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When and why you first tried MDMA

19 years old at an outdoor Pretty Lights concert. I had always had somewhat of a fascination with drugs, but my experience with them extended no further than marijuana, salvia, and a chuey. The concert was out of town and an old classmate that I had somewhat kept in contact with (but never really hung out with) asked me if I would like to attend it with her; she's going to school in the town that the concert took place. I timidly agreed to go with her and we both went in on a gram of "Molly". Our product ended up being bunk (I didn't know anything about this drug and hadn't discovered Bluelight until after I tried it, so I had no idea about testing it or the potential dangers of a bad batch) but a guy that my friend and I had met at the show gave us each two points for free. I was coming up after no longer than fifteen or twenty minutes and BOOM, I discovered a much more beautiful aspect of life. MDMA has taught me to not only love harder, but to let love in.

I'm really thankful that my first time went as well as it did and that there were no complications; I was able to experience this drug properly and my first roll is still one of the cleanest I've had to this day. Dammit, now I want to roll. :|
 
15 years old and my friend kept talking about how AMAZING rolling was. So one day, I was like, I wanna try it. :P I remember waiting on the bench in the park with him and his 4 other friends (I kind of knew them) for the deal to be done. Orange LVs for me. :) Next thing I knew, I was at one of the guy's house, laying on the floor, shirt off, getting a back massage. Oh yeaahhh. :P
 
I was 15, fucking ran to my friends house telling my mom that I was getting picked up by my friends mom and she was past the corner (barely worked)
So my friends picked me up in his dads truck and we got to his house and parachuted 120mg each of pure crystal form molly. We weren't fucked up, but it was the best I had ever felt in my life. We just listened to bone thugs and shit for a few hours and I got dropped back off.

So worth the risk, one of my favorite memories
 
First time was when I was 17, December 27th, 2011. I had just turned 17 a few weeks ago and I had been looking all over my town for connections. I am kind of a nerd so I never really could get a stable one, but I finally scored a roll, and the guy tested it in front of me and told me it's supposed dosage! I took it at home and vastly underestimated the effects of it, as it was my psychoactive experience of any kind at all. For months before I have been interested in drugs of all kinds, and finally worked up the courage and sucked up my pride and started rolling, as it seemed to be the "easiest" drug to do. The whole night I felt like I was being pushed around by some invisible force, I started dancing for the first time ever, and I was running around my house restlessly with a bunch of flashing LED Christmas lights... I instantly fell in love with it and I do it to this very day.

I think I originally took MDMA as experimentation. I wanted to understand the effects of the chemical on my brain, as I have deeply researched the various effects of it and the only way to fully understand it was to take it.
 
At the time, Mdma was becoming something of an underground fad at my college. I wasn't all that interested in it, as I had tried a shitty E pill the previous year and had a mediocre experience, plus residual heart palpitations for a week, but I decided to approach this newly available and mysterious tan-brown colored crystal with caution as I knew pills were notoriously impure. After the usual heavy consumption of beer and pot, me and two friends crushed up some rocks into some fat lines, and sniffed them up, adventuring into the unknown.

At the bar you might not know I was high, but maybe wonder how I was managing to have such a great time. I am naturally introverted and loved how E led to calm extrovertedness, the illusion of love coupled with the reality of being more noticed by girls, and carefree dancing. The cosmic power of the experience was enough to sweep me up for about a year of my life, it was just too good to pass up, before I abruptly ceased use, seeing it for what it was... I was having too much fun at first, with not a hint of a comedown but rather an afterglow, I felt better after, and I did not even realize that I had been swept up into a love affair with a black market lab chemical, before it was too late. It seemed harmless because there weren't any side effect at first and only benefits. I would never use this drug again, it comes at a serious price, but had the most fun of my life raving out on it in the prime party time of my life.
 
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I was 17. I had broken up with my girlfriend recently and found myself at a bush doof with a bunch of people I sort of knew, and sort of didn't.

Well I had bought one earlier, a bunch of people I was with there there who I thought had their shit together, and who I somewhat admired, were getting them. So I figured it didn't inevitably destroy your life as I had once thought. It was a time of discovery.

Well after a handful of mushrooms, I tried my first ecstasy pill. I'll never forget how nervous I was drinking it down, and how amazing I felt when it hit me. I had so much positive energy I couldn't even express it all.

The next day I tried acid and yeah, consider me changed forever.
 
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I'd just turned 18, finished my Leaving Cert that morning. Bought a 25 bag of weed of my friend, but he didn't have any change for €30 so he handed me a pill instead. Went out to town that night and raved with random people for 4 hours. Great night.
 
