🌟🌟 Social 🌟🌟 What Was YOUR Nightly Fix? v. Smoking the Midnight Oil

[GooberDoober]

Just bought a massive amount of delta-8 and disty. Tons of both, I have a bunch of other cannabinoids coming too (cbd,cbn,cbg,Thc-B,Thc-H, cbt, Thc-p) I am going to make thousands of doses worth of tinctures in different mixes and then give them away to friends a little before Christmas to help with the holiday stress. So tonight



Probably like 190-340mg delta-8 (haven't had delta 8 in months)

I find delta 8 in high oral doses to be actually more pleasant than delta 9, less breathing weirdness, amd more physical euphoria. I think its just that delta 9 can give me anxiety in high oral doses, and dont even get me started on oral HHC, that stuff is euphoric but can make me feel like Im dying for sure.



80mg or so Mitra

Maybe a little kratom
leaf later.

 

[Deleted member 554582]

A lot of shit...today break the records from a month's...and can't feel a shit....that's happen when the bad wave comes..no pills,no drugs can help

 

[Psychlone Jack]

Chill day at the crib, nap included, about to be an early night as well. Thus:

5mg apixaban
10mg olanzapine
75mg diphenhydramine
.3mg clonidine
400mg gabapentin
12mg melatonin
and a fat bowl of Lava Cake.

Gonna wait until sometime later tonight, wake up real quick and take my methadone, then crash back out.

 

[Cream Gravy?]

Quite a bit of vodka spritzers

Kratom for sleep in a minute.

1mg Alprazolam under the tongue.

Been craving cocaine but those days are long gone. I just wana dance and trade personal stories in a rapid fire manner mannnn.

 

[Psychlone Jack]

Another early night, earlier morning to come. Usual nightly cocktail:

5mg apixaban
10mg olanzapine
35mg methadone
2g gabapentin
and a fat bowl of Gush Mints.

Somnolence incoming.

 

[Gridlink]

We are having a surprise snow storm over here, and I am snowed in at the house. No better time to get high, in my opinion!
I am a connoisseur of fine dining, so tonight I sat down to a tasty meal of:
Methadone
Gabapentin
And I think I am going to add 0.5 mg Xanax. I always take low doses when I do benzos, gotta stay safe ya know?
After the Xanax I am going to gorge myself on pizza and junk food, because those things also go great with being snowed in.
Hope you all are doing great!

 

[Psychonauticunt]

Took a couple shots of real strong coke, now I'm on a bit of alleged 4-MMC and as soon as that starts to come down I'll knock back a few beers, 30mg diazepam, 2mg buprenorphine and smoke weed till I pass out.

 

[Mushoku_Sensei]

Last night I celebrated my very last shot of H. Planned it properly for once, took everything at the right time and order:
35 mg dph
250 mg Pregabalin
6 mg Bromazepam
Cannabis oil
And my very last brown
... Felt good but my baby is sick so I ended up falling asleep right there ...
40 mg K when I woke up again, didn't bring it back though. Back to sleep then.

Tonight I'm missing it. But I won't get anymore. Soon I can show my arms again and I hope I can get off the opioids til New Year. Or Chinese New Year at the latest

 

[PtahTek]

I couldn't remember a couple hours ago and still dont.
nothing exotic just forgetful and fuzzy. cozy.

 

[Gridlink]

Last night I celebrated my very last shot of H. Planned it properly for once, took everything at the right time and order:
35 mg dph
250 mg Pregabalin
6 mg Bromazepam
Cannabis oil
And my very last brown
... Felt good but my baby is sick so I ended up falling asleep right there ...
40 mg K when I woke up again, didn't bring it back though. Back to sleep then.

Tonight I'm missing it. But I won't get anymore. Soon I can show my arms again and I hope I can get off the opioids til New Year. Or Chinese New Year at the latest

Does k usually bring back an opiate high for you?

I've used it as a potentiator with good success, but I have never felt it brought back an opiate high.

As far as my night is going, it's:
Methadone
DMT
That last tab of LSD I finally found
And a steak ranchero burrito

Now it really smells like burrito and acid farts in here and even my dog is starting to complain about the stench. Oh well.

 

[Mushoku_Sensei]

Does k usually bring back an opiate high for you?

I've used it as a potentiator with good success, but I have never felt it brought back an opiate high.

Not when it's really gone, but especially at the beginning it could make me feel the high again when otherwise I didn't feel it anymore. Sometimes to the extent of waking up at night because it was so strong ( those days are long gone though and maybe it only works for long lasting stuff like Tramadol XR). Otherwise it's a potentiator as you say. Though I'm very careful with it because it gave me nausea too frequently...

