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Sepher

Sepher

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Been Googling carotid compression this evening. Had to laugh. Type 'hanging' into the search box up at the top right in an easily Googleable suicide forum ((( without the ' ' quotation marks, obviously.))) and first result is an advert for Rails and Hooks at Argos?

It would almost be funny, wouldn't it? Almost? If you had a really black sense of humour? They taking the fucking piss or wot? :roll:

Really not doing good today.

:(
 
I'm sorry but that does seem like a piss take.

I'm not having a good day either stupid incompetent nhs.

Care to share?
 
It seems to be a worldwide phenomenon today--the not good day, that is. At least we are still capable of finding some strange humor in it, eh? Sepher and Doomed, you two take care. You are great people. <3
 
Thanks herb you're such a kind lady <3

I've got cbt in 5 hours, I've not slept in 72 hours, still vomiting from my pain every time I try and move. I just want it to go away now. The pain's pretty much shooting all the way through my right side up my neck, into my head. Horrible shuddering tremors in my muscles coz I'm so tense from all the pain. I'm trying my best to ride through but at this level it is impossible. No position is remotely relieving. I just want some better medication, I've chewed all my cheeks to bits.

This therapist hasn't seen me ill before, she'll probably run from my house screaming I'm not treating that!!!
 
Pain is a vishus cycle that sometimes no one can control. The only thing we can do is keep on fighting. Life is a precious gift. Even though bad things happen to good people all of the time. It also goes the over way as well. Just try and take it day to day. Life is a roller coaster when it slows down, it gets ready to do another ride with all kinds of spiraling and free falling. No one is in complete control of what kind of ride it's going to be. We just need to try and hold on. Good things happen. It's just sometimes they are far and few between. We are here for you on this board and you can reach out to us through this board anytime. Hopefully that helps a little to know. It does help me when I am down. Just remember you are not alone and you can make it. Just keep trying, you will find what your seeking if you look deep enough and have faith. Love and light to both of you through this hard time. <3
 
Thanks. I do try my best, I am actually being really positive lately after I gave up fighting for a while when it all started spreading and causing even more problems. I'm just fed up with this crappy health system, the dr couldn't come out to see me, too busy. I couldn't have gone up to the hospital as they'd have have said well you have your medication make do with that. I just want to get back onto a better medication regime like earlier in the year. I wanted them to do this before this happened, which is why I started adjusting meds in September in preparation, it gets worse every single winter, then the pain the year after is more intense. My gp is lovely and does what she can with being of limited knowledge, listens to my previous experiences etc. But when I have expressed on numerous occasion that a medication does not work for me, it should be remidied sooner rather than later. All this because I went to my son's first nativity and because it's bloody snowy and icy. And I had to fight myself to get to the nativity in the first place coz of this crappy disorder and comorbid mental health issues.

But yes, thank you for your kind words,in just wish the nhs wasn't such a joke!
 
Doomed2pain, there's you going through proper suffering and I'm sat here feeling sorry for myself. :roll: I need to get a fucking grip. Just feel defeated at the moment, like I'm losing the battle against the booze, and putting everything I have at risk cos I can't stop the bloody drinking. Was in a really dark place monday night cos I was drunk, and it brought out the inwardly directed violent tendencies I seem to be feeling more and more lately. It's probably a good job I stumbled across the stupid ad for Argos cos it brought me out of the spiral I was in. I'm going to the docs tomorrow, see if I can't get signed off sick for a couple of weeks, just to get me through xmas cos I'm fucking exhausted at the minute, have been for weeks. Not sleeping good at all, pattern shot to hell, and what little nervous energy I do manage to summon up to get me through a working week is draining in and of itself. It's just driving my mood down all the more being so damned tired and listless all the time.

Thanks for the reply Doomed2pain. You too Herbavore and Stella. <3
 
^ Your not feeling sorry for yourself. You are expressing yourself and when it gets to much to bare that is all we can do. That is what TDS is here for. Much love and light to you both. <3
 
Woah, everyones pain is the same no matter what the cause, me being in pain all the time makes me feel it so much more when others are suffering. I hope you manage to find some release, it's awful. My brain feels like it's been smashed against a wall right now, I thought I'd lost it forever at one point last night. So scary.

I really hope you feel better soon, I find when I'm bad and I drink it affects me that way too, which it will with being a depressant. Props to argos for snapping you out of it, I once did the same researching as you and thought to myself that's just fucked but also kinda funny. I have a sick sense of humour at times :)

Thanks Stella, you're very kind. Love to you both <3
 
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