Just this past weekend; aged 23 and after a lót of experience with many drugs already prior, I took 80 mg at my boyfriends house with him and two of his friends and then after about an hour another 80 mg and then later in the night around 40 mg (while I'm a 47 kg weighing female usually very sensitive to new substances :p I got very strong effects, really the full spectrum of what one can possibly experience from it, will get more into that later because without a backgroun this story isn't quite complete) to the point that for many years people are more shocked then surprised even to hear I had never tried MDMA. I was sort of against it for reasons I now no longer agree with :) I'd always been (and am) mostly a massive psychedelics and dissociatives (and the last year downers too) user; having done ketamine in between weekly and daily for yéars (and montly even before that, currently weekly though) and LSD around 75 times, DMT even more often, weekly GHB for a year, fentanyl for a random month even once and all in all around 28 drugs tried.. still never MDMA. So no wonder people were like 'wtf' when telling them I'd never done it. Stems back from when I was younger and did LSD at illegal parties often, I'd get properly annoyed by people on MDMA, noticing mostly how fake their happiness felt compared to mine (well I don't think that now, talking from the perspective of a 17 year old me), I also noticed how fucked up they looked and I was very careful about trying drugs that give a hangover, I did not like the general idea of finishing all your serotonin in one night and I was scared of what the comedown and days after might be like.

Either way this past year or two had been really experimental; I went from having tried just weed, mushrooms, a lot of LSD, a lot of ketamine and a lot of nitrous to all those 28 things and I had become a lot easier with trying something new, however still I wouldn't do MDMA; I did become a bit more open to people doing it around me, typically then doing 2c-b myself since that's also pretty euphoric so that I can sórt of relate to people on MDMA, however a few weeks or months back I finally decided I would in fact be up for trying it with my current boyfriend at his place and with him, so saturday, really spontaniously, a friend of his invited him over, I came along, was on ketamine, one beer and GHB at the moment and that friend was like 'I would like to do some MDMA who is up' and my boyfriend was like 'hm yeah maybe' and one girl there was into the idea and I kind of just said 'hm yeah maybe.. why not?' possibly a bit more confident with all the GABA agonism going on in my brain :p Either way we ended up in my boyfriends house and I sort of made the decision 'yes I am going to try it this night'. We had good pills; tested on 155 mg and with my weight I figured half of one would be absolutely ideal. So I took it :) Took some ketamine with it constantly as for me ketamine is a sort of reassurance things will be ok; I really trust myself on ketamine and I trust ketamine to put a safe distance between me and everything else where I can be sure it'll be ok. Didn't take long to start feeling it, I remember telling the girl who was there (don't know her that well) about my cats showing pictures of them and I started to smile for no reason. Smile got bigger, head got tingly and I decided this was nice but it would be nicer if I took more, so I took the second half of the pill too; after that things got well intense; my vision was trembling and shaking and I had trouble even reading (not that I tried a lot) and I felt these sort of tingly sensations moving from my head through my spine trough all my body while feeling sort of.. warm.. nicely warm not too warm. Possibly the ketamine intensitified these physical sensations but holy shit they were níce. That's when I truly started to understand empathy and openness and a sort of unity feeling where all is one and I loved all of it, and all of them too. It was ego-death like and the physical feeling reminded me of a very nice low dose DMT experience even haha. I was even out of it for a few minutes, where I blacked out for a bit. Also noticed rather severe jaw tension to the point it hurt a bit, but no chewing or whatever, also when I looked in the mirror (others confirm) other then large pupils I looked completely normal and healthy, just really happy haha. This sort of extatic feeling grew stronger and music, holy shit music :D Well after that the two friends left and I was alone with my boyfriend; he noticed how extremely intense my experience was, like a peak mdma experience and decided to take more himself. We were also on GHB by the way (and me on K until I ran out a few hours into it, but that was ok because by now I felt so safe on just the MDMA that I did not need my back up security (which really just stems from being addicted to ketaminel; while on the MDMA I did not care for my addiction as much :) ); either way that led to the most epic epic epic sex EVER on earth and I didn't even really realise WHAT I was feeling; everything was one I was even having some sort of visual colourful static that reminded me of 2c-b a bit with the shaking trembling vision but it made everything more beautiful. I sort of melted into the world around me and into my boyfriend (quite litteraly too I guess haha) and he was feeling just the same as I did (except he got sick on the come up of the second bit while I did not at all; around here I took the last one quarter pill); I did get at this point a headache and noticed I was feeling rather warm but taking lowish doses of GHB and smoking some joints took that to a véry tolerable level. I kept just feeling wonderful. When the comedown started my boyfriend redosed and I took some 2c-b myself; that was both a good and a bad idea. Good in the sense that I got lovely visuals and a wonderful mild-euphoria happiness sort of afterglow still feeling all that love but in a more sensible non-over-the-top-not-as-egodeath-like way and clear minded too but physically from the moment the 2c-b came up utterly.. not good. Very hot, extrémely nauseous (couldn't vomit for a while but eventually I did and right after that ate some fruit by which I started feeling good again, took about an hour to feel anywhere near ok again though :\ ) and generally just unpleasant, also the visuals were fucked up at this point I think taking a high dose 2c-b up the nose in an MDMA comedown is maybe a bit harsh, and drinking so much water and no food did not help either obviously.

