Hey Bluelighters, I hope everyone is doing well. Today is Rosh Hashanah, as well as my birthday. So I've taken two days off of work, to get some rest and to catch up on some projects now that I can get back to work on music.
I attended the temple services last night in person, and did the morning service today on zoom. It was a good time, and I'm going to be focusing on taking a personal inventory of my actions this past year over the days of atonement in preparation for Yom Kippur. It is a useful practice, and my hope is to be able to properly categorize my shortcomings and successes, reset everything for a fresh start, and prepare to take everything I've learned about the world and myself, to integrate and apply this to the coming year.
I'll probably spend the next couple days resting, reading, watching YouTube, making some progress on my EP, and maybe mix a couple sets as it's been a little bit since I've DJed any. I'm slowly coming to realize that I don't need much more than that in life to be happy, and I'm more able to find contentment in those simple and peaceful things in solitude. Relinquishing my desperate need for validation, companionship, and external fulfillment has been a major process, and I will be continuing down this path to inner peace probably for the rest of my life.
Many cultural traditions across the world, identify the age of 33 as the year that, if you've laid the necessary personal groundwork, you will be able to reach your full potential as a human being. I don't know that I've fulfilled all of those existential requirements yet and will actually make any kind of giant leap forward, but I do know that I've gone through enormous personal growth over the last 5 years, so that's good enough for me, and I can only hope to continue that journey with strength, humility, compassion, and gratitude.
I hope you all enjoy your week and I'm sending everyone a little love
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