rave_itsrealfun!!!
Bluelighter
I so know what is right for me, that these disagreements do not even phase me. All I know is that weed has fucked me up, and a lot of my friends as well. I've never known a single person who had benefits, but I've known a lot of people who expanded their consciousness with shrooms and Mdma. It's funny because those other ones are so much worse for your body, but they arn't so deceiving and conniving that responsible people usually do not choose to abuse them. It's obvious to see the damage pot has done to my friends, I have known really courageous dudes who completely lost their backbone to cannabis. They turned their back on me in times of great need, because they were paranoid and anxious. They are really weak minded now because of their daily drug habit. They used to play a lot of guitar for instance, but ever since smoking daily they just don't have the focus to get anywhere. I am the same way, I have made more progress rippin it up on my guitar in the past few days, than I had made in years as a dope fiend because I was just too much of a vegetable to really take anything seriously on the stuff.
I understand that in order to do this, I need to listen to my heart. Not any of these pot enthusiasts. I know what is right for myself. I know that weed ruined a great portion of my life, due to the fact that it can be highly addictive for some people. Nothing more nothing less. If smoking weed does you well, then by all means keep on smokin'. It's just not for me. I really couldn't care less about other people using weed, whatever floats your boat. I don't really feel like I'm missing out on much to be honest. But I personally dislike potheads because they all share some commonalities which I have come to distrust, so I avoid them now. At least the ones that I know. There are plenty of people who don't smoke weed out there to chill with. I just think that you should make certain you are not in denial about your addiction, it happened to me so it could happen to you. There is no other way to be certain, other than by taking a very long break because so long as you are doing the drug on a daily basis it is clouding your mind.
Mental issues? My mental issue is marijuana. I guess you missed the part about my physical dependence that I developed over 10 years, or refuse to believe that it is possible. That's ok, I listen to my doctors. If they thought something was wrong with my head, they would have referred me to a psychologist by now, because I tell them absolutely everything and surprisingly they knew exactly how to treat the acute withdrawals. It just goes to show that they have seen it before. They see me as a smart, happy dude who fell into a terribly deceiving drug habit that they have witnessed time and time again.Trust me, you wouldn't want to stop smoking so much weed either, if it meant starving yourself and losing 20 pounds. The only reason I ever got there, was because I refused to believe that it could happen. I am a master's in engineering, I have a girlfriend and all sorts of wonderful love in my life. Many different talents as well. When I stop smoking weed, I am no longer that paranoid and anxious waste case who doesn't care about anything other than smoking more weed. There arn't any long term effects after the couple months of withdrawal are all said and done. And even back then when I was a huge stoner, I was functional enough to get advanced degrees. I was pretty much just showing off, having fun with my friends, but I am growing up now. There is absolutely nothing wrong with my mind apart from how smoking weed turns me into someone completely different who all of a sudden starts to stupidly fiend pot, and I am convinced of it. It's ok if you think I am crazy, I am sure that the high paying employers as well as my friends and family who are close to me think otherwise. And I trust myself, believe in myself and my own personal feelings more than anything, now that I have clarity of mind. I don't care if this is uncommon, the fact of the matter is that it happened to me. I am a rare breed, and the only other guy I know in life who this happened to is a super smart rare breed as well, a straight 90s grad student. We're cosmic explorers who got really deep into the herb, and it is good to know another with the exact same issue. I am going to do something great with my life, now that I don't sit around burning out all day putting off withdrawals from hell, in denial about how it was expanding my mind. It is ok if weed does you well, but there is no need to defend it to someone who it has quite clearly fucked with. Just read my posts now, compared to those of a week or two ago. I am obviously in withdrawal, and getting better by the day.
I understand that in order to do this, I need to listen to my heart. Not any of these pot enthusiasts. I know what is right for myself. I know that weed ruined a great portion of my life, due to the fact that it can be highly addictive for some people. Nothing more nothing less. If smoking weed does you well, then by all means keep on smokin'. It's just not for me. I really couldn't care less about other people using weed, whatever floats your boat. I don't really feel like I'm missing out on much to be honest. But I personally dislike potheads because they all share some commonalities which I have come to distrust, so I avoid them now. At least the ones that I know. There are plenty of people who don't smoke weed out there to chill with. I just think that you should make certain you are not in denial about your addiction, it happened to me so it could happen to you. There is no other way to be certain, other than by taking a very long break because so long as you are doing the drug on a daily basis it is clouding your mind.
Mental issues? My mental issue is marijuana. I guess you missed the part about my physical dependence that I developed over 10 years, or refuse to believe that it is possible. That's ok, I listen to my doctors. If they thought something was wrong with my head, they would have referred me to a psychologist by now, because I tell them absolutely everything and surprisingly they knew exactly how to treat the acute withdrawals. It just goes to show that they have seen it before. They see me as a smart, happy dude who fell into a terribly deceiving drug habit that they have witnessed time and time again.Trust me, you wouldn't want to stop smoking so much weed either, if it meant starving yourself and losing 20 pounds. The only reason I ever got there, was because I refused to believe that it could happen. I am a master's in engineering, I have a girlfriend and all sorts of wonderful love in my life. Many different talents as well. When I stop smoking weed, I am no longer that paranoid and anxious waste case who doesn't care about anything other than smoking more weed. There arn't any long term effects after the couple months of withdrawal are all said and done. And even back then when I was a huge stoner, I was functional enough to get advanced degrees. I was pretty much just showing off, having fun with my friends, but I am growing up now. There is absolutely nothing wrong with my mind apart from how smoking weed turns me into someone completely different who all of a sudden starts to stupidly fiend pot, and I am convinced of it. It's ok if you think I am crazy, I am sure that the high paying employers as well as my friends and family who are close to me think otherwise. And I trust myself, believe in myself and my own personal feelings more than anything, now that I have clarity of mind. I don't care if this is uncommon, the fact of the matter is that it happened to me. I am a rare breed, and the only other guy I know in life who this happened to is a super smart rare breed as well, a straight 90s grad student. We're cosmic explorers who got really deep into the herb, and it is good to know another with the exact same issue. I am going to do something great with my life, now that I don't sit around burning out all day putting off withdrawals from hell, in denial about how it was expanding my mind. It is ok if weed does you well, but there is no need to defend it to someone who it has quite clearly fucked with. Just read my posts now, compared to those of a week or two ago. I am obviously in withdrawal, and getting better by the day.
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