 

[Sp4rky]

- 11mg 2C-B
- 5mg diazepam

Slightly underestimated my apparent sensitivity to 2C-B, or maybe it was the speed still in my system or being lightweight, because uhhhhh tripping balls right now.

Might make trip report later because woaw wtf is all I can say right now.

Uhh going to do a line of K I think, maybe more benzos but ugh don’t want to, just want to have this experience but my body is exhaustwd after days of speed and benzo bender all for a stupid uni exam, but also am just a speed addict I fear

Okay shutting up, took me over hour to write this goddamn

Goodnight or good morning I guess? Tomorrow’s me is going to hate me oopsies

 

[Mushoku_Sensei]

- 11mg 2C-B
- 5mg diazepam

Slightly underestimated my apparent sensitivity to 2C-B, or maybe it was the speed still in my system or being lightweight, because uhhhhh tripping balls right now.

Might make trip report later because woaw wtf is all I can say right now.

Uhh going to do a line of K I think, maybe more benzos but ugh don’t want to, just want to have this experience but my body is exhaustwd after days of speed and benzo bender all for a stupid uni exam, but also am just a speed addict I fear

Okay shutting up, took me over hour to write this goddamn

Goodnight or good morning I guess? Tomorrow’s me is going to hate me oopsies

Cool you seem to have (had) a great trip! Just can't hold back from saying be careful with the benzos. Withdrawal came incredibly fast for me with continuous use.

 

[Psychlone Jack]

Decent day, time for an early turn-in and do it again tomorrow.

Normal boring scripts
Some gabapentin and 6mg tizanidine earlier
33mg methadone
.3mg clonidine
50mg diphenhydramine
And a joint each of Pink Lemonade and Lava Cake now just before bed.

And a good night to all.

 

[Mushoku_Sensei]

Good evening!
I finally got some SR-17018 (didn't believe it would ever arrive anymore), so I just took a 4 mg test dose ( oral) - it's nicely tasteless, so that part is good at least . I'm not aware of any ways to test that stuff so I'm simply going to take tiny bits and lots of time... Meaning the next dose is going to be tomorrow (sure hope to wake up once again ). So far (+30 min) there are no noticeable effects, which is probably good.
Alas, good night, everyone!

 

[Sp4rky]

Cool you seem to have (had) a great trip! Just can't hold back from saying be careful with the benzos. Withdrawal came incredibly fast for me with continuous use.

yeah, should have seen it coming, but too late I Think

Day after trip started fine, but just like always mood swings are a bitch and constant state of panic and paranoia won’t stop. Tweaked out and left during a uni lecture, so they all think I’m disgusting now

First I wanted to either kill myself or try to find a source of opioids, but another moodswing and ended up reaching out to friends, immediately regretted it because now everyone knows I’m some stupid addict and none of them get me, not even the only person I am scarily similar to, or maybe that’s just my perception. I can never tell. My mood always change so fast and my entire perception of myself and my life too.

Mom found my cigarettes, not the biggest deal, but just another thing I can’t take anymore and right now I’m so scared in what is supposed to feel like home.

sorry for the vent, probably wrong thread, but currently in limbo between confessing everything just so I can get a break from it all, but then I lose all control of my life and the only thing keeping me wrong killing myself. But if I keep lying then I’d keep spiraling until overdose as I have nothing left to lose anymore except the remnants of who I could have been if I could just move out and get therapy for what might be borderline, but right now I’m so tired of fighting my brain since the day I became conscious and I don’t know where else to put this, just need to get it out.

Main thing I hate that none of my friends who get me in every other way, is that I cannot handle reality completely clean and that some drugs for me like weed, mdma and ketamine or the 2C-B, are drugs that I can use moderately and get more out of than the downsides. Hell, even speed I’ve been able to use in that way when given the space and control over my own environment (i.e. having the house to myself for long periods), but everyone just looks at sobriety as the solution that will fix everything, when I’ve tried that so many times but specifically queer rave culture has been the only thing making life worth living, but no one wants to party with an addict. It’s not just the drugs at raves, but the music, the people and the way even weeks afterwards I feel so much more inspired and creative and I’m just not willing to stop using entirely, as I’d lose that only bit of joy in my life.

 

[Mushoku_Sensei]

yeah, should have seen it coming, but too late I Think

Oh no ...

Day after trip started fine, but just like always mood swings are a bitch and constant state of panic and paranoia won’t stop. Tweaked out and left during a uni lecture, so they all think I’m disgusting now

First I wanted to either kill myself or try to find a source of opioids,

I feel you there.

but another moodswing and ended up reaching out to friends, immediately regretted it because now everyone knows I’m some stupid addict

And I admire your courage even if it didn't turn out too well

and none of them get me, not even the only person I am scarily similar to, or maybe that’s just my perception. I can never tell. My mood always change so fast and my entire perception of myself and my life too.

