x eNiGmA kiD x
Bluelighter
So you decided (or was told) to cut me off completely...
I'm not trying to act the part of the victim, bewildered, or abused.
something drove you away from me... still to this day I don't get
the answers I quietly beg for...
which I deserve to know, you know I do...
after what we went through.
was it your parents that forced you to eliminate me...
after they found out about us. or are you still in the closet...
you were always too scared, but it didn't bother me, I didn't care...
I stood by you still after they found out... even after you didn't defend it like I did.
Hell, my parents found out too... and they didn't kill me like I thought they were.
yeah they cried...arguments about religion, marriage, and it not being right (all the time).
I didn't care... even though my parents/family was and is one of the most important
pieces to my existence... but I... didn't care.
I was in love with you, I still am.
still after a year of not being able to touch your soft skin I yearn for all... too many times..
or was it your two-face friends that only showed up
when your mom bought you that 90' something automatic bluish malibu.
they were up to no good anyway... seeding into your head
to skip school... to ride them around and smoke all day... that type of thang was what mattered to them...
and you followed...
those were the same friends that weren't by our sides when we didn't have a way of seeing each other...
when I lived in homestead and I was too far
for any of them to give you a lift to were I was at (vise-versa)...
the same friends that tried to get up and in between your legs.
the same friends that don't have morals, self-respect... (Fuck it) No respect for anything...
the same ones that supported you not to come back to me, to a decent girl.
a girl.. that now I can tell was too much for you... or too good.
I was always there... to understand you, give you massages, sexin,
to court you with soft scents and kind words...
cause all along you did do that too, write me poems...
dedicated all sorts of pretty love songs
and made all those promises of leaving everyone behind
to make a happy life, just the two of us... prideful and all.
I, then was the center of you like you were of me... but then we parted...
we needed time to refresh the mess of distance and cool off your parents...
to buy some time till November... November came,
and you didn't...
you got lost in the scene, I know it all to well... the drugs, the sex, the slutty girls thrown in your face...
the scene, ain't gonna ever give you what I can... love.
or was it that I live in a fairy-tale... the one I was brought up to believe...
what was it that drove you away from me?
I still wonder...
[ 19 May 2002: Message edited by: x eNiGmA kiD x ]
I'm not trying to act the part of the victim, bewildered, or abused.
something drove you away from me... still to this day I don't get
the answers I quietly beg for...
which I deserve to know, you know I do...
after what we went through.
was it your parents that forced you to eliminate me...
after they found out about us. or are you still in the closet...
you were always too scared, but it didn't bother me, I didn't care...
I stood by you still after they found out... even after you didn't defend it like I did.
Hell, my parents found out too... and they didn't kill me like I thought they were.
yeah they cried...arguments about religion, marriage, and it not being right (all the time).
I didn't care... even though my parents/family was and is one of the most important
pieces to my existence... but I... didn't care.
I was in love with you, I still am.
still after a year of not being able to touch your soft skin I yearn for all... too many times..
or was it your two-face friends that only showed up
when your mom bought you that 90' something automatic bluish malibu.
they were up to no good anyway... seeding into your head
to skip school... to ride them around and smoke all day... that type of thang was what mattered to them...
and you followed...
those were the same friends that weren't by our sides when we didn't have a way of seeing each other...
when I lived in homestead and I was too far
for any of them to give you a lift to were I was at (vise-versa)...
the same friends that tried to get up and in between your legs.
the same friends that don't have morals, self-respect... (Fuck it) No respect for anything...
the same ones that supported you not to come back to me, to a decent girl.
a girl.. that now I can tell was too much for you... or too good.
I was always there... to understand you, give you massages, sexin,
to court you with soft scents and kind words...
cause all along you did do that too, write me poems...
dedicated all sorts of pretty love songs
and made all those promises of leaving everyone behind
to make a happy life, just the two of us... prideful and all.
I, then was the center of you like you were of me... but then we parted...
we needed time to refresh the mess of distance and cool off your parents...
to buy some time till November... November came,
and you didn't...
you got lost in the scene, I know it all to well... the drugs, the sex, the slutty girls thrown in your face...
the scene, ain't gonna ever give you what I can... love.
or was it that I live in a fairy-tale... the one I was brought up to believe...
what was it that drove you away from me?
I still wonder...
[ 19 May 2002: Message edited by: x eNiGmA kiD x ]
