What's so cool about a neverending speedbinge?

[P4r4d0x]

I've got a question for the real hardcore meth users here: wtf is so fun about binging for days or even weeks?
I love meth too, it's my white buddy who helps me getting up so early for work sometimes, or for weekends to stay up 1 or 2 nights. But stop sleeping for 4 weeks like 1 girl at my job did some year ago? I asked her what was so fun about it and she couldn't answer me. She only remembered stuff like destroying her bed (she thought she wouldn't need it anymore), cleaning the Lego of her child (she is even married) and waking up in some madhouse (her husbands fault, he didn't know anything about dope at that time). Some other freak i know (and i mean a real freak: one weekend i saw him drop 46 pills on 2 days once, unbelievable, he does huge amounts of every drug, i think he hasn't heard about 'overdose' ), did 5 weeks on row once, but he told me the same story. Couldn't tell me why he did it. So, can anyone here finally answer my question, pls??
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I'm the intergalactic croissant of Death...

 

[PhreeX]

You ask why, a speedfeask says "why not?" ... psychological addiction may have something to do with it, but it just kinda makes sense ...
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# unzip ; strip ; touch ; finger ; mount ; fsck ; more ; yes ; umount ; sleep

 

[Timerare2]

Sometimes, you just don't want it to end. I don't care what it is.
Even if the next thing is even better, you don't want it to end. People hate seeing things end.
Relationships...
Fun nights.
Long Drive&talks with people we love--justabouttogetbackhome... why not keep on going?
Childhood. Highschool...
Everything. There is a TERRIBLE feeling that most drug users have probably had... it is the 'this has been the best night of my life. I've felt soooo fucking good. This girl has been sooo good to me. Everyone has been great. The music rocked... and the sun just came up and we are all going home. Its getting ready to end.'
I mean, thats what sucks about life... it always has to end... or... at least... be interupted. With sufficient funding we could a fairly kickin' party that would last months and months and months, and set it up so that we never run ut of drugs, and people, and love, but even then... its going to have to end.
So... when it is speed, you get that feeling you get at a rave when the sun comes up... only.. with a little party of tweakers, in some apartment/, or hotel room, or home... you CAN re-dose, and just keep it going. Fuck the sun. I hate it more than anything when the sun comes up, it always makes me want to cry.
I'm sorry if this made no sense, I ate 7 mg lorazepam (Ativan) an hour ago and I think it is starting to kick in and kick my ass).
I've got three left... oh... what to do...

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Nah, I'll put them on top of my alarm clock so I don't forget and munch them in the morning.

 

[*BizKiT*]

I would think it would be to keep away from the nasty comedown for as long as possible.

 

[P4r4d0x]

Well i got some reasons why i will never get a place in the Guiness Book of Records for longest speedbinge (oh yeah i'm wondering what's the record on binging. This site should have some record book, with all interesting stuff like 'Most od's in a day', 'longest line snorted in 1 second ' and 'fastest IV'er'. Some competition can always keep people motivated)
1. You have to binge with some other people, it's a group activity, and i'm getting nervous from being together with the same people all day.
2. I feel kinda weird after 2 or 3 days, because without sleep it feels like it's 1 day that never ends.
3. I need food all the time, even when i'm on meth. All those paranoia speedfreaks would start to think that i'm a strange alien because i would be eating cereals with milk while they are preparing for an attack of that airplane that has been following us all the time.
4. I'm just not motivated to do it, there's no reason, no competition (sounds stupid but if it was some competition i would be interested)
5. I would be scared to look in a mirror after day 15 (i'm very serious about this)
The think the only +'s for a binge are
1. sometimes being paranoia is fun & exciting
2. you can brag about it later
3. i'm curious about how i would spend my time and what thoughts i would have
4. finally falling asleep after some weeks would be so satisfying.
I don't think i will ever do it, but you never know...
[This message has been edited by P4r4d0x (edited 19 August 2001).]

 

[GentlemanLoser]

The first time I ever bought more than a couple quarter gram bags of glass, was about a year ago. I bought a gram and a half, and my friend bought about a 1/2 gram. Started out...great. Kept going. Decided not to sleep saturday morning, kept going. Onto sunday. Monday. Tuesday, bought one more bag, finally...it ended.
BESIDES the drugs effects...sleep deprivation can make your head go really funny. Thats why I try not to do to much meth. Unlike acid or E, where you get to cracked out to think, speed doesn't scatter your head as obviously as hallucingenics. When i was tweaked, it wasn't like a bad time on acid where I can ground myself and say "Ok. Thats not real. Everyon here isn't talking about me. Chill out it's the drugs."
I was throughly convinced all the people i was in the car with were talking about me quietly while i was laying there w/ my eyes closed. It wasn't true, but the line between reality/drug induced paranoia and psychosis was not nearly as clear. So, it's rather easy while your tweaking to keep going. Justification is only mommments away, such as:
"Oh, i better do it all, cuz if it's laying around next week, I won't sleep and work will suck."

 

[Cyc]

There is a TERRIBLE feeling that most drug users have probably had... it is the 'this has been the best night of my life. I've felt soooo fucking good. This girl has been sooo good to me. Everyone has been great. The music rocked... and the sun just came up and we are all going home. Its getting ready to end.'

I've felt it and it is terrible.

 

[Psionic]

Oh man, I have that exact same feeling; wanting to cry when the sun comes up, and it sucks even more if your the only one who doesn't want to stop...
--psionic

 

[RaverMadness]

There's so much to do... talk endlessly, consume your own body weight in cigarettes while talking endlessly, write vast amounts of text, convert garages into chill-out rooms, and when I'm done, I find other things to do. I suspect a lot of other users of powerful stimulants do that, just look at all the stuff the beat poets/authors wrote...
When I don't have anything creative to do, I'll usually then get some sleep. Usually.
It's been awhile since I've done anything like that... sigh

 

[Shags]

me personaly have never stayed up longer than 5 days. and that was fun i guess. i got a lot of shit done those days. but now i make the rule never to stay up more than 3 at a time. ususaly its just friday morning to sunday night. i need to get some more though and clean my room agian. only time it ever gets done.
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Shags

 

[adamKY]

Just being fcked up for a while like a week or a weekend is a great change of pace. Something of a mini vacation. Of course there is always the, "How high can I get? How nice, I dont wanna come dowm.' syndromes.

 

[Brainrape]

I'm on day number 4 right now

but I killed off my last quarter of ice 2 hours ago, and I have some xanax ready to put fucking away tonight....
What's so cool? Well to me. A 96 on my CCNA final exam, then going straight to work and staying 10 hours, normally this would be impossible, but the whole time I'm chewing my tounge to shit, going a mile a minute, inhaling cig after cig, drinking nothing but mountain dew, on top of the fucking world, brain functioning at peak effiency....
I dunno, for me it's not about the high, it's about helping me manage a full time job, and college and not just manage, excel...
But after 4 days, all I want now is a case of beer, 2 or 3 xanax and a nice comfy bed...
I think 5 days is my record, so I probably haven't gotten to the real fucking fun part of the whole "meth binge" thing, at best I got shadow flashes of people, and earlier today, a soft very faint fog over everything, kaliedascopic patterns etc etc...
But to tell you the truth, I could possibly see doing more meth right now, but I would MUCH rather get some pills and beer and have a nice restful sleep...
I have no fucking clue what the appeal behind a 3 week long meth binge is...
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Lying on the stained wretched sheets with a bleeding virgin, we could plan a murder or start a religion...

 

[CataLysT^3]

being that meth is such a scarce thing in my area, my longest binge went on about 12 days. i was unconscious to the fact that it had been 12 days, for as we all know, life on meth makes it hard to distinguish one day from another. it is just as PhreeX said, "Why not?" there are so many things that one can accomplish, it's nice to be always busy, always in a good mood, always getting along with the people you stick yourself with for days on end. everything just seems right, and as we all know, no matter what happens while you're on meth, you can always convince yourself that everything will be okay.
i rather enjoy the visual and auditory hallucinations caused by sleep deprivation, the whispering in my ears, and the appearance of street lights on that one highway to marietta that has no street lights.
i also miss the longs talks. you know, the ones where it seems like the conversation is having you, when you both only realize that you've been sitting in a freezing cold car for hours when the sun begins to rise. yet, you got in the car to hit a show in town hours ago.

what can i say? i miss those days. plus, living on SoBe and sugar free gum is quite cost effective. so, moral of the story? if it's available, do it for days. do it like you mean it.
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:CataLysT: Quod Me Netruit, Me Destruit.
-> Vino, Ganeis, Lenociniis, Adulteriisque Confectum.
I'm a Female, get it right.

 

[estranged]

My problem was that I could never sleep at the right times. I would do ice one nite and then not be able to sleep until I had to go to work. Then you do another line and go to work, thinking that you are gonna go to bed once you get home. Then that cute girl from work asks if you wanna hang out tonite. So, you figure, hey I can do a little more when we go out. Do another 2 lines, go out, get home and try to sleep...You know where this is going. This is what I used to do until I discovered a wonderful little pill called Xanex.
Honestly though, staying up for a few days on meth is cool, but more than like 3 or 4 days and it stops being fun.

 

[Shags]

the last time i stayed up for a few days i was at my friends house, i walk out side for a smoke and look and see what i thought was someone walking around the corner. i sat for a sec thinking did i just see that? eventualy i wlak around the corner and lok only to see it agian at the net corner of the house. so i follow it. it happens agian in the front side of the house then agian and agian and im walking in circles around the house. i never say anything but after 1 time around the house i decide to walk to other way around the house thinking ill cut them off. i get to the back of the house and my friend just came out to smoke with me and im like" hey did you just see someone walk around the house?" and he says no just you. that wigged me out for a while.
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Shags

 

[P4r4d0x]

I would like to see some program on tv, something like big brother, but we call it Big Paranoia with cams in every corner and stuff and with something like 10 people locked up in some house with an unlimited meth supply. One of the rules is that they may not sleep, but that normally won't be a problem with that 2 tons of fresh speed laying in the backyard. And after some days we start letting them do stuff like searching for that microphone in the cigarette filter or tell them they have 1 day to decode the 3 secret messages in that painting down the hall so they know how to get the medicines to kill those itching bugs (bugs are employees of DEA, special trained) they feel everywhere under their skins and all stuff like that.
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I'm the intergalactic croissant of Death...

 

[CataLysT^3]

i have never gotten the "bugs under the skin" thing, is that really common? actually, no one whom i have come in contact with that uses meth has ever showed signs of having that.
as for the show, count me in if the glass is good!
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:CataLysT: Quod Me Netruit, Me Destruit.
-> Vino, Ganeis, Lenociniis, Adulteriisque Confectum.
I'm a Female, get it right.

 

[Shags]

my one friend use to carry a video camera around a lot when we would be out jsut to tape stupid shit. man watching those tapes latter is just plain silly.
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Shags

 

[Timerare2]

It seems like I am oftentimes the only one who doesn't want to stop. But lets not dwell... you know what the best feeling in the world is? When you are just about to get to where you are going (in the car), and you've got that bad feeling, but you just keep going.

Take the long way. I've done that before. I LOVE that.
The real problem with drugs that everyone must accept, is that inevitably, their usage is going to have to end if they want to get on with the next stages in their lives. You can't go on being a 'drug user' (and have no doubt about it, we are all, 'drug users') for ever... not even a LIMITED user. 15-20 years of limited use (of anything) will mess you up in a way you can only imagine... even a few years (3 or 4?) of light use is going to change you in a way or two that isn't going to be pleasent... eventually you have to settle down and learn to enjoy the feeling of just touching someone that you love. Holding them and living. Just the day to day shit. Thats what you've got to learn to appreciate. (Leans over and pets his dog a handful of times).
Thats what I like about drugs, they showed me these feelings that are ALWAYS there in life, these feelings that I had never appreciated before, but now I do. Every chance I get I appreciate them.
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Love is what happens when two people are lonelier than they are afraid...
~CodyDane

 

[P4r4d0x]

Waw, consuming my own weight in cigarettes, this is a great idea, a smoke marathon yeah!
btw: most people (maybe even all the people) on this site don't know a fuck about our brain and the way it works. But still everyone is bullshitting about dopamine & serotonin & permanent changes in our brain. We just guess about it, repeat what we heard froms the media or internet, and simplify this complex matter way too much.