Days after were .. fucked up; stiff neck, still painful jaw (woke up today for the first time being able to put my head on my right shoulder :p); on monday I was severely dizzy and couldn't stand or walk very well but mentally I felt fine the whole time. Happier then before the MDMA even, litteraly happier, like a fine fun afterglow but I guess a dose of nearly 4 mg / kg bodyweight was a bit heavy thus the heavier physical after effects. Still mentally I still feel glowing from the experience, that was far more epic and even more psychedelic in a way (the empathy and connectedness and love and all) then I thought; I guess I was just skeptical that it couldn't actually be like that but it was. Now I'll wait for the summer, atleast 2-3 months and then I'll probably repeat the experience, only with more K for the comedown instead of 2c-b and just with my boyfriend and no other people since the bit with just him was most amazing and the part I móst want to repeat.

Well fuck this is almost like a bad - I can't sleep so I took G to sleep but took to little and just felt like writing a whole bunch of crap on a forum - type tripreport. So I'll leave it here. One thing I must mention; for my weight and shit that dose was heavy; but I think it was a good thing. I took it graduatly, constantly judging how it made me feel, I was véry well informed and I know that after the kind of trips I've had in my life and the kind of combinations I've done and things I've experienced that I wanted my first time MDMA to be REALLY epic and impressive (people say the first time tends to be best) and I knew that doing just that 80 mg wouldn't have given me this, this was litteraly pure extacy; nothing like it, very unique and that amount of love and just melting away into everything while it is all just so epic.. thats what it's supposed to be like, and the complete lack of a méntal hangover kind of makes me feel I judged that correctly.
 
my first time... i just had to quit smoking weed maybe a week before this for a new job and got a speeding ticket after spending $600 on jewelry for my girlfriend. cop was a complete dick on top of that, AND had to work a 9am-530pm shift that day(after working 6pm-230am the day before) so i was not in the best mood. went home and start hitting shit, breaking stuff being angry and pissed off. my buddy calls me up and says he needs someone to kick it with cause his gf just broke up with him. when i get there hes trying to get coke, which ive never had before but at this point i was about to say fuck it and do ALOT that night. we couldnt get ahold of it but got offered some MDMA. it was huge crystals that you could see through with a feint rainbow tint to them. got close to a gram and snorted all of it with my friend over the course of the next 8-10 hours. needless to say i had a pretty damn good night, but it showed me what a beast MDMA could be. i was lucky enough to actually have an afterglow for about 3-4 days afterwards and the biggest negative effect i experienced was a little mental slowness the day after.

i was taking it originally to get away from problems, but realized after that night that MDMA is quite a different experience and actually had me slow down smoking(didnt get the job) because it made me rethink my entire life. gonna be going to college soon now which i thought id never do, and have a much better idea of what i do and do not want to put in my body. MDMA is quite an amazing tool, if you can use it responsibly and scarcely.
 
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Good read :)

My first time kind of is just like your average one thing led to another story. I once had a dealer that used to sell me pot some years ago, and eventually he came to me and said that he had ecstasy for sale as well. Not really being interested at the time, I told him that I would let him know if I wanted any later. Eventually, I broke down after friends telling me how much they loved it and bought a few tabs. But for some reason when push came to shove I was too intimidated by the drug and what I might or might not feel if I were to consume the substance. Now, I didn't have much experience with drugs at the time, just mainly minor opiates and benzo's so you can probably see why I would be scared to take my pills... But, a few nights later a friend had finally talked me into it so I took one pill with orange juice and decided to see what might happen.


Hours passed, and I found myself looking to the clock expecting something to happen only to my surprise to be hit by the most intense feeling of love, profound joy, and completeness. It's like I had found myself, and had fallen in love with the world and everything in it, as stupid as that may sound some times. I spent my evening trying to comprehend my thoughts telling myself,"why was I so scared to try this", and typical fucked talk. My evening proceeded with more and more euphoria and bliss, comfort and security had become my new found friends. I once had a very bad social anxiety issue, and I found this completely vanished with this drug, substance, creation or whatever you may like to call it.

Furthermore, I can definitely say that my life changed very much so after my first experience, and I can also say that it was more for the better than any other thing.

