well my story starts with them little white Y2K's floating around about this time last year!
Had one on thursday night.No sleep,had another friday night.Again no sleep so had another during the day!By saturday night i was on about my 4th y2k! Thats when shit started to get a little crazy.About an hour after droping the 4th y2k,things all around me where starting to distort and go all wiggle,like crazy.I started to freak out cause id never fealt the way i was fealing on an E before!Thank god we hadnt gone out yet,cause i wouldnt want to know what would have happend.i was at home with lots of friends.Again,lucky!But once i realised that i had no more control of this unexplainable hardcore fealing and situation.I really started to worry myself.Which actually was the reason i started peaking so hard.Because i was scared.Oh and 4 pills and no sleep for x days didnt help the situation either.
I called out to my girl friend across the room who was having a conversation with friends.After what i thought was hours of calling out to her,i got up and screamed her name in an angry tone and asked her to come and cuddle me!See looking at me and spining out amediatly came over and huged me.That was nice but not enough.I started calling out for my friend who was up on the roof at the time.Friends alerted him that i was cained.He climed down straight away.Cause earlier id asked him not to go to far cause i was allready fealing fuct before he climed up the roof.In that time i tried walking up the stairs to my room with my girl friend helping me.4 or 5 steps up and the stair case felt like it was gelly.So i had to stop and sit in like a squat like position in the stair way.Started to get the shivers but they would go once id consontrate on my girls hands rubbing me.But again even that wasnt enough.Id just start peaking more.My friend from the roof was there by then and had a drawing for me he'd just drawn to show me.That was call.Was a picture of me in a fealed of mushrooms and fairy type stuff.I still have the picture!Though again,what ever someone did to make me feal better,it just got stronger,and id start to freak out again!
It got to a point where i could only sit in one position.My girl friend could only rub me in a perticular way.and even hugs where strange.After a while i could only sit still with a sertain shake,with the weight of my friends arm on my leg,and my girlfriend holding me in a perticular way,was the only way i felt safe.If my girlfriend or my friend moved slightly,id start to freak out!I started to feal like i couldnt swallow,which freaked me even more cause i thought i wouldnt be abule to breath.That was the worst bit cause i couldnt even swallow some valium,which i knew would chill me out.i couldnt even drink some water.Friend tried everything to get em into me.Man ive never seen valium in such a powder form.But still couldnt get it into me.Yeah if we had a clue,i would have got em to plug me with vals.
So about after an hour or so of spinning out in the stair way.realising this isnt going away in a hurry,i saw one of my other friends walk by and screamed at her to call me an ambulance.She did staight away without knowing why.She just figured if i asked for one i must really need one!
The ambulance dudes got there in what felt like days.I could here the sirens in my head as soon as my friend droped the phone.They got there in about 10min i think.They really didnt take that long.When they got there i felt just a little bit safer.I finally got up from the stairs.Arms over friends sholders.The ambos couldnt do anything.They just tried to tell me ill be alright,cause i was actually having an anxiety attack.They tried to reashore me id be fine.But said i could go with em to hospital if i still felt i should!man i wanted this fealing to go away,so they took me to the hospital.Even there they couldnt give me anything.I just needed to be around doctors just incase it got worse.I think i just wanted i gab of valium,so i could come down from this nightmare!!!a nurse would walk by to see that i was still fine every?!?!?who knows.by then time was just totally lost in another world.I was in the hospital for about 4 hours,where i think i was just being observed,and reashored that i was going to be fine.They actually where nice doctors,especially for a saturday night at the alfred!!!all they needed was a dude way peaked out on his bickes.I kept telling them sorry that they had to waist there time on a doofess like me who couldnt handle his drugs.I felt really guilt cause there was others who where really sick or injured,but the nurses and doctors would say,but thats what we are here for.
After halucinating my bed sheet was made of little blue square mirror sequence,ide have to shake my head every five minutes to stop the freakie visuals.For a while,my girlfriend who was beside me,peaking aswell.I stated to look at her and her cardigan which was a trippy type of wool,started to blend in with the whole hospital.All i could see was my girls face and everything else blended into her cardigan.The whole hospital was covered in woolen cardigan,and her head was in the middle of it all!!! crazy shit.I would call out to my friends,who i could hear,but where not there. was a very scary experience!
Was so excited when i was told i could go home and ill be fine,and id hadnt taken anything to crazy,and it was alot of anxiety that didnt help my situation!!!
so yeah that was one of the freakiest night of my life ever.
Friends picked me up and took me home to all my other friends
Thanks Princess
for staying right by me every minute.Even though you cant stand hospitals!
and i have to say thanks again to the dudes in the ambulance.They where so nice man!
anywho,this is a long post and it late,so good by for now
oh and remember.Anxiety is not a prerequisite for a good night rooling!
Stay safe people,and remember that when it all gets that bit scary and crazy,and you feal like calling an ambulance,dont hesitate or be paranoid about what they will think.Cause like they kept telling me.Thats what they are there for!
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