what was this experience?

[Mootts]

after worrying for a long time about money while high, got to a point where it was too much, but i did not feel bad or good when it got too much it felt like.. can't explain the feeling but closest i can think of would maybe be 'nothing' it felt like i was just.. there
i felt no need to talk, and i just looked, in one spot, to another spot and all seemed the same
i remember telling my friend 'this dent in this table.. why is it here, why is the table designed this way, what difference does it make? everything is one.. the table is a part of this world.. this world is a part of this universe.. in the end everything is just a part of one..' & 'i can see no difference between the you and that chair' i could acknowledge that they were supposed to be different, but the only thing i could diffrentiate was the fact that my friend could move by itself, but in the end was still the same

it was strange
my friends tried to 'cheer me up' as they thought i was depressed or something at the time but i really don't know what i was feeling and i felt disconnected.. and connected, i really don't know how to explain it.. they tried to make me laugh, and usually i laugh easily as i am easily amused. but there was no humour, no fear, no anything.. can't explain

i felt like i could sit in the same spot, not doing anything.. till the end of time
then my friends took me to the shop, and the journey.. i don't remember very well, but everything i looked at was the same
nothing mattered i don't think.. i don't know..

it was just a strange feeling.. but not feeling.. it was strange

i am wondering if anyone knows what i am talking about? because even now i don't understand it and i've never experienced it before, and it truly was an interesting experience


i apologise for lack of spelling/grammar, it is late and i am tired. cannot sleep.

 

[K12]

yeah when you get like this you have been on dope far too long. Time to clean up a bit and detox. you have been on dope for so many years and gotten used to it that you can't even relate to normal human emotion and behavior anymore. it only gets worse. itz time to get off the dope and start "feeling" ordinary human behavior instead of just living for the high

 

[Fever2010]

I have felt that feeling of "apathy" if that is somewhat-of-a-close diagnosis of your situation. It is supposedly a sign of depression despite there being a complete absence of any "sad" feelings whatsoever. Sometimes, I would just look around and think how everything just "is." Kinda close to what you were saying. and i would feel apathetic, feelingless.

it passes. i figure i could keep going on like that, but its just better to be involved with emotions, both positive and negative. i hate to say "ignorance is bliss," but its more like dont go looking for truth or figuring out life if it starts turning you into an insensitive being. watching a favorite comedian or comedy-movie usually helps the situation