AbusedTampon
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Anyways, I can't disclose my age but it might explain this weirdness;
Anwyays, I had serperate surgeries on my meniscus and also had my appendix removed, due to some minor nerve damage I was in a lot of pain.
I was first given Morphine IV at the hospital which I reacted negatively to so I was put on a fentanyl patch for a few days and then Dilaudid IV for a few weeks until the pain subsided. I was also given gabapentin. Anyways I got out of the hospital with a month long oxycodone (Percocet 10mg/325) prescription of which I built a tolerance up to 30mg. Went through about 60 of these.
During this time I also some what self medicated with heroin, low dose snorted about 40mg at most. Want through about 1.5g.
I was then afterwards prescribed hydrocodone (10mg/325) for another month, went through 60 of these with a tolerance at about 40mg.
I was also taking the last of my gabapentin during these 2 months.
Now here's the weird part, and it gets even stranger further; I was than prescribed tramadol, 100mg twice a day...and it worked like pure magic to me, intensity of 150mg was stronger than oxycodone to me. The minor SNRI effects also improved my mood tremendously.
Now, I was prescribed tramadol for the next 7 months and I NEVER NEEDED ANY MORE TO REACH THE SAME EFFECTS!! 150mg consistently gave me euphoria and pain relief for the next 7 months, I never could take more than 150mg as I started experiencing side effects similar to typical opiate OD.
Now during all my opiate use I was able to make completely sober decisions and I was able to maintain a completely normal life with going to school, exercising, and physically therapy for my leg. My opiate use never interefered with my life negatively even though I was dopped up 24/7.
Opiates gave a type of clarity I can only associate with supression of my ego. It made life immensely easier, made doing school work easier, made me more socially relaxed as I am usually very self conscious when sober. Opiates changed my life for the better and the only side effect I got was the occasional nausea if I didn't eat or constipation which only really affected me towards the beginning of my opiate journey.
I know responsible opiate use is a nearly impossible thing to maintain...but it honestly was to good to be true...but it was true. I didn't harm myself or others around me. In fact I got compliments on how I "changed" for the better, when really it was all the opiates to thank. I also frequently had my liver enzymes checked, always stayed in normal range, never even slightly elevated.
Also all this opiate use put my crippling cognitive dissonance to rest. I know everything good comes to an end but this didn't....
Now the craziest part...after 9 months of all types of opiate use and the minor SNRI dependancy, I quite due to my pain being gone side by side with my prescriptions...I was told I would withadrawl hard and could get some medications to help cope...but the following week after quitting cold turkey all I got was some minor diarrhea, head fog and a bit of restlessness...
HOWEVER, I honestly would have taken this over a fever or general cold. All these 9 months I used EVERY God given day, with the exclusion of tramadol I built tolerance and built dosage upwards accordingly.
Would it be possible that I have some kind of genetic opiate immunity? And also, recently I've been dabbling in phenibut and went through about 100 grams in about 9 days, taking 1.25g-1.75g higher dose each day added of course to my previous dose the day before. I was at 8.5g at most and I stopped cold turkey, read that the withadrawl were on par with heroin withadrawl...but guess what...all I got was some minor head fog, restlessness and minor insomnia.
Now as much as I hate even saying this because of how ridiculous it sounds, but could I have some kind of neurological problem? I mean it's more of a blessing than a problem honestly, but I want to know if anyone else has ever heard of anything similar.
My apologies if this post was unnecessarily long but I wanted it to be detailed as possible.
Also I'm putting this in BDD as I'm not sure where else to put it so any mods feel free to more this to a more correct section.
Anwyays, I had serperate surgeries on my meniscus and also had my appendix removed, due to some minor nerve damage I was in a lot of pain.
I was first given Morphine IV at the hospital which I reacted negatively to so I was put on a fentanyl patch for a few days and then Dilaudid IV for a few weeks until the pain subsided. I was also given gabapentin. Anyways I got out of the hospital with a month long oxycodone (Percocet 10mg/325) prescription of which I built a tolerance up to 30mg. Went through about 60 of these.
During this time I also some what self medicated with heroin, low dose snorted about 40mg at most. Want through about 1.5g.
I was then afterwards prescribed hydrocodone (10mg/325) for another month, went through 60 of these with a tolerance at about 40mg.
I was also taking the last of my gabapentin during these 2 months.
Now here's the weird part, and it gets even stranger further; I was than prescribed tramadol, 100mg twice a day...and it worked like pure magic to me, intensity of 150mg was stronger than oxycodone to me. The minor SNRI effects also improved my mood tremendously.
Now, I was prescribed tramadol for the next 7 months and I NEVER NEEDED ANY MORE TO REACH THE SAME EFFECTS!! 150mg consistently gave me euphoria and pain relief for the next 7 months, I never could take more than 150mg as I started experiencing side effects similar to typical opiate OD.
Now during all my opiate use I was able to make completely sober decisions and I was able to maintain a completely normal life with going to school, exercising, and physically therapy for my leg. My opiate use never interefered with my life negatively even though I was dopped up 24/7.
Opiates gave a type of clarity I can only associate with supression of my ego. It made life immensely easier, made doing school work easier, made me more socially relaxed as I am usually very self conscious when sober. Opiates changed my life for the better and the only side effect I got was the occasional nausea if I didn't eat or constipation which only really affected me towards the beginning of my opiate journey.
I know responsible opiate use is a nearly impossible thing to maintain...but it honestly was to good to be true...but it was true. I didn't harm myself or others around me. In fact I got compliments on how I "changed" for the better, when really it was all the opiates to thank. I also frequently had my liver enzymes checked, always stayed in normal range, never even slightly elevated.
Also all this opiate use put my crippling cognitive dissonance to rest. I know everything good comes to an end but this didn't....
Now the craziest part...after 9 months of all types of opiate use and the minor SNRI dependancy, I quite due to my pain being gone side by side with my prescriptions...I was told I would withadrawl hard and could get some medications to help cope...but the following week after quitting cold turkey all I got was some minor diarrhea, head fog and a bit of restlessness...
HOWEVER, I honestly would have taken this over a fever or general cold. All these 9 months I used EVERY God given day, with the exclusion of tramadol I built tolerance and built dosage upwards accordingly.
Would it be possible that I have some kind of genetic opiate immunity? And also, recently I've been dabbling in phenibut and went through about 100 grams in about 9 days, taking 1.25g-1.75g higher dose each day added of course to my previous dose the day before. I was at 8.5g at most and I stopped cold turkey, read that the withadrawl were on par with heroin withadrawl...but guess what...all I got was some minor head fog, restlessness and minor insomnia.
Now as much as I hate even saying this because of how ridiculous it sounds, but could I have some kind of neurological problem? I mean it's more of a blessing than a problem honestly, but I want to know if anyone else has ever heard of anything similar.
My apologies if this post was unnecessarily long but I wanted it to be detailed as possible.
Also I'm putting this in BDD as I'm not sure where else to put it so any mods feel free to more this to a more correct section.