Mom found my cigarettes, not the biggest deal, but just another thing I can’t take anymore and right now I’m so scared in what is supposed to feel like home.

Unfortunately I know that feeling as well... I hope it won't last too long

sorry for the vent, probably wrong thread,

Ime that's okay, no one is going to blame you easily here..

but currently in limbo between confessing everything just so I can get a break from it all, but then I lose all control of my life and the only thing keeping me wrong killing myself. But if I keep lying then I’d keep spiraling until overdose as I have nothing left to lose anymore except the remnants of who I could have been if I could just move out and get therapy for what might be borderline, but right now I’m so tired of fighting my brain since the day I became conscious and I don’t know where else to put this, just need to get it out.

Feel free... At least from my side. Even though I don't know what to tell you aside " wait, just try to give yourself a break somehow before doing anything serious rn". You might need some low dose benzo for a few days now, just make sure to keep it LOW... For a black out is the last thing you need...

Main thing I hate that none of my friends who get me in every other way, is that I cannot handle reality completely clean and that some drugs for me like weed, mdma and ketamine or the 2C-B, are drugs that I can use moderately and get more out of than the downsides. Hell, even speed I’ve been able to use in that way when given the space and control over my own environment (i.e. having the house to myself for long periods), but everyone just looks at sobriety as the solution that will fix everything, when I’ve tried that so many times but specifically queer rave culture has been the only thing making life worth living, but no one wants to party with an addict. It’s not just the drugs at raves, but the music, the people and the way even weeks afterwards I feel so much more inspired and creative and I’m just not willing to stop using entirely, as I’d lose that only bit of joy in my life.

If you can stick to the four (or 5) drugs you mentioned, that sounds like a good plan to me. And that much is likely acceptable at least for a few important people?
Hope I'm not overstepping, these are just my 2 cents...

 

[TheLightBringer]

yeah, should have seen it coming, but too late I Think

Day after trip started fine, but just like always mood swings are a bitch and constant state of panic and paranoia won’t stop. Tweaked out and left during a uni lecture, so they all think I’m disgusting now

First I wanted to either kill myself or try to find a source of opioids, but another moodswing and ended up reaching out to friends, immediately regretted it because now everyone knows I’m some stupid addict and none of them get me, not even the only person I am scarily similar to, or maybe that’s just my perception. I can never tell. My mood always change so fast and my entire perception of myself and my life too.

Mom found my cigarettes, not the biggest deal, but just another thing I can’t take anymore and right now I’m so scared in what is supposed to feel like home.

sorry for the vent, probably wrong thread, but currently in limbo between confessing everything just so I can get a break from it all, but then I lose all control of my life and the only thing keeping me wrong killing myself. But if I keep lying then I’d keep spiraling until overdose as I have nothing left to lose anymore except the remnants of who I could have been if I could just move out and get therapy for what might be borderline, but right now I’m so tired of fighting my brain since the day I became conscious and I don’t know where else to put this, just need to get it out.

Main thing I hate that none of my friends who get me in every other way, is that I cannot handle reality completely clean and that some drugs for me like weed, mdma and ketamine or the 2C-B, are drugs that I can use moderately and get more out of than the downsides. Hell, even speed I’ve been able to use in that way when given the space and control over my own environment (i.e. having the house to myself for long periods), but everyone just looks at sobriety as the solution that will fix everything, when I’ve tried that so many times but specifically queer rave culture has been the only thing making life worth living, but no one wants to party with an addict. It’s not just the drugs at raves, but the music, the people and the way even weeks afterwards I feel so much more inspired and creative and I’m just not willing to stop using entirely, as I’d lose that only bit of joy in my life.

Hey man sounds like youre going through it rn. Idk if youll see this today or tomorrow but it seems like your thoughts are spiraling and making it seem worse than it is. I promise you its worth staying alive.

Go for a walk, breathe, look at some trees, listen to a nice song, get some sleep. Your head will feel clearer in the morning after a reset.

 

[paranoid android]

150mg's of oral morphine

 

[GooberDoober]

HHC + Delta-8 tincture
A little Mitragynine
15mg Memantine for a migraine
300 mg aspirin for migraine
Mulungu
Passion flower

Got a bunch of noids before they get banned, I made some alcohol tincture with THC-H, and also one with Delta-8 and a Shit load of CBD I had last night. I must say, its a real bummer these are being banned, Thc-H feels loopy and psychedelic, and delta8-thc-o was like lsd weed when taken orally. I am hoping to get so hhc-o as my last purchase but for now, Thc-H makes a great tincture, its very tactile and tingly and made a great aphrodisiac in addition to catuaba and muira puama. Had me in a wonderful stupid headspace.