Recovery When do you decide not to use any more and how is it different than other times you tried to quit?

[M!$TER-ED]

I don't like to shut out the possibility of ever using again, I don't believe that is a fair assumption because you never know what the future will bring. I prefer to choose not to use on a daily basis. This gives me control by choosing not to use and you know how much we like to be in control?
When I got out of the hospital several years ago, my wife made the statement se was waiting for the other shoe to drop. Meaning I had to prove myself not only to her but to myself this time was different.
The only way to do this is by consecutively doing the right thing over and over again until you have a history positive living skills. This takes time and patience with yourself and your surroundings.
Not impossible but like anything worthwhile in life may be difficult to change old habits and ways of coping. Don't give up on yourself, you are all you have in this world. sure you might have outside support but ultimately this is your life and the decision is yours.

 

[Opana313]

I can roll with that. I think it's a safe and mature way to establish the connection, of drugs, life, addiction & ultimately the result is some balance act that we naturally fall victim to from time to time. A balance of moderation - to the "I feel like I'm walking a tight rope without a circus net, popping percocet, I'm a nervous wreck.."-shady

When I decide not to use any more:
I usually just keep it to myself but also I do not DECLARE IT UPON MYSELF - I try to gradually dip out of the fucking party(psychological shit, i think allan watts said it best, don't announce your plans, because then the devil KNOWS the plan..,the devil of course is you.) and so far this works best for me.

I'll admit being open about MY plan to my loved ones was a big help too, because I guess less secrecy, which used to scare me(in case I wanted to fall off the turn up truck, or the fact this or that person still does not know and could/would jeopardize my habit).
I do feel that letting one or others in on what's up, when the time is right for you, is greater chances for success.

 

[AlphaMethylPhenyl]

people talk about rock bottom, which means different things to different people, just maybe the perception that continuing to use will only dig one deeper, that the void is endless, that the future is much brighter, however far ahead, than continuing to use; me I just saw the drugs for what they were, never close to the feeling of a good life lived with others, simply chemicals that I deluded myself with, burning all of my brigdes and more as time went on