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🌟🌟 Social 🌟🌟 What Was YOUR Nightly Fix? v. Smoking the Midnight Oil

I need to go raving again soon because uggggh I want xtc so bad, it’s literally the first thing I always think about when high on anything, specifically ket, recently had a k-hole that was pretty much just a drug flashback of my first time xtc.

Stupid rambling uhh, anyways, so far this pretty shitty evening:

- 4 lines of speed
- roughly 3.5 bumps of K
- 10mg diazepam, insufflated
- bunch of weed vape hits

Shitty ass day. Was planning to stay sober today as I’m going to try go out tomorrow night, but whatever. Stupid adhd lets me not do anything and I just sat on my bed for hours bashing my head about why I couldn’t just stand up and work on uni stuff.

Then I just accepted I’m a stupid speed addict I guess. Split on how to feel about the benzos. Never really had an interest in them, especially not recreationally, but fuckk these are some good valium pills, especially when mixed with some K & weed yumm.

God I hate moodswings so bad. One moment it’s serenity and gratefulness, the other it’s ‘take every substance in your closet right now, jump out the window and see where that takes you’

Stupid brain. Might do more diazepam idk, I just want to not think anymore but fuck I have only one pill left. Entire trip to dealer is always so fucking tedious yet always has a certain comfort to it. Rambling again, going to snort some more diazepam then try to sleep, good night bluelighters
 
Chilling on a rainy, windy night at the crib, off tomorrow and winding down...

45mg methadone
.3mg clonidine
10mg olanzapine
A few dabs of Truffle Cookies crumble, a joint of Pink Lemonade
Couple hits of nitrous. Found a stupid good deal on a tank today, so I figured fuck it, haven't hit any hippy crack in a couple decades lol. God knows how long this thing will last me... ( :rolleyes:😅:cool:)
 
been rainin here couple days.
same ol .35mg bnz, .1mg clndn and 300mg gabapentin

copla d8 gummies throughout the day
chillin
got no need as of yet to go out and ain't gonna lessen it flood or some shit fall in a big ass hole most likely nothing left underground for support mine it all mfs
😁
 
Got 1.7g of excellent meth, going to try to acquire 20-30mls of G and hopefully a gram of ketamine. Then of course a shot of heroin and some benzos for my partner and I for tomorrow.

Start with a 0.2g IV blast and 2ml of G. After that probably smoke most of the night, maybe a hot rail.
When 4-5am comes around break the ketamine out and start with bumps, end with a khole in my partners arms with some nice psychedelic tunes. Travel the other dimensions before a nice dose of H to make the day as comfortable as possible. Joints and maybe some Clonazepam also. And just relax, maybe a movie, lots of food and lots of cuddles and affection towards one another. Anything to make the comedown and the undesirable after effects more bearable. Then back to normal life and a fairly long break from doing anything like this again for quite some time.

Very, very excited!
 
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Got 1.7g of excellent meth, going to try to acquire 20-30mls of G and hopefully a gram of ketamine. Then of course a shot of heroin and some benzos for my partner and I for tomorrow.

Start with a 0.2g IV blast and 2ml of G. After that probably smoke most of the night, maybe a hot rail.
When 4-5am comes around break the ketamine out and start with bumps, end with a khole in my partners arms with some nice psychedelic tunes. Travel the other dimensions before a nice dose of H to make the day as comfortable as possible. Joints and maybe some Clonazepam also. And just relax, maybe a movie, lots of food and lots of cuddles and affection towards one another. Anything to make the comedown and the undesirable after effects more bearable. Then back to normal life and a fairly long break from doing anything like this again for quite some time.

Very, very excited!
Just wondering do you shoot H daily or is it occasional?
 
Good evening fellow bluelighters, have had an absolute HELL of a week. Been a while since I posted on bl, had an absolute HELL of a week. Combination of usual intense moodswings, uni stress and a major health scare that led to a full blown mental breakdown, all while I JUST ran out of benzos on top of it all.

Finally had a decent day today. So far:

- 4.5 lines speed
- 1 line coke
- bunch of Super zilver haze weed vaporized
- 10mg diazepam

Edit: - another 10mg diazepam

Have a break from uni this week and had the house to myself today, so spend it snorting a bunch of speed and cleaning my room. Ended the stimulant part of today with a line of blow. Have like 2 lines left of the stuff and am seriously considering just giving it to someone else idk, just makes me paranoid, like wayy worse than speed for me. Probably the combination too.

Now just winding down with 10mg diazepam and a bunch more weed.

Have made a scheme to get around my mom and go to a rave Saturday with this girl I’ve kinda had a thing for. It’s weird, but raving actually helps decrease my total drug use, as it gives me something to look forward to and a reason to keep my tolerances in check. Also just desperately need to feel the freedom of raving, feel so caged up lately.

Exited but also slightly nervous, never done hard drugs with this girl and I’m quite torn about that. Like she doesn’t judge and seeks out drugs herself, but we’re at a completely different level of drug use I feel. We’re so similar and mutually self destructive, I know this will lead to situations, but then I’d rather her have someone to be honest with about her use with and for me to be the harm reduction with more use experiences and knowledge around drugs, the way I desperately needed someone to be that for me when I first started getting into this mess.

Have this feeling this entire rave plan will be a night to remember, whichever way that ends up swinging.

Sorry for the ramble damn, just a lot going on. Hoping to be able to sleep, might take more diazepam, tempted to do some K.

Hope y’all can have a good night’s rest :)
 
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Feel horribly empty today, so:
Calories - 7342 (but no insulin for 4 days so weight down from 119lbs to 112lbs)
Codeine - 990mg
Gabapentin 7500mg
Cyclizine 300mg
Xanax 1mg (found down the arm of the sofa from what must be 4 years ago)
Bisoprolol - 5mg

EDIT: oh and ?mg of ? [found another pill down the arm of the sofa, too, but have literally NO IDEA WTF it was]
Too bad Cyclizine isn't otc anymore, and idk if I've ever even got to try it... 😭
 
Can't remember lol
Benz
Coffee
Kratom
300mg gabapentin

Dr apt

More bnz and a couple d8 gummies. More bnz. Gonna be a daily "thing" looks like. Nice to not "care" for a sec....
Above is my perspective only so it's only worth 2 pence (hope that's a lot).... ha
Be safe
 
Decided to take a break from the K, spoiled my tol by nearly OD ing on Halloween so today:
400 mg of Tilidin ( in steps of hundred cause I couldn't hold back after all)
25 mg dph
Weed oil
100 mg Pregabalin
BSO
30 mg dxm
10 mg Diazepam
And it's not enough 🙄...
I'm sleepy tho, so good night everyone 😴
 
So far:

- 4 lines of speed (2x 2 lines)
- 20mg Diazepam (15mg oral, 5mg snorted)
- bunch of weed (probably Tropical Cheery Peru strain, current fav. of me & my friends)

All I want is an uneventful day goddamnit. Chaotic morning and ended up snorting 2 big lines of speed, only to then realize I had my driving lesson in 10 minutes. Bless my instructor though, I don’t know if he knew I was high, probably, pupils seem stuck in constant disco mode lately even when on high doses of benzos, which sucks ass. But had a good conversation with him about mental health.

Met up with my best friend afterwards, did 2 more lines before meeting up and felt quite shameful and almost guilty when she pointed out that there was powder visible under my nose. Hate the fucking powder that leaks out after snorting shitty speed yuck.

Was a great hangout though. Feel so grateful for having her as a genuine friend, someone who feels like home if that makes sense. We spend the afternoon reliving some nostalgia by walking around the city my high school was in, stoned as fuck but just having fun and for fucking once in my life not giving a damn how people perceived me.

Tomorrow is my mom’s birthday and I will have to put on my sober persona again tomorrow and Friday, but the thought of the rave keeps me going I suppose. Tired as fuck, going to eat another 10mg valium pill. Either these are really good fakes or my tolerance just goes up fast idk man, might get a pill tested, now I’m curious.

Hope y’all manage to sleep nicely! I hope I can too cuz yesterday I barely slept and I am seeing shadows flying over the walls. Tired.
 
10 mg diazepam boofed
2x 20 mg K boofed
Weed oil
75 mg Pregabalin
Does diazepam even do anything boofed for you? It isn't terribly water soluble...

As for me, I'm on some MDMA (my buddy blessed me with 500 mg, so why not?) and wondering why this shit makes me so hungry. It turns me into a dumb, personable eating machine. A bit like benzos for me. Except that with MDMA I am less prone to stupid behaviors like falling asleep while cooking food. On that note I'll probably throw in 0.5 mg alprazolam because I gotta wake up early.

But I won't be cooking anything after I take it...cuz I practice harm reduction ya know.
 
Same again so far minus the chocolate 🍫 milk, but plus Menthol Cigarettes 🚬 as I also forgot to mention in my post before this. Lol 😂
Jealous of you fuckers who still have Menthol cigs damnn, nothing better than smoking one of them while on xtc, normally I hate everything menthol but menthol cigs I miss those

They’re banned where I live, meanwhile vapes of every flavor you could possible imagine are rampant lol, government really thought they did something I guess.
 
Does diazepam even do anything boofed for you? It isn't terribly water soluble...

As for me, I'm on some MDMA (my buddy blessed me with 500 mg, so why not?) and wondering why this shit makes me so hungry. It turns me into a dumb, personable eating machine. A bit like benzos for me. Except that with MDMA I am less prone to stupid behaviors like falling asleep while cooking food. On that note I'll probably throw in 0.5 mg alprazolam because I gotta wake up early.

But I won't be cooking anything after I take it...cuz I practice harm reduction ya know.
500mg MDMA? Damnn, to me that feels like a shit load, but maybe it’s a tolerance thing. 60-80mg has me nicely rolling, 80-100mg has me fucked to the point I can just barely think about basic safety.

Is it tested to be 500mg actual MDMA? If yes I’d be curious to know whether that dosage came to be from tolerance to MDMA itself or cross tolerance because of polydrug use.

I haven’t done xtc in a while now but have been going hard at every other stimulant and my worst fucking nightmare is keeping strictly to my ‘only once a month max’ rule of xtc only to have my tolerance and the effect intensity decrease because of my speed habit, so would be interested to hear your experience in that regard. Also the food response is interesting, do have rave buddies who also love to have entire xtc fueled picnics haha, so I suppose it differs greatly per person what MDMA does hunger wise. For me on any stimulant except 2-mmc so far, eating is the last thing on my mind.

Except for one experience where someone randomly brought hummus and carrots to a rave and I was skeptical to try but it actually tasted amazing on xtc, so food types matter too.

Sorry for the ramble lol, can you tell I’ve been craving xtc lately, my drug of choice for sure, except for IV morphine maybe.
 
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