Sincerely,

One MDMA lover
 
"I think I originally took MDMA as experimentation. I wanted to understand the effects of the chemical on my brain, as I have deeply researched the various effects of it and the only way to fully understand it was to take it. "

Same thing here. Mine was last year at Avicii's concert, my university grades were really bad and I was going to get kicked out, I got really depressed, not to say my "university friends" happened to be fakes. I met someone online from another forum, who was really hyping it up saying he get's all the girls etc. I got very curious about it, made deep deep research (I never taken any other drugs before, and almost never alcohol). First time I got bunked, it turned out to be speed. My 2nd time at Avicii, I dropped about 125-130mg of pure crystal MDMA, and that dose was way to intense for me to handle (I ended up getting kicked out near the end, but trespassed back in with 3 guys I met outside lol), but WOW the feeling, I'll never forget the first time it hitted me, I had a big grin being happy for all the people around me and then BAM, I'm rolling and wandering around just asking for as much hugs as I can. Ever since, I knew this drug was to stay in my life. I truely believe it made me a better person, a bit more extroverted, gained social skills, up'ed my confidence and killed my social anxiety/depression. I'm also an overall happier and more lovely/friendly/emphatic guy now.
 
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My first time using MDMA was awesome. Having had a girlfriend for a few years who disliked all drugs save alcohol, I was perfectly happy not trying it, even though I was curious about it. Just a few days after we broke up, I went to a party with a good friend who uses MDMA on a fairly regular basis and one of her friends, who had never tried M either. So me and her decided to try it together, and had the best time. Even though I felt such an integral part of the crowd, I remember just feeling so connected to this girl. When the rush first started and good feelings started to flow in, I kind of fancied her, but we both ended up meeting someone else that night.. and everything seemed to make perfect sense.
I now use MDMA moderately, I try to take at least two months off between rolls. I have a good time every time though and so far have only had very mild hangovers and other negative side effects. Let's hope it stays that way..
 
It was me and my best friends 18:th birthday as I recall (year 2007). I had aquired a gram of molly earlier for this day. I snorted approximately 0,4g MDMA crystals that evening. The remaining 0,5g my girlfriend and my friend split between them. I felt better than I had ever felt before, followed by feeling worse than ever before once the night was over. It was still totally worth it though, and I do not regret it one bit. It still is one of the best days I've ever had.

I've tried to replicate this experience several times afterwards, but I have never come close to the euphoria I experienced then.
 
My first time was on Oct 7th, 2012. I did it with my now-ex-girlfriend. We weren't dating when we took the MDMA, however. It was at a EDM event, almost rave-like, with Armin van Buuren as the DJ. I told myself in high school that if I ever did MDMA it would be at an Armin van Buuren event, and that's what ended up happening. The experience was absolutely amazing, and now that I think about it I don't think I'll ever have that 'first time' feeling ever again. I'll have you know, however, that I did extensive research on MDMA prior to using it. Continuing on, I must say that MDMA has changed my life for the better. I was never a drug enthusiast, rather against drug use in general (minus alcohol, which I don't do anymore), prior to using the drug, but it opened my eyes. I saw a whole new side of the world, a whole new way to think about myself and other people, and my focus in study even changed. At the time my focus was on psychology, but after using MDMA I've become consumed by neuroscience and organic chemistry. My new fascination with organic molecules and how they affect the brain, especially the persisting positive and negative effects after drug use, changed my area of study. I'm so glad I tried MDMA as I would have probably ended up going into clinical psychology where I don't think I would've been as happy. MDMA has also helped me with anxiety, and confidence issues. I still have these issues, but I saw myself in a new light and it has significantly, and I mean significantly improved my overall well being.

I now continue to take MDMA, and other substances like DXM, salvinorin A, marijuana (I don't enjoy weed), and soon LSD -- with moderation of course. I take MDMA because it aids in my quest to learn more about myself. I believe my drugs of choice will be MDMA and LSD. I have this strong feeling that I will enjoy LSD.

I suppose I went beyond "when and why I first tried MDMA".
 
First time I rolled on MDMA was in January 2010. I had just started my second semester of college, and I was living on my own in a house with 2 roommates and my girlfriend at the time. I was 19. I had always wanted to try it, but only if it was real MDMA.

We got some Paul Franks that were tested as mdma (before the whole molly craze), I took one, my girlfriend took one, my two roommates each took one, and I had another good friend over that took one. It was all our first time. We literally rolled our fucking face off, I'll never forget it. It was the most amazing experience ever. We all sat around the fire in the backyard, all night, in chairs and snuggled up in blankets, and talked under the starry sky. It was a time when I had no worries. I was 19, in college, living on my own. I had my best friends with me, I had my girlfriend snuggled up against me, and everything was right in the world. That was a time when I truly had no worries. After we all decided to go to our rooms and sleep, I got to go to my bed and snuggle my X girlfriend for the duration of the afterglow. Smoking mad blunts, having one on one time. Those were the days...
 
i was about 19, the year was 99, and a friend was moving 2000 or so tabs a week. i fucking LOVED it. It was my DOC for a good long while, and it just fit nicely with the whole drum and bass/jungle scene
 
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