i remember the day the earth exploded
the day i erupted with the commotion
i followed the hysteria in suit
a blathering child
a simple me
times like these i miss disaster
sometimes...its just not ok
its just not ok
i cant pretend to smile
clothes on fire
my hair ignited
i cant pretend anymore
blind to my smoke
you dont see
you never did.
im fucking enveloped in it, christ.
so why do i burn for you?
why do i continue to throw myself
at you
to you
for you
all about you
i wish you could hear me...
some sort of transmission
so you could taste the bitterness of me
how i feel when those songs are played
how i scream within when i see you smile
when its not for me
how my every action
in some way
is enacted for you
its true, you inspire me
not to hate,
not to love.
i just feel.
its can be such a dull ache..
in fact, it always is
i breathe in memories,
i breathe out life..
all i ever wanted
all i ever needed
some reckless hope i maintain
can you hear me?
can you listen...
i transmit
how can you not sense it..
i peer into you, just trying
trying to exude something
something that you will feel.
and you never do
if you do, i know youd never tell me
because you have to be a certain way
you impress
you intimidate
ive touched that soft side though
ive felt that tender flesh
bloodied and aching
that side you never wanted me to see
and i have it
i hold it
and i never want you to forget it.
the day it all ends,
that final disaster
ill find your charred little soul
rumpled in the corner
ill let a spark catch
and ignite me too
just because i cant stand the cold when i could be warm
with you
even if you hated it...
i love you.
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::heaven holds a sense of wonder/and i wanted to believe/that id get caught up when the rage in me subsides::
the day i erupted with the commotion
i followed the hysteria in suit
a blathering child
a simple me
times like these i miss disaster
sometimes...its just not ok
its just not ok
i cant pretend to smile
clothes on fire
my hair ignited
i cant pretend anymore
blind to my smoke
you dont see
you never did.
im fucking enveloped in it, christ.
so why do i burn for you?
why do i continue to throw myself
at you
to you
for you
all about you
i wish you could hear me...
some sort of transmission
so you could taste the bitterness of me
how i feel when those songs are played
how i scream within when i see you smile
when its not for me
how my every action
in some way
is enacted for you
its true, you inspire me
not to hate,
not to love.
i just feel.
its can be such a dull ache..
in fact, it always is
i breathe in memories,
i breathe out life..
all i ever wanted
all i ever needed
some reckless hope i maintain
can you hear me?
can you listen...
i transmit
how can you not sense it..
i peer into you, just trying
trying to exude something
something that you will feel.
and you never do
if you do, i know youd never tell me
because you have to be a certain way
you impress
you intimidate
ive touched that soft side though
ive felt that tender flesh
bloodied and aching
that side you never wanted me to see
and i have it
i hold it
and i never want you to forget it.
the day it all ends,
that final disaster
ill find your charred little soul
rumpled in the corner
ill let a spark catch
and ignite me too
just because i cant stand the cold when i could be warm
with you
even if you hated it...
i love you.
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::heaven holds a sense of wonder/and i wanted to believe/that id get caught up when the rage in me subsides::
