What to do?

[zephyr]

I guess so, bomber, but I'm too old, tired and fucked up to even try to pretend I'm ok alone. I'm not. As desperate and a turn off as that is, I'm way past those games.

If you cant stand being in your own company, how can you expect anyone else to be around you either?

You are an adult woman in the prime of your life. If you still menstruate you can have kids (maybe) but I suggest you dont with your attitude. Kids are great but they are pretty reliant on a stable parent-not one that that cant seem to stand up for herself and needs to be with guys who beat her or make up complete alternate personalities!

If he keeps saying he will leave then get him to nurse himself back to health elsewhere.

Just wheel him out on to the verge with a blanket and bed pan.


41 "old". Huh? Nah. Youre only going to get older honey.

Dont waste any more time feeling sorry for yourself.

 

[cLaTTeReD]

Can't help someone who doesn't want to be helped

 

[theredgiant]

Never put all your eggs in one basket. Once you found out he was married...that was your cue to make the only good decision possible to save you from being in a fucked up situation but you like fucked up situations because it's exciting to do bad things then pretend you had no clue that bad things were in fact bad and you were oblivious to how bad decisions turn into consequences in your late 30's. But you knew all along and now after countless bad decisions you want to be saved from the bed you have made for yourself. The good news is you are not trapped...there are plenty of lonely guys out there who will let you live with them for free if you pretend to like them and pretend to be interested in what they have to say like the 64 year old man did to you.