major problem thats left me well with no hope of having much of a life relationships are out of the question simple as now so thats the thing i just keep putting it off because the drugs keep flowing and charlie but once he is gone i guess so am i but dnt be pissed at me or sorry for me.

fuck me its not a problem its just my life and how it goes be happy in a way that i am away from this shit and in hopefully a place where i can kick the living fuck out of god for doing this to me

anyway this is not my post and no its not aids or owt like its something else but thats as far as i am going with this other than when i got raped something got broken and well not much point really being here now
 
I've considered it in the past, going through some bad patches. In a way I'm glad I didn't go through with it as I've had some great life experiences since then, however when you ponder about the futility of it all, the repetition of daily habits(wake up, work, eat, go to sleep) sometimes really it seems that there's no point.

I have a friend who offed himself, honestly even if I had known before of his intentions I'm not sure I would have tried to stop him, sure he could have turned his life around and had more great times, but still, the decision was his and I have no right to judge or intervene.
 
best way to keep me here is supply me with drugs :)

its a choice ive made it is euthanasia i mean maybe if i can get through another couple of years then who knows but this like ive saids left me sort of fucked on a life front i spend 24/7 locked away as it is i am lonely as fuck but the is nothing i can do really about that now so just keep snorting till one day its cunt im coming for you god and you going to pay you nasty little bitch for this
 
^^
Steady on fg- remember what Frank Zappa said about loneliness:

Try to imagine what the opposite of loneliness is. Think of it. Everyone in the world loves you? What is that? Realize that you’re in isolation. Live it! Enjoy it! Just be glad that there aren’t a bunch of people who want to use up your time. Because along with all the love and admiration that’s going to come from the people that would keep you from being lonely, there is the emotional freight you have to bear from people who are wasting your time, and you can’t get that back. So when you’re lonely and you’re all by yourself, guess what you have? You have all of your own time. That’s a pretty good fucking deal.
 
Be careful, please, WML. We've lost too many Bluelighters already.

I really don't have much to say, because most of it has already been said. However bad things might seem now, they might not seem so bad tomorrow. Or the day after. Take it one day at a time and don't let the bastards win.

Anyone who has ever tried to love will tell you that you are better off single, than going out with someone who calls you worthless. You aren't the first person to have a bad relationship, and you won't be the last. Even I spent way too long getting nowhere with the wrong person, kidding myself that everything was perfect, unable to see the direction things were really taking. And the first emotion I felt, once it stopped hurting, was relief -- blessed relief that I didn't have to do that whole stupid walking-on-eggshells, hoping-today-isn't-the-day-I-get-dumped thing anymore. And even if you really can't manage without drugs, the next opportunity to score is going to come around sooner than you think. With the most addictive drugs, right after you stop is always the hardest time. It starts getting easier from just after the moment when you would have taken your next hit.

The Sun will shine for you again -- but right now, you just can't see the bigger picture. Which is OK, and it happens to us all sometimes. It's logically impossible to will yourself not to think about something because, in order to think about not thinking about it, you have to think about the thing you mustn't think about. So give yourself something else to think about instead. Get out and go for a walk, or a run, or a bike ride -- whatever you prefer. Or just do household chores until your brain goes into power-saving mode. Fold your clothes up neatly for tomorrow, just to plant the idea in your mind that there is going to be a tomorrow; go to bed, and sleep on it.

And remember,
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Even if you haven't got a partner for Bridge, you can always play Patience =D And sometimes it's more fun!
 
I'm only new on here but suicide ain't the way to go. Even if things are shit now, positive things can happen in the future. Some people don't peak until old age, sometimes it takes a life of experience to be the best person you can be.
 
When Alasdair is the other.

Had a good sleep on it luv? Good. Now pull yourself together and stop being an arse.

Yours

OneThousandWords
 
knock said:
fg, get more cats. The shelters are full of animals needing loved.
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That's a good idea. Cats are lovely and they do love you back (don't care what others say about cats not giving a fuck about their owners (staff is a better word)). Disclaimer - I have a cat (she's sleeping next to me as I type this) so may be a bit biased towards them.

But seriously don't kill your self and don't try drowning your emotions with drugs (it doesn't work).

Only good reason for killing yourself is if you have some incurable disease and the choice is either die now without any pain or die two months later in a lot of pain. And even then it's not an easy choice. You don't have that.
 
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