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🌟🌟 Social 🌟🌟 What Was YOUR Nightly Fix? v. Smoking the Midnight Oil

ageingpartyfiend said:
^^^^I hate to nag but....c'mon stop mixing stimulants - if you must take 'em then stick to one a day
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Yeah if sleep wasn’t an issue I’d stick to speed 24/7, and kind of unfortunately I can sleep quite well on 2-mmc, so I often resort to that as it becomes later in the day.

But to be honest I don’t really care about the health implications of mixing stims, I’m used to my heart doing wack shit, it’s almost a comfort thing for me as it reminds me of the depths of my eating disorder as depressing as that sounds.

The only stim I prefer to keep by itself is MDMA as I find adding speed or such ruins the love effect for me and xtc is strong enough of a high in itself, my opinion anyway, except maybe mixing it with 3-mmc, but that’s impossible to find now.
 
Fentanyl
Methamphetamine
Ketamine
DMT
Gabapentin

As for the first 4, what can I say except that the fentanyl pills on my foil were looking kinda lonely, so I decided to throw some other stuff in with it!
 
- 50mg oral tramadol
- 10mg insuflated diazapam
- estimated 0.2-0.3g kratom 20x extract

Life has been shit lately. Mood swings fucking suck, my entire brain feels wrong. I just want a fucking break from it all man.

Anyways, when on a paranoid rampage around my room I found a tramadol pill, not much, but hey, an opioid is an opioid and they’re all I’ve been thinking about lately. For the first time I felt shame when practically begging my dealer for some sort of connection to someone selling opiates.

But I did get some pharma grade valium pills which are really nice, so it’s something to fill the void for now. Do want to at least try and be semi-responsible though, benzo wd would have me do some evil shit I suspect.

Feeling slightly better now, but also sad because now I am completely out of any tramadol or kratom. Tempted to do a little K rn, we’ll see. Good night y’all :)
 
Sp4rky said:
- 50mg oral tramadol
- 10mg insuflated diazapam
- estimated 0.2-0.3g kratom 20x extract

Life has been shit lately. Mood swings fucking suck, my entire brain feels wrong. I just want a fucking break from it all man.

Anyways, when on a paranoid rampage around my room I found a tramadol pill, not much, but hey, an opioid is an opioid and they’re all I’ve been thinking about lately. For the first time I felt shame when practically begging my dealer for some sort of connection to someone selling opiates.

But I did get some pharma grade valium pills which are really nice, so it’s something to fill the void for now. Do want to at least try and be semi-responsible though, benzo wd would have me do some evil shit I suspect.

Feeling slightly better now, but also sad because now I am completely out of any tramadol or kratom. Tempted to do a little K rn, we’ll see. Good night y’all :)
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Oh boy... Don't get into opioids if you can... I completely understand though... Can't stop em...
 
135mg dxm (first time taking it in ages)
10-20 mg Memantine (used to love this combined with dxm, made the headspace clearer and more euphoric)
Mitragyne extract about 150mg
.25g or so distillate eaten
Smoking a little weed.

Should be a more eventful night than I have had in a little while, cant wait to become a bug again.
 
Sp4rky said:
- 50mg oral tramadol
- 10mg insuflated diazapam
- estimated 0.2-0.3g kratom 20x extract

Life has been shit lately. Mood swings fucking suck, my entire brain feels wrong. I just want a fucking break from it all man.

Anyways, when on a paranoid rampage around my room I found a tramadol pill, not much, but hey, an opioid is an opioid and they’re all I’ve been thinking about lately. For the first time I felt shame when practically begging my dealer for some sort of connection to someone selling opiates.

But I did get some pharma grade valium pills which are really nice, so it’s something to fill the void for now. Do want to at least try and be semi-responsible though, benzo wd would have me do some evil shit I suspect.

Feeling slightly better now, but also sad because now I am completely out of any tramadol or kratom. Tempted to do a little K rn, we’ll see. Good night y’all :)
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Not trying to be an ass, you do as you will and there's no way anyone can tell anyone else anything really anyway. But if you aren't dependent on opioids yet please be really careful not to become dependent cause it will RUIN your buzz. If im not mistaken you are about the age I was when I started experimenting with opioids, I remember feeling like they perfect, they were the first drug to make me feel really truly CONTENT and not just happy. I have always had so many emotional problems and hang ups, it was really beautiful to finally be able to basically just feel like a normal person, opioids did that, and still do that for me, but by going to deep, becoming physically dependent, I turned a medicine into an obligation and even a threat, if anything I quadrupled my quagmire, sextupled my suffering, etc.

Also im not trying to say this in a preachy way I just wanted to be a voice that tells you what I wish somebody told me back in the day, you do you.
 
300 mg for the day-lyrica...200mg tram-some french brand ..nothing simmilar to our shitty pharma pills...if that means real tram ..well it's not bad at all.rolling cigarettes.....and always hungry for food like usual lately...guess 'cause winter is comin'....must gain some fat...like the bears before sleep
 
There I was, moments ago, while disrobing and preparing to take more kratom and smoke some pot to go with all the dissociatives, and the salvia I had been smoking pinches of since last night, when I was rudely interrupted by the most annoyingly god awful fucked up alarm, I'm like "What the Fuck is that?" and it turns out some fuckers lit the building on fire.
So now Im outside and this guy is sitting there smoking a cigarette and I think he is talking to me while hes filming our house burn down, and I turn to say "hey, what's up?" Or something, but he was actually a streamer I guess and he was filming his apartment building burn. He didn't seem like he wanted to talk to some slack jawed narcotized twink He'll probably do numbers, then never again.
Anyways fire fighters came, everything was fine, people who did it were Latin, spanish speaking folk, basically just kids, pretty much just felt bad for them in the end. Now its back to business as usual which means get anesthetized and wait for the constant stream of packages that the mailman keeps bringing me.
 
Bit of an odd evening, but feeling nice right now

- 3 lines of speed
- 2 lines of coke
- 1 small line ketamine
- bunch of weed

so much happend the past few days holyshit. Had a breakdown for a few days, idk complicated, but basically everything is pretty fucked right now.

But finally got to go out again and hang out with my friends at my comfort music venue. Started with a line of blow which made me just awfully jittery, bit paranoid and had trouble forming sentences, I don’t fucking like coke idk why I chose to do that but whatever.

Then had 3 lines of speed, which was really fucking nice. Later did another line of blow and literally right fucking after I come out the toilet stall back to the music room, and an entire situation happens. Long story short cuz ket is hitting hard damn

Uhh man and his wife both fucked up, man was I think nearly overdosing on what i think was coke idk, felt weird handling the situation as a volunteer while also high on speed and coke, bit of a dirty feeling. Ended well, just left odd vibes.

Now home, did some ket and will probably take 15mg diazepam and some melatonin + CBD thingies to knock myself out later cuz ughh uni tomorrow

Good night y’all :)
 
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