what's the point of life ? I'm tired of it.

[Tweak Thizz]

To start off , I am 20 years old. I started using heroin when I was 15 to help my depression and anxiety . once I turned 18, I got kicked out of my house. (I have already been in two treatment centers by then ) . I was homeless and struggling for quite a while. Recently I entered a program that I hate and is entirely religion based. I have nothing besides this place. I hate my self image. My family hates me. No friends. Wake up depressed . my life is going no where. I wanna kill myself but there isn't any easy way to do that (I have no money for heroin ) and I'm tires of being miserable. I don't mean to look like I pity myself so much I just had to get this out it hurts so bad

 

[herbavore]

There is a big difference in self-pity and honestly saying that you are exhausted and worn down. It sounds like the "treatment" center is not at all the right place to help you but I imagine it is your only choice right now?

You are really young and I imagine that you are feeling pretty alone. There are a lot of people here that have been where you are or are still there. Come here for support but use the program you are in for whatever it has to offer (which may be nothing more than a place to sleep and some structure for your days but that's still something). Try not to get discouraged down to your bones. Some discouragement makes sense but don't let your mind trick you into thinking this is all life is ever going to have to offer you.

Your family probably doesn't hate you. They may feel fear and anger and shame but you do too, right? Addiction makes everyone feel that way.

Use this thread to check in and also explore the recovery section (Sober Living, Mental Health and TDS). There are a lot of threads that you may find helpful. I'm glad you are here.

 

[Erikmen]

I remember when I was that young. My feelings some of which I still carry were potentialized because of my ideals. But I was never so honest and was more like in self-pity. So you are miles ahead.

 

[Tweak Thizz]

There is a big difference in self-pity and honestly saying that you are exhausted and worn down. It sounds like the "treatment" center is not at all the right place to help you but I imagine it is your only choice right now?

You are really young and I imagine that you are feeling pretty alone. There are a lot of people here that have been where you are or are still there. Come here for support but use the program you are in for whatever it has to offer (which may be nothing more than a place to sleep and some structure for your days but that's still something). Try not to get discouraged down to your bones. Some discouragement makes sense but don't let your mind trick you into thinking this is all life is ever going to have to offer you.

Your family probably doesn't hate you. They may feel fear and anger and shame but you do too, right? Addiction makes everyone feel that way.

Use this thread to check in and also explore the recovery section (Sober Living, Mental Health and TDS). There are a lot of threads that you may find helpful. I'm glad you are here.

thank you man. Your post lightened me up

 

[herbavore]

You are welcome, Tweak, and I hope today has a few sparkles in it.