Drugs taught me that I'm a weaker person than I imagined. They taught me that drugs are the true physical manifestation of the metaphore "double edged sword". They can make you feel more amazing than any sober person will ever feel.. but they can make you feel like utter shit that I almost think is impossible to feel living a sober life. I've experienced shitty moments in my life but never as many or as shitty as the moments brought on by drug use.
Makes me think of meth. The high, especially IV, is better than anything I've ever felt. By far better than molly, love or anything. But the crash is so awful it was worse than when my friend died in my arms from an oxycodone/xanax and alcohol overdose <<the worst sober moment of my life. The crash from a 4 day binge on meth made me feel at least twice as awful. I didn't know it was possible to feel so awful. Its why I won't touch the shit anymore as hard as it is to abstain... And even with this knowledge I still relapse from time to time.