So far today:
3mg Buprenorphine
600mg Gabapentin
150mg Caffeine
Lots of Nicotine
Took like 6 grams of White Maeng Da ( still got a tiny bit of stimulating effect despite the subs)
I feel a little bad. Just dropped 250mg of Carisoprodol. Told myself I wouldn't do any today because I did some last night. Just got my first paycheck from my new job after getting fired from my last job and I got so anxious that I started to get chest pain, so I said fuck it and took some Soma. I worked more hours this pay period than I did at my old job AND get tips and it was a couple of hundred less than it would be for the same amount of hours at my old job. Thinking about contacting my old job. They said once I got my shit together that they'd be open to talking about rehiring me. I'm on anti-depressants and Subs and have been doing MUCH better than the few months leading to my firing. It'll just be hard to survive with this job. I mean I'll be able to survive but that's literally all I'll be doing. No luxuries or comforts