Took my daily first dose of Diazepam (10mg - I don't feel 100 even, it's just so I don't seize up and die at this point). Had some coffee.
Took some speed today. ~20mg of Adderall. I've never been "euphoric" from this drug but there's always a profound sense of productivity and I'm realizing that it's become a lot more viable.
Compared to Kratom or Opiates - what I take the most by far - I find Adderall to have its own anti-abuse system. This might sound stupid to some but some other people probably know exactly what I'm talking about. Inherently unable to overuse because of the way tolerance works, where instead of a real tolerance the effects just begin to weaken over the course of a week straight or so until you need to waste some taking so much more and the comedown becomes way worse. It's very easy because of this for me to set it aside and wait it out. I was taking it a month or so ago and I'd usually take it three days in a row, wait four, repeat.
But damn, that two week no-Adderrall period and then taking just half the dose I WAS taking before I waited...it's all reset. If tolerance to opioids or GABA-binding drugs worked like that, "better living through chemistry" would be a seriously honest phrase.
There's also the benefit of me being able to take Adderall for an extended period of time (longest was two years ago, I took it five weeks straight each day at 25mg - 30/40/50/60mg - what I call a care package: a 0 or 00 capsule with additional amphetamine salts to 'augment' the dosage) and then just STOP taking it cold turkey and the result will be that I feel *better* at that point instead of sick.
So I give some props to Amphetamines. No, they're not my thing, but they may just be the most flexible drugs on the planet when it comes to control.
