It's been so long that I've been a junkie, it's hard for me to pinpoint the one "worst thing"...
I have ripped people off several times, but not nearly as bad as a lot of the junkies I know...I was never the type of person who would come over your house and when I left you'd notice a bunch of different things missing...And even if I did do that shit, I'd never completely rip you off, I was sneaky about it...If you had 200 dollars sitting on the table, I'd take 40...stupid shit like that...
From the beginning, I've always hustled and networked as far as drug connections go, so I could always pretty much sit there with my phone and make money just by hooking people up....When I was younger and lived with my parents it was funny because I'd always have random people hanging out in my basement or car-loads of kids parked in front of the house...I guess I tried to play it off to my mom like I just had a really active social life, but it was pretty obvious what was really going on, I think!
the thing I feel worst about...I used to deal LSD from the late '90s into the early '00s....I had a really good reputation as a dealer and people would trust me with large amounts of money and drugs without even thinking about it...
The thing I feel worst about is burning a bunch of my LSD customers for dope money over the course of a few months...I sold them a bunch of bunk blotter with nothing on it which makes it even worse! No worse feeling than getting all your friends together, planning on tripping and having the shit never hit you! The blotter looked completely legit and was perforated with a really cool print on it, so nobody questioned it...that was over 10 years ago and my reputation among "non-junkie" type drug users has never really recovered, even though I either paid back or actually gave real shit to most of the people I ripped off! You only have one reputation, and you really can't put a price on it...If your word doesn't mean anything anymore, you're screwed...particularly in the drug world...I have a great rep among dope and cocaine users as someone to deal with, but it's not the same quality of people..It's like being the mayor of a garbage landfill...
I've run some elaborate scams on my family and a few of my long-time friends to get them to loan me money...
Told them everything from, "I got some girl pregnant and need money for an abortion"...
Told my family I had a warrant and needed to pay $500 court costs immediately or I was going to prison, even had them drive me the court house, and walked in and came back out!
Sold a really expensive sterling silver flatware set to a pawnshop for $700(a fraction of what it was worth)...told my mom that drug dealers were hanging onto it and I needed 300 to get it back...had her drop me off down the street from my heroin dealer and spent the money on dope..I did that 3 times before she finally caught on!
Yeah, I've done some bad things...but if I wrote the shit that other people I've known have done for drugs, it makes me look like an angel!