I'm working at a job I really enjoy; but business hasn't been all that good lately, so I'm having doubts whether or not I'll be needed back next year.
I also need a girl. A girl I can kiss and hug. I've been sleeping around for a few years now, yet I haven't had one single girl friend. Sure, sleeping around with many beautiful women is fun; but there's something inside me that just wants to be loved... Loved for more then 1 night.
I recently met a girl who's very attractive, and has a good personality. She took a liking to me quite quick. I held off sleeping with her because I wanted to see where this new relationship would go. But after a few weeks of constantly talking to her, I've come to realise that she really isn't the girl for me; which really hurts me. It felt good for those few weeks where I'd get excited about speaking to her. I'd get anxious waiting for her call, and simply smile when I heard her laugh.
Last night I went clubbing, alone. My main objective was just to have some time to myself, thinking. But at the same time I was also looking for that someone special. I stood in the techno room, with my eyes shut, head tilted backwards and just breathed the music. It felt so good, and took so much stress off my mind. (I was completely straight).
While walking through the club, I saw many beautiful, sexy women. My main problem is, I've been a sleaze for so long, any decent girl wont talk to me, because they all feel I'm trying to crack onto them (which was once true, but not now). Even my good female friends don't like to dance as close to me as they will with other friends, because they think I'm trying to make a move.
If a girl could just look past my first impressions, and really get to know me, there's no doubt in my mind that I could make one girl very very happy... Lots of love to give, but no one to give it to.
Life goes on.
I also need a girl. A girl I can kiss and hug. I've been sleeping around for a few years now, yet I haven't had one single girl friend. Sure, sleeping around with many beautiful women is fun; but there's something inside me that just wants to be loved... Loved for more then 1 night.
I recently met a girl who's very attractive, and has a good personality. She took a liking to me quite quick. I held off sleeping with her because I wanted to see where this new relationship would go. But after a few weeks of constantly talking to her, I've come to realise that she really isn't the girl for me; which really hurts me. It felt good for those few weeks where I'd get excited about speaking to her. I'd get anxious waiting for her call, and simply smile when I heard her laugh.
Last night I went clubbing, alone. My main objective was just to have some time to myself, thinking. But at the same time I was also looking for that someone special. I stood in the techno room, with my eyes shut, head tilted backwards and just breathed the music. It felt so good, and took so much stress off my mind. (I was completely straight).
While walking through the club, I saw many beautiful, sexy women. My main problem is, I've been a sleaze for so long, any decent girl wont talk to me, because they all feel I'm trying to crack onto them (which was once true, but not now). Even my good female friends don't like to dance as close to me as they will with other friends, because they think I'm trying to make a move.
If a girl could just look past my first impressions, and really get to know me, there's no doubt in my mind that I could make one girl very very happy... Lots of love to give, but no one to give it to.
Life